ho hum
oh man. I didn't get very much sleep last night. I had to write a paper after a capella rehersal and then couldn't fall asleep and then woke up before my alarm. Still though, until now, I've been feeling pretty wonderful all day. I actually went and had breakfast at Old B. It's this crazy new thing I'm trying, breakfast. It's AMAZING how much better I feel when I've actually had something to eat in the morning. I usually scarf down an apple and maybe a granola bar, but it definetely doens't cut it. Its so nice not being starving two hours before lunch.
And it's been so beautiful outside. I just want to dance and play guitar and walk around the arb all day. I've been finding it hard to work today. After lunch, I had three hours to work between lunch and dance and I sat on the porch an talked with Leah the whole time. Oh lord. I've just been very lazidaisical. Even now, I have a study group in a little more than an hour, and I haven't read the paper for it, I'm just very tired, and now feeling a bloated from having eaten too much too quickly, which often happens when I didn't get enough sleep the night before.
I feel like I'm just meandering through life right now. I go through bouts when I'm pretty lonely, but for the most part, I'm not really sure what I've been thinking about. I have been pretty boy crazy recently. I'm sooo sick of the will jafee situation I want to shoot myself everytime I see him. And yet I keep thinking about him. I actually have started going out of my way so that I might bump into him. (You know it's bad when...) The most frusterating thing about the whole situation is that I'm somewhat convinced that when I actually get to know him, I'm not going to like him at all. I just found out the other day that he has a tatoo on his calf of a lacross stick and an "OC." As in Oberlin College. What is that? Who is this guy? And WHY do i get all flustered every time I see him. RARG! Hhhh, I'm making myself angry.
On a different note, I LOVE my dance class so much. Everyday I don't have it I wish I did. And I love my guitar lessons thus far. I definetely have a crush on my teacher... He's my age and so great. I could definetely go for him. And I've already gotten better. The other day he had me improving with the blues scale! It was so fun!
-I miss Hatuey too. I haven't written him for a while. He wrote me a short note last weekend sayign he'd write more later, which he hasn't done yet. Oh I'm frusterated. In many ways. It's definetely not liek I think about him all the time. Fuck, I think about Will more than I think abotu him. But everytime I do, Im' reminded of how good it was this summer. How nice it was to have something that relaxed and fun and good. sigh. The frusterating part is that I don't know how he's feeling. Is he just tryign to be mature or does he really just not want anything between us anymore. I mean, we're not going to have anything, but....then I guess it doesn't matter what he wants. Right emily. Just let it goooo.
Ok, I'm going to go play some guitar. And then read the paper.
And it's been so beautiful outside. I just want to dance and play guitar and walk around the arb all day. I've been finding it hard to work today. After lunch, I had three hours to work between lunch and dance and I sat on the porch an talked with Leah the whole time. Oh lord. I've just been very lazidaisical. Even now, I have a study group in a little more than an hour, and I haven't read the paper for it, I'm just very tired, and now feeling a bloated from having eaten too much too quickly, which often happens when I didn't get enough sleep the night before.
I feel like I'm just meandering through life right now. I go through bouts when I'm pretty lonely, but for the most part, I'm not really sure what I've been thinking about. I have been pretty boy crazy recently. I'm sooo sick of the will jafee situation I want to shoot myself everytime I see him. And yet I keep thinking about him. I actually have started going out of my way so that I might bump into him. (You know it's bad when...) The most frusterating thing about the whole situation is that I'm somewhat convinced that when I actually get to know him, I'm not going to like him at all. I just found out the other day that he has a tatoo on his calf of a lacross stick and an "OC." As in Oberlin College. What is that? Who is this guy? And WHY do i get all flustered every time I see him. RARG! Hhhh, I'm making myself angry.
On a different note, I LOVE my dance class so much. Everyday I don't have it I wish I did. And I love my guitar lessons thus far. I definetely have a crush on my teacher... He's my age and so great. I could definetely go for him. And I've already gotten better. The other day he had me improving with the blues scale! It was so fun!
-I miss Hatuey too. I haven't written him for a while. He wrote me a short note last weekend sayign he'd write more later, which he hasn't done yet. Oh I'm frusterated. In many ways. It's definetely not liek I think about him all the time. Fuck, I think about Will more than I think abotu him. But everytime I do, Im' reminded of how good it was this summer. How nice it was to have something that relaxed and fun and good. sigh. The frusterating part is that I don't know how he's feeling. Is he just tryign to be mature or does he really just not want anything between us anymore. I mean, we're not going to have anything, but....then I guess it doesn't matter what he wants. Right emily. Just let it goooo.
Ok, I'm going to go play some guitar. And then read the paper.