I knew this would happen
I'm in Mudd the sunday of Thanksgiving break writing all of my ten page paper dur tomorrow at 9 am. Of course this was going to happen if you assign the deadline to be the day after break. Grr. What an oblivious bastard.
That was a strong word.
So, I'm taking a break to update. Thanksgiving break was really good. I ran in the Turkey Trot, had a great dinner (although the little people couldn't come because they all got the flu:( Poor baby Charles, Ella, John, and Monica!). I got lots of sleep Thursday night (11 hours almost!!) Then Friday i had lunch with Kirby and Marjorie, which was nice, although slightly wierd. marjorie's just a wierd girl. I like seeing Kirby alone. But it was good. And then i drove to Chicago Comics to see Hatuey, where I was very vervous and walked past the shop a few times before I could make myself just go in. But then i went in, and walked up to the counter where he was and he did this double take and then got this big smile and was happy to see me. He, apparently hadn't checked his email and hadn't gotten the message that I was coming in, so it was really a big surprise. which was fun for me. We made a plan to meet after he got off work, so we did. We went to the Bourgeois Pig and got tea and talked to our friend Valerie who we both used to work with, which wsa nice. And we talked and talked. And then i drove him home -i was heading down to hyde park afterward to Shmug's house. So we were sitting in my car for a while and he was doing his awekward joking cute thing and we weren't really addressing anything. And then he said something like, "it's hard because it's like, 'Where are we?'" and we talked about it. He said he misses me, and he wanted to invite me upstairs, but he wasn't sure we should, etc etc. I agreed with him on everything, and then took his hand and asked if i could kiss him. So we kissed for a while and it was so so nice. I said something like, "I don't think i ever really told you, but it was so nice this summer because it was calm and fun." And we both felt that we didn't know what we should do. I said I knew i didn't want anything really serious, and he said he didn't really either. And then he said, "you can still go on all the opera dates you want." We had planned to meet the next day after work as well becasue he and his roommates were having a party. So we said goodnight, and then i drove to hyde park where i saw elaine, Snidal, Turek, Shmug, Wasik (who said we should get lunch together sometime...weird), junior girls, Marty, brian gill, Cris Amos, and others. it was nice to see them all, but I'm just so different from them right now. The dynamic between these state school boys is really bizarre sometimes. It was so nice seeing Elaine. I went home late, and slept in Saturday morning. I picked Greg up and took him to the HP where we ate att Florian, poked aroun Bauer's house. It was really nice. He's a good guy and I like being a part of my Jessie's new world like this. Then I went home and was GOING to write this paper, but then Ashley Kramar called and we ended up talking forever. Which was nice. I tehn picked Hatuey up from work (along with his coworker who he hates but still told her she should come to his party and could get a ride. She's not so bad, in my opinion though. Although i don't work with her, and she hasn't slapped me...) The party was ok. I had a few very awekward conversations with everyone because mot of them know eachother, and then here I am, this undefined girl that Hatuey brought. And they're all very hip with short bangs etc. But it was fine, epecially after a few beers. I spent most of the night talking to Hatuey's guy friends, who I really like, better than the girls who were there. But it just lasted so long and i kept being in these long conversations that i wanted to end so I could pull hatuey aside. So FINALLY at like 2:30 i tore myself away and brought Hatuey into the bathroom where we talked a little more and kissed some more. And then people needed to use the bathroom, so we came out and went into his room, which was VERY strange. i told him that i don't ever really go into rooms with people at parties, and he said he didn't either. But we got over that quickly. It was really nice -we didn't sleep together but I definetely could have. i told him i don't know wht it is about him. Other guys ask me out and i'm so not interested, but with him, its just one kiss, and I'm like Take Me! Anyway, so there was lots of talking and balancing between being sad and happy. I kept saying i was worried, and i felt bad for leaving, adn he was worried and felt bad too. And I said How do we define this? I don't know what this is. And he said he didn't either. And then we resolved it sort of by just letting t be undefined for now. it was really sweet, actually, he said somethign like, "I'm worried about the same things you are. it's ok." I wish I could explain exactly the dynamic between us and exactly what we decided...But anyway, I'm gone already, and, we're both lookign forward to three weeks when i come home again. It's hard though because i can't stay in Chicago during winter term for him, and he told me that too. But it would be nice. But I'm not going to. I think I'm going to Scotland and then to New York to dance. Hatuey will just be this fleeting presence i suppose. Ahh.
Now that that's all out. I only go five hours of sleep last night. I really want to go watch the L word with all my Lesbian friends + leah in an hour, and i have 8 more pages to go. If i can get through page 4, maybe I'll let myself go...we'll see.
That was a strong word.
So, I'm taking a break to update. Thanksgiving break was really good. I ran in the Turkey Trot, had a great dinner (although the little people couldn't come because they all got the flu:( Poor baby Charles, Ella, John, and Monica!). I got lots of sleep Thursday night (11 hours almost!!) Then Friday i had lunch with Kirby and Marjorie, which was nice, although slightly wierd. marjorie's just a wierd girl. I like seeing Kirby alone. But it was good. And then i drove to Chicago Comics to see Hatuey, where I was very vervous and walked past the shop a few times before I could make myself just go in. But then i went in, and walked up to the counter where he was and he did this double take and then got this big smile and was happy to see me. He, apparently hadn't checked his email and hadn't gotten the message that I was coming in, so it was really a big surprise. which was fun for me. We made a plan to meet after he got off work, so we did. We went to the Bourgeois Pig and got tea and talked to our friend Valerie who we both used to work with, which wsa nice. And we talked and talked. And then i drove him home -i was heading down to hyde park afterward to Shmug's house. So we were sitting in my car for a while and he was doing his awekward joking cute thing and we weren't really addressing anything. And then he said something like, "it's hard because it's like, 'Where are we?'" and we talked about it. He said he misses me, and he wanted to invite me upstairs, but he wasn't sure we should, etc etc. I agreed with him on everything, and then took his hand and asked if i could kiss him. So we kissed for a while and it was so so nice. I said something like, "I don't think i ever really told you, but it was so nice this summer because it was calm and fun." And we both felt that we didn't know what we should do. I said I knew i didn't want anything really serious, and he said he didn't really either. And then he said, "you can still go on all the opera dates you want." We had planned to meet the next day after work as well becasue he and his roommates were having a party. So we said goodnight, and then i drove to hyde park where i saw elaine, Snidal, Turek, Shmug, Wasik (who said we should get lunch together sometime...weird), junior girls, Marty, brian gill, Cris Amos, and others. it was nice to see them all, but I'm just so different from them right now. The dynamic between these state school boys is really bizarre sometimes. It was so nice seeing Elaine. I went home late, and slept in Saturday morning. I picked Greg up and took him to the HP where we ate att Florian, poked aroun Bauer's house. It was really nice. He's a good guy and I like being a part of my Jessie's new world like this. Then I went home and was GOING to write this paper, but then Ashley Kramar called and we ended up talking forever. Which was nice. I tehn picked Hatuey up from work (along with his coworker who he hates but still told her she should come to his party and could get a ride. She's not so bad, in my opinion though. Although i don't work with her, and she hasn't slapped me...) The party was ok. I had a few very awekward conversations with everyone because mot of them know eachother, and then here I am, this undefined girl that Hatuey brought. And they're all very hip with short bangs etc. But it was fine, epecially after a few beers. I spent most of the night talking to Hatuey's guy friends, who I really like, better than the girls who were there. But it just lasted so long and i kept being in these long conversations that i wanted to end so I could pull hatuey aside. So FINALLY at like 2:30 i tore myself away and brought Hatuey into the bathroom where we talked a little more and kissed some more. And then people needed to use the bathroom, so we came out and went into his room, which was VERY strange. i told him that i don't ever really go into rooms with people at parties, and he said he didn't either. But we got over that quickly. It was really nice -we didn't sleep together but I definetely could have. i told him i don't know wht it is about him. Other guys ask me out and i'm so not interested, but with him, its just one kiss, and I'm like Take Me! Anyway, so there was lots of talking and balancing between being sad and happy. I kept saying i was worried, and i felt bad for leaving, adn he was worried and felt bad too. And I said How do we define this? I don't know what this is. And he said he didn't either. And then we resolved it sort of by just letting t be undefined for now. it was really sweet, actually, he said somethign like, "I'm worried about the same things you are. it's ok." I wish I could explain exactly the dynamic between us and exactly what we decided...But anyway, I'm gone already, and, we're both lookign forward to three weeks when i come home again. It's hard though because i can't stay in Chicago during winter term for him, and he told me that too. But it would be nice. But I'm not going to. I think I'm going to Scotland and then to New York to dance. Hatuey will just be this fleeting presence i suppose. Ahh.
Now that that's all out. I only go five hours of sleep last night. I really want to go watch the L word with all my Lesbian friends + leah in an hour, and i have 8 more pages to go. If i can get through page 4, maybe I'll let myself go...we'll see.