reflection & holiday post.
Since it's almost the New Year, I'd like to post some things I've been reflecting upon lately.
The past couple of years have been a blessing, to say the least. My mother has recovered beautifully, and I have found many more sources of positivity in my life. I'm incredibly lucky.
Maybe, at the time, I became distant to some or many simply because I lacked the energy within me to pursue things further, because I was so crushed by the circumstances and lacked the ability to move on. However, it's all a gigantic blur to me. I sometimes question my strength or question my outlook on life. Maybe someday it'll all piece together.
Being home brings back memories of the pain my mother endured, as well as the emotional pain my father and I endured watching her suffer the effects of chemotherapy and radiation, knowing nothing about what the future may bring, but keeping hope and faith alive. Lately though, it has brought me a greater sense of appreciation for all things. Yes, it can be difficult soaking in the memories of a bitter disease, one which now victimizes at least 1/7 of the female population. It can also grant me strength to help others overcome it in the future. I'd like to be involved in supporting breast cancer patients, seeing the devastating effects of this illness. Ultimately, I would like to-- and will, truly make a difference.
For now, I've been granted numerous opportunities for success. I have met some of the most beautiful people and I cherish their presence in my life. Yes, I'm only twenty. Wait-- I'm twenty. Wow. I'm definitely not perfect and not quite what I envisioned myself to be at this age, but I know that I am taking steps in the right direction and that fact alone is enough to make me smile day after day. With the help of numerous amazing individuals, I know that I have endless possibilities ahead of me. For this, I'm truly thankful.
Although the past is irrevocable, I'd like to acknowledge the beauty in the present and future. Although I have accepted that I'm not ever going to be completely content with myself or my reactions toward some of the challenges life has presented me with, I know I always have the option of finding the beauty within them. As I reach a new year, I hope I continue to reach out to others who may also be enduring similar circumstances. I find it important to be a positive presence in the lives of others and to be welcoming. You never know what what someone else is going through.
To everyone who's provided me with support, thank you. You're precious to me. I can truly say I know some really powerful, strong, uplifting people -- and that in itself is a blessing.
*********************
on a lighter note,
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
The past couple of years have been a blessing, to say the least. My mother has recovered beautifully, and I have found many more sources of positivity in my life. I'm incredibly lucky.
Maybe, at the time, I became distant to some or many simply because I lacked the energy within me to pursue things further, because I was so crushed by the circumstances and lacked the ability to move on. However, it's all a gigantic blur to me. I sometimes question my strength or question my outlook on life. Maybe someday it'll all piece together.
Being home brings back memories of the pain my mother endured, as well as the emotional pain my father and I endured watching her suffer the effects of chemotherapy and radiation, knowing nothing about what the future may bring, but keeping hope and faith alive. Lately though, it has brought me a greater sense of appreciation for all things. Yes, it can be difficult soaking in the memories of a bitter disease, one which now victimizes at least 1/7 of the female population. It can also grant me strength to help others overcome it in the future. I'd like to be involved in supporting breast cancer patients, seeing the devastating effects of this illness. Ultimately, I would like to-- and will, truly make a difference.
For now, I've been granted numerous opportunities for success. I have met some of the most beautiful people and I cherish their presence in my life. Yes, I'm only twenty. Wait-- I'm twenty. Wow. I'm definitely not perfect and not quite what I envisioned myself to be at this age, but I know that I am taking steps in the right direction and that fact alone is enough to make me smile day after day. With the help of numerous amazing individuals, I know that I have endless possibilities ahead of me. For this, I'm truly thankful.
Although the past is irrevocable, I'd like to acknowledge the beauty in the present and future. Although I have accepted that I'm not ever going to be completely content with myself or my reactions toward some of the challenges life has presented me with, I know I always have the option of finding the beauty within them. As I reach a new year, I hope I continue to reach out to others who may also be enduring similar circumstances. I find it important to be a positive presence in the lives of others and to be welcoming. You never know what what someone else is going through.
To everyone who's provided me with support, thank you. You're precious to me. I can truly say I know some really powerful, strong, uplifting people -- and that in itself is a blessing.
*********************
on a lighter note,
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!