More life lessons...
Who knew that I would've got a new life lesson from a night of mild drinking and wishing I could "dance with swagger"? But I did, none the less. Last night was fantastic. Off to a late start because of the basketball game going into overtime (and after all of that, we LOST! *sigh*), but eventually I got to Amanda's room. At which point I discovered I had found an alcoholic drink she actually enjoys! Awesomesauce. So we just sort of sat around having a drink or two and watching America's Best Dance Crew. At which point I decided 'I wish I could dance like that', and attempted to do so. For those of you who don't know me, I have the dancing ability of a rock. I couldn't dance to save my life, if it came down to it. It's pretty helpless. But I danced, and laughed, and sat around and talked. And it was a great feeling, to lose that little voice that always seems to be present in my head making me re-think every little move I make and keeping me from saying things because I'm afraid it may possible maybe be taken the wrong way by somebody in the universe, which is how I generally live my life.
I know the alcohol helped a little in the whole 'not over thinking everything', but I realized that there is no reason why I can't be like that 24/7. Not drinking 24/7, but able to quiet that voice at times and just have a little fun, regardless of what people around me would think about it. I'm pretty sure Amanda enjoyed my company 20 times more last night than she had any of our other get togethers all year (she can refute me on this if she wants, though I don't think she will). I'm not saying I'm going to dance in public (that is still a terrible idea), but I am going to remind myself that I don't always have to think so hard about trying to please everyone all of the time. I don't have to worry about what everyone things about me when I say or do things, as long as I'm enjoying myself every now and again. That sometimes it's okay to ignore that little voice saying 'you look RIDICULOUS', because sometimes it's fun to be a little ridiculous. Not all the time. That voice has kept me out of trouble plenty in the past. But sometimes.
A great weekend lies ahead during which I suppose I will continue to test this theory. Trial run a new persona. Erica, version 1.9 (it's in beta testing. When it is officially released it will be 2.0). Looking forward to lunch with friends, a movie or bowling, maybe a party tonight, Motion City Soundtrack tomorrow, and who knows what else the weekend may bring (besides the epic reading due for my Political Science class, of course).
Wishing you all a fantastic weekend!