Have you ever just wondered what in the world is God doing in your life?!?!
okay so I had an amazing weekend with my Mom she came down and stayed fri-sun. I got extreamly frustratedd with my self and my dad which put a damper on things but spending time with my mom really helped me bounce back from that. She enjoyed herself and called it her vacation (lol... I wish she could have a better vacation than spending time with me in b'ham). I relized a few things this weekend:
1.) october is going to be the bussiest month of my entier life.
2.) I'm frustrated that I have taken on the mentality of "I am doing all the same things as i did this summer with the church and I'm not getting paid for this"
3.) if I really believe I'm supossed to be in medical school so things need to be priortized (majorly).
4.) I'm allowing a planner and a watch to control my life again and there is no going to bolivia this year to figure out that Doesn't want me to allow that.
5.) I really need to study more alot more.
6.) I'm moving back on campus.
7.) all of the above was revieled through 2 passages of scripture (Genisis and Joshua) and in one sunday which remonded me that I hadn't picked up my bible since that monday which really sucks b/c I refuse to absolutly refuse to let God take a back burner in my life again!
some things that are bothering me:
1.) I have no clue what God is doing in my life right now and it scares, excites, and confuses me.
2.) random people who are going through situations I've been through are being put in my path and I haven't a clue why (well i know why I'm just not sure i'm ready for it)
3.) the I will never's are coming back to bite me in the butt and we are now down to 1 "I will never" and this one is a dozy and well i'm not ready to approch that one.
4.) I'm over committed and over whellmed and I think I am enjoying it.
5.) for nearly and entire week I have felt burdened and it becomes stronger everytime I set foot in the youth room at church to a point where i feel like i've stopped breathing and all i can do is cry.
6.) I have become overly emotional in the past 2 weeks and it's driving me crazy.
7.) I feel numb to a lot of things (okay everything).... and I don't know where that came form.
1.) october is going to be the bussiest month of my entier life.
2.) I'm frustrated that I have taken on the mentality of "I am doing all the same things as i did this summer with the church and I'm not getting paid for this"
3.) if I really believe I'm supossed to be in medical school so things need to be priortized (majorly).
4.) I'm allowing a planner and a watch to control my life again and there is no going to bolivia this year to figure out that Doesn't want me to allow that.
5.) I really need to study more alot more.
6.) I'm moving back on campus.
7.) all of the above was revieled through 2 passages of scripture (Genisis and Joshua) and in one sunday which remonded me that I hadn't picked up my bible since that monday which really sucks b/c I refuse to absolutly refuse to let God take a back burner in my life again!
some things that are bothering me:
1.) I have no clue what God is doing in my life right now and it scares, excites, and confuses me.
2.) random people who are going through situations I've been through are being put in my path and I haven't a clue why (well i know why I'm just not sure i'm ready for it)
3.) the I will never's are coming back to bite me in the butt and we are now down to 1 "I will never" and this one is a dozy and well i'm not ready to approch that one.
4.) I'm over committed and over whellmed and I think I am enjoying it.
5.) for nearly and entire week I have felt burdened and it becomes stronger everytime I set foot in the youth room at church to a point where i feel like i've stopped breathing and all i can do is cry.
6.) I have become overly emotional in the past 2 weeks and it's driving me crazy.
7.) I feel numb to a lot of things (okay everything).... and I don't know where that came form.