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Well... It's been over a year and a half since I've written anything here. My whole life is totally different now... I've moved twice and ended back up at my parents house. I have a full time job as a designer in Delray with some very cool people. My family is transitioning through jobs and school, and I wonder which decisions in my life should have been different. Should I have left Boca when I started college? This way I could have built a life somewhere else. It's not like I really regret the decisions I've made, I just wonder how I ended up back here. I want to be out on my own, but I don't really make enough money to live by myself, with all my bills. I'm thinking of looking for a second job to work on the weekends. I got a puppy back in May, well she was ours, but now she's just mine. She's not much of a puppy anymore, she's 8 months old and quite a handful, but I wouldn't trade her for anything. Even though I live in a house with 4 other people, I feel like it's just me and her now. And it will be that way for a long time. Everyday lately is something different, but not really new or exciting. Everyday also seems to be full of bad luck. The 2 best things in my life are my dog and my job right now, look how far I've come from ways I used to think. Life has changed so much for me in the past few months. My outlook is the same, but different. I still love to watch tv, but much less of it. I watch more movies now, taking them all in and wishing my life was like some of them. I'm never really alone at all anymore, since I can never take my eyes off my puppy for more than 2 minutes or something is destroyed. But she makes me happy. I don't really know what I feel I miss, maybe it is the idea I had dreamed even though it could never be a reality. A possibility of something that was never going to come true no matter how much I held on to hope. I guess if anyone ever needs me, they can find me, eternally stuck in South Florida, hoping to be rescued and holding on to dreams that will probably never come true.