i'll be your number one with a bullet (a little bit of everything)

[bemailey]

nicky burned me the new fall out boy cd today. its freaking awesome . but anywho its like 11 oclock and i was just getting ready to go to bed and decided to check my mail and saw that allison wanted me to update so here! your your frickin update!! no just kidding i cant sleep anyway i already tried. got like 3 big tests tomorrow so i was studying

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[im_joan]

God i cant wait til the end, because thats what the goal of everything is, is to finish, to complete, to get to the end. I wonder where the end is for me....right now its the bed i lie down on.

Ben I know exactly how you feel, but don't let it all get to you, the best is yet to come. There are good and bad times and really bad times but then there are really good times and times when you move on with your life and you feel a whole lot better. That is the reality of life, nothing is perfect, nor never will be.

For Stephanie don't let it drag, I miss your guys relationship, we both do. I can't really say much more on that topic because it's between you and her.

Cons: -pennfield sucks
-most of my "friends" suck
-still living in a personal hell
-doing the same thing everyday

You know Ben, that's what makes you stronger. Like me, you know how hard it has been for me and everything but I'm so much stronger now, it's like wow! I've found different people, you don't have to hang out with the same people the rest of your life, and I've moved on because there are going to be MANY situations like this in life, say a job, college, you know all that and there's nothing to do about it except accept it and just don't think of it as "hell" because it doesn't have to be.
And look at your Pro's, there's so much more of those.....see....

smiles are no longer fake

Exactly. And out of all of this we discovered who 'real' friends are and such. It was nasty to go throw and I hated it but you know I'm glad this happened but this was such a big test and they totally failed it, it still saddens me. I'm not going to be something that I'm not, I know you won't either.

Everything is down at times but it's up too. Live for what you have, not dwell over what you have had or want. Life snags at you fast, run! Ha ;)

Yea Ben pick up a Bible or maybe even go to church because for Him. It's helped me a lot and I think it could help a change in your life also, try it.

[bemailey]

holy crap ruth that was deep ur comment was like as long as my entry