Burnt out.
I'm burnt out. I try to be there for everyone whom I love, but I am so bombarded with mandatory tasks for school and whatnot. Finals. I don't really test well. They always drop my grades... Projects. Why are projects due right before finals? I think it's totally cruel.
I just don't feel like myself. I wake up like a zombie and fry my hair, apply makeup, go on to school feeling drained both physically due to lack of sleep and mentally due to the lack of time to spend with the people whom I love or miss. Whatever happened to my energy? I find it when I'm home or out with my close friends, but never in the daytime anymore. I used to be the most hyperactive individual (not that it's a good thing) but I also do not like how mellow I have become at times. I just want to feel like myself. I want to be able to reach out to everyone I care for and not feel so distant. Summer is the cure to this. I hope. :(
I am blessed with so many beautiful people in my life and I cannot even return phone calls properly. I hate this. What's my problem? It's crazy to think that a year ago my mother was going through chemotherapy. Life has changed so much, for the better, at least compared to last year. I should embrace it more. I should really more take time to appreciate everything in this world. It's all so precious, and somehow we get so caught up into trivial matters that we forget what's truly important. At least I do. Constantly.
I just don't feel like myself. I wake up like a zombie and fry my hair, apply makeup, go on to school feeling drained both physically due to lack of sleep and mentally due to the lack of time to spend with the people whom I love or miss. Whatever happened to my energy? I find it when I'm home or out with my close friends, but never in the daytime anymore. I used to be the most hyperactive individual (not that it's a good thing) but I also do not like how mellow I have become at times. I just want to feel like myself. I want to be able to reach out to everyone I care for and not feel so distant. Summer is the cure to this. I hope. :(
I am blessed with so many beautiful people in my life and I cannot even return phone calls properly. I hate this. What's my problem? It's crazy to think that a year ago my mother was going through chemotherapy. Life has changed so much, for the better, at least compared to last year. I should embrace it more. I should really more take time to appreciate everything in this world. It's all so precious, and somehow we get so caught up into trivial matters that we forget what's truly important. At least I do. Constantly.