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i hurt cori... i didn't even know she would react like that. i had a really bad day and i went and got a comfort kiss and cuddle and i was so tired i told her...
i don't know why this didn't seem like the disaster it is... SHe has gone out and dated other guys, slept with other guys... been with girls... everything. but she wailed like i stuck her with a knife...
it took me a while but then i remembered its the same noise i made when she told me she was with someone else. the same thing i had to choke back in my craw... and i know i hurt her beyond anything else i could have done.
she might not ever forgive me. i never wanted to hurt her.. not like this, not ever... i still love her and she says she hates me and never wants to talk to me again.... there isn't a worse pain she could give me but she is trying to find one.... randomly trying to get laid to get me back... i just don't want her to get hurt.
and i did it. i am worthles in everything apparently. and thats me.... the end.
i don't know why this didn't seem like the disaster it is... SHe has gone out and dated other guys, slept with other guys... been with girls... everything. but she wailed like i stuck her with a knife...
it took me a while but then i remembered its the same noise i made when she told me she was with someone else. the same thing i had to choke back in my craw... and i know i hurt her beyond anything else i could have done.
she might not ever forgive me. i never wanted to hurt her.. not like this, not ever... i still love her and she says she hates me and never wants to talk to me again.... there isn't a worse pain she could give me but she is trying to find one.... randomly trying to get laid to get me back... i just don't want her to get hurt.
and i did it. i am worthles in everything apparently. and thats me.... the end.