Sep 14, 2004 20:19
So I am almost finished with step one of my self enforced renewal plan. I got my bed...which is urrrr god...queen pillowtop - it's like a throne. I got my black and burgundy sheets. I did get my black metal canopy bed, but it was banged up - so michelle and I have to return it. I still have more to get for myself...
then to the gym...which I guess I will get one at TOO YOUR HEALTH since every where else wants to ass rape you for cash.
Then in January I am going back to school to take my paralegal courses.
I got a CIngular Phone... I will have a new number and get rid of the old... like sheding snake skin...I will let everyone know my new number.
So things are well... as they can be considering this past summer. The summer my dad passed. It's like all the good things about him - are in me...
I am grateful for the ppl around me now. My mom. Michelle...tracy...curt.
I wont let anything/anyone pull me back, nor distract me. I am fully motivated in my goals right now. Those are the sort of ppl I want around me to.
To an old friend - forgiveness has always been in my heart. I cannot make you into what I want in my life right now though. Seems like you are on a different path. I feel that the gradual decent in our relationship was change...and your need to "punish" me. I no longer question my self on my action, I believe everything I did was truly real, but I cannot make any further effort to retrieve. After all you pulled, and I let go. I am done being the mender.
Tracy --- message. I called you the other night but you were at the one chicks house. I left a message with your sister. Give me a call captain.