entry numero uno
username is a relient k song (surprised? you shouldnt be). the lyrics are posted below:
I’ve given up on giving up slowly
I’m blending in so you won’t even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate.
This one last bullet that you mention
It’s my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you must give your life away.
And I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me.
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I’m goin because…
I gotta get out of here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I feel into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape.
I’ve given up on doing this alone now
Guess I failed and I’m ready to be shown how
You told me the way and now I’m tryin to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me.
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I’m goin because…
I gotta get out of here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake (yeah)
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self-detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can’t ask you to give what you already gave.
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
That might be the death of me.
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I’m goin because…
I gotta get out of here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I feel into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape.
I fought you for so long I should have let you win
(Oh how we regret those things we do)
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
(But so were you)
So were you.