Been a long while
Oh my goodness... I thought I had forgotten my PW... and after sooooooooooooooooo long... i have decided to try with a random password. it works!!!!
from the last post till now.. lots of things have been happening...
flashing back, from the time that i broke up with JT, till now... have been dating different guys... on and off.. shitty ones.. and perhaps... 1 nice one. It makes me think... is it me? or is it the guys? for 3-4 years.. i have been meeting jerks.. guys that just want to get under your pants.. guys who are just out for fun.... and perhaps i just meet them at the wrong time...
oh well.. i guess if i go through the list, it's not gonna end.
however... it's weird that... he disappeared.. let's term him guy B (since he is the past) I hate guys to MIA on me. well... he is not good looking, short.. etc etc. and yess..... i admit. to an extent, i am superficial.. no doubt about it and i believe its innate in most human nature. BUT!!! the moment guy B stop all contact... seemingly weird.... i start to draw away.
i mean.. hey... 3 years of meeting jerks?!?!?! no choice that i am naturally defensive and protective of myself and my emotions. its not like i wanna get married now... but its good to find just a soulmate... someone whom you can trust and be your best friend...
well... shortly after.. MT introduced to me his new colleague.. (and since he is the present.. let's term guy A).. just knew him for 2 weeks.... i am happy... not the exaggerated kinda happy feeling... but its the subtle happy blissful feeling that.. i like... :)
But... its all happening to fast... with my nature.. i'm worried the moment im deployed to branch and things might change??
yesterday was a nice day... spent it with MT, A and their colleagues/friends.... would this blissful/happy feeling continue? i do not dare to gurantee.. i just pray for the best...
still apprehensive though...
from the last post till now.. lots of things have been happening...
flashing back, from the time that i broke up with JT, till now... have been dating different guys... on and off.. shitty ones.. and perhaps... 1 nice one. It makes me think... is it me? or is it the guys? for 3-4 years.. i have been meeting jerks.. guys that just want to get under your pants.. guys who are just out for fun.... and perhaps i just meet them at the wrong time...
oh well.. i guess if i go through the list, it's not gonna end.
however... it's weird that... he disappeared.. let's term him guy B (since he is the past) I hate guys to MIA on me. well... he is not good looking, short.. etc etc. and yess..... i admit. to an extent, i am superficial.. no doubt about it and i believe its innate in most human nature. BUT!!! the moment guy B stop all contact... seemingly weird.... i start to draw away.
i mean.. hey... 3 years of meeting jerks?!?!?! no choice that i am naturally defensive and protective of myself and my emotions. its not like i wanna get married now... but its good to find just a soulmate... someone whom you can trust and be your best friend...
well... shortly after.. MT introduced to me his new colleague.. (and since he is the present.. let's term guy A).. just knew him for 2 weeks.... i am happy... not the exaggerated kinda happy feeling... but its the subtle happy blissful feeling that.. i like... :)
But... its all happening to fast... with my nature.. i'm worried the moment im deployed to branch and things might change??
yesterday was a nice day... spent it with MT, A and their colleagues/friends.... would this blissful/happy feeling continue? i do not dare to gurantee.. i just pray for the best...
still apprehensive though...