Man, You ought to see her fly……
Do you ever wonder if one can make it into heaven on broken wings?................................. I really don’t understand myself…… I mean why on earth would a girl ever let a boy who didn’t care for her kiss her with her eyes closed?................... I swear I always think I’m strong enough to let go of these strongholds but I’m beginning to think they are glued to my hands.
So this weekend has been…. Well to say the least eventful…. Blah!
I really do wish I had someone here who I could talk to about this and could at least be present when I really need accountability….. But I won’t always have someone when the temptations of life come my way….. So I guess I should probably learn to rely on God for that one Huh?
And don’t let your mind run wild….. I made out with someone nothing more…. But still…… I let someone who doesn’t desire me or give me butterflies kiss me…… so it was something….. but then again something is always nothing and nothing is always something.
I got to go home this weekend and had a fun time with family my parents were actually cordial towards one another. Momma always looks so sad lately and it breaks my heart. I definitely didn’t go to church this morning…. Odd yes but I really didn’t feel like I was worthy to go…. Silly I know but …….still have you ever just felt like that?
It was very funny this afternoon I rear ended my dad with the old lawnmower while he was on the new one least be said he was quiet angry…… not as angry as the time I ran over his foot with the lawnmower but still quite frustrated. if you want full details on what actually happened then call me
And I tell you this bit of amusement to say this:
I’m tiered of settling for less than what I want.
What do I want?
I want a strong Christian leader who desires me but can control his urges if you will, one who will lead me well not pull me and still not lead me anywhere, and above all else I want some Dang Butterflies when I’m kissed!!!!
Lord grant me patience, b/c we both know at this point I’m losing hope and wondering if it’s all just a fairytale. Help me stay true to our promise keep me accountable to stay pure and give me wisdom and discernment to not put myself in compromising and all together stupid situations….. help me find my butterflies! Lord if not for your sake then the sake of my hormone system (that by the way might I add you created!) and lord forgive my rashness and frustrations.
~Beloved
"And with a broken wing, she still sings.
She' keeps an eye on the sky.
With a broken wing, she carries her dreams.
Man, you ought to see her fly."
So this weekend has been…. Well to say the least eventful…. Blah!
I really do wish I had someone here who I could talk to about this and could at least be present when I really need accountability….. But I won’t always have someone when the temptations of life come my way….. So I guess I should probably learn to rely on God for that one Huh?
And don’t let your mind run wild….. I made out with someone nothing more…. But still…… I let someone who doesn’t desire me or give me butterflies kiss me…… so it was something….. but then again something is always nothing and nothing is always something.
I got to go home this weekend and had a fun time with family my parents were actually cordial towards one another. Momma always looks so sad lately and it breaks my heart. I definitely didn’t go to church this morning…. Odd yes but I really didn’t feel like I was worthy to go…. Silly I know but …….still have you ever just felt like that?
It was very funny this afternoon I rear ended my dad with the old lawnmower while he was on the new one least be said he was quiet angry…… not as angry as the time I ran over his foot with the lawnmower but still quite frustrated. if you want full details on what actually happened then call me
And I tell you this bit of amusement to say this:
I’m tiered of settling for less than what I want.
What do I want?
I want a strong Christian leader who desires me but can control his urges if you will, one who will lead me well not pull me and still not lead me anywhere, and above all else I want some Dang Butterflies when I’m kissed!!!!
Lord grant me patience, b/c we both know at this point I’m losing hope and wondering if it’s all just a fairytale. Help me stay true to our promise keep me accountable to stay pure and give me wisdom and discernment to not put myself in compromising and all together stupid situations….. help me find my butterflies! Lord if not for your sake then the sake of my hormone system (that by the way might I add you created!) and lord forgive my rashness and frustrations.
~Beloved
"And with a broken wing, she still sings.
She' keeps an eye on the sky.
With a broken wing, she carries her dreams.
Man, you ought to see her fly."