WHAT THE FUCK
I haven't posted in a while. Usually I need some sort of impetus, usually a funny story, to post.
Today I post because I can not hold it in any longer...I THINK I HATE YOU. You make me want ot throw up, and this constant source of bile in my mouth and stomach and thoughts makes me constantly sick. I hate you for calling all the shots, for making me feel terrible about myself in three words. For using me when you need someone to hold you up and dropping me off when you don't. I hate you for stringing me along for five years. I hate you for pretending like you don't care about me or pretending like you do. I could get on with my life if you just made up your fucking mind. Do you want me at all? Or do you just want me wanting you? I'll tell you, you so dont have the second option because I do NOT want someone who treats me like this. Not at all. I'ld actuallly like to punch you in the face for constantly making everything on your FUCKING TERMS. I AM TIRED OF IT. I AM TIRED OF US.
and on another note , I am tired of stupid bitchy girls making me feel terrible about myself. I am not skinny. I realize this. I realize this as I type it. I am not perfect. I don't have great skin, my hair is poofy and I am curvy and my nose is big. I accept all of these things- it would be hard not to after years of your father calling you thunder thighs. What I don't need is you making yourself feel better by bringing me down. You are flat, untalented bitch. and people think you are a nimphomatic crazy bitch. So there. Fuck you,
Liz
Today I post because I can not hold it in any longer...I THINK I HATE YOU. You make me want ot throw up, and this constant source of bile in my mouth and stomach and thoughts makes me constantly sick. I hate you for calling all the shots, for making me feel terrible about myself in three words. For using me when you need someone to hold you up and dropping me off when you don't. I hate you for stringing me along for five years. I hate you for pretending like you don't care about me or pretending like you do. I could get on with my life if you just made up your fucking mind. Do you want me at all? Or do you just want me wanting you? I'll tell you, you so dont have the second option because I do NOT want someone who treats me like this. Not at all. I'ld actuallly like to punch you in the face for constantly making everything on your FUCKING TERMS. I AM TIRED OF IT. I AM TIRED OF US.
and on another note , I am tired of stupid bitchy girls making me feel terrible about myself. I am not skinny. I realize this. I realize this as I type it. I am not perfect. I don't have great skin, my hair is poofy and I am curvy and my nose is big. I accept all of these things- it would be hard not to after years of your father calling you thunder thighs. What I don't need is you making yourself feel better by bringing me down. You are flat, untalented bitch. and people think you are a nimphomatic crazy bitch. So there. Fuck you,
Liz