I feel infinite.
On Eva's suggestion I finally managed to pick up The Perks of Being a Wallflower today at the library... I had to search for it since it wasn't on the shelf where it should have been but I got it :) What a beautiful book... I biked over to Borders to read it (while listening to the Residents' Cube E: Live in Holland album... what the FUCK... the strangest music EVER... it's hard to believe the audience was actually like WOOing and applauding after the songs and weren't just totally stupefied. Dutch people are so awesome.) Ummm... but oh yeh I picked up some CDs at the library too... Captain Beefheart Saint Etienne Beachwood Sparks Guided by Voices Stereolab Superchunk *cough*The Offspring*cough* :P I just burned the Captain Beefheart well one of the CDs since it's a two-disc collection set thing but it's purdy good. Anyhooo... OH YEAH I biked over to Borders and enjoyed the new egg nog chai while reading Perks... and got fucking absorbbbbbbb'd. What a beautiful book. I totally didn't get into Catcher in the Rye... with this book it's different though I can so relate to it and I really really like the writing style and everything. I suppose the creepy part about the book is that every single character reminds me of someone I know in real life. Or I guess just like I visualize each character as someone I know in real life. Mercedes is so Mary Elizabeth, for sure... Patrick & Sam I donno for some reason in my mind I make them look like Tim & Christina :P Bro's definitely just like my cousin Tucker and I suppose it's kinda weird but I don't see anyone really when I think of Charlie so I guess I'm visualizing myself very much in his role. There's just so fucking much in here I know exactly what he's talking about... the feeling you get when you're riding in a car with friends late at night and a song comes on and you just feel so at peace with everything... that's pretty much all I know of getting "high" thus far in life :P I got that feeling first I think in 8th grade listening to REM's Automatic for the People on a school field trip on the bus. And since then I've definitely gotten it from like... Kevin Hearn and Beck's Sea Change album and Modest Mouse and prolly Jeff Buckley too I think. I donno it's just such an incredible feeling and it's really awesome to know I'm not the only one who gets it :) Charlie's friends sound sooooo much like my friends though which is pretty cool. Heh and he's got excellent taste in music!! He's got frickin Procol Harum and the Moody Blues on his mix... I feel so not guilty now for listening to those "old" bands. A lot of the book actually hits a bit close to home too... like too close... I was really starting to cry when I read Michael's suicide note :'( In the middle of Borders... heh... I don't remember the last time it felt so good to read a book. It's so about me though. "The story of my life," as Eva would say :) I need to find out if Stephen Chbosky has written anything else.
I love me.
I love me.