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almost died thursday.... dehydrated to the point where i was slipping into severe shock. fate consipired to save me and prevent me from being on the road when things got very bad. i survived and had some help. i am finally back on my feet and not dead.
caught the scent of death, but it wasn't my time. didn't scare me when it was happening, but these last few days i have been scared out of my mind. being near death isn't what makes you fearful, its coming back from being near death that makes you think you might slip back any moment. thats the part that scares me...
and here i am. writting this down since there really isn't anyone to tell.
no one to come home and say i was worried about you. just me. i wonder if things would have been different if she hadn't broken down and seen i needed help. if the security guard hadn't come out to see what was wrong, if the ems guys got stuck in traffic. been thinking on that for a while...
caught the scent of death, but it wasn't my time. didn't scare me when it was happening, but these last few days i have been scared out of my mind. being near death isn't what makes you fearful, its coming back from being near death that makes you think you might slip back any moment. thats the part that scares me...
and here i am. writting this down since there really isn't anyone to tell.
no one to come home and say i was worried about you. just me. i wonder if things would have been different if she hadn't broken down and seen i needed help. if the security guard hadn't come out to see what was wrong, if the ems guys got stuck in traffic. been thinking on that for a while...