my rant about old people
I just realised why I hate old people. Yeah, I hate old people. I'm such a douche. But I think it's just because of my fear of being old. I just saw my grandma in the nursing home today. She is dying of cancer she's got multiple brain tumors and crap and she's tired all the time and not very communicative, probably mostly because of all the drugs they've got her on. Anyway. Think about it. Old people... what use do they serve? None. Especially not when they're in a home like that. It must suck. They have no future, really, I mean it must feel awful to know you can't do anything anymore because you're too weak, too senile, too decrepit. All you've got ahead is death. I mean, I'm actually not that afraid of death, like I know when I die it's just going to be the happiest moment of my life, so, I'm OK with it. Death's alright with me, as the Dead Milkmen would say. But being old, like really old like in your late 70s or 80s... you're like just on the edge, I mean you're not really living, but not yet dead. What the fuck. What a raw deal they've been dealt. So I'm really far less afraid of dying young than dying old. And think about it, they probably don't realise what all is happening to them especially if they're all Alzheimer'd out and shit. And people treat you like a child. And people have to moisturize you regularly or you turn into paper or something. I can't imagine how bad that would be and I never want to know. Poor clueless wretches. Sorry for being all disrespectful and everything but I've just been thinking about this lately especially since all I've been doing this weekend is sitting in the old folks' home with my mom and my aunt watching my grandma suck water through a straw and watching those two try to communicate with her and having no luck. And then we leave and they say things like "she drank two cups of water today wow!" or "she was brushing her teeth and I asked her if she wanted to rinse a second time and she said yes wow!" and it's just so pitiful. I can't frigging stand it. I can't bear seeing my grandma that way. Why can't she be the way she was before...