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My high school reunion is next weekend, and I am filled with so much anxiety. I just think of the really bad memories of it, and I'm so scared of setting foot back in the building after five years and having people bring all of that back up. I can't help but think about those four years, which were possibly the lowest years of my life. It was hard keeping that inside since the school is so small that people talk. I don't know what to expect when I get there and see people again.
I'm currently in a whirlwind of emotions regarding C. He's currently away in Miami, and he won't be back until Monday or Tuesday. I go between missing him to thinking that I shouldn't waste my time wishing for something that won't happen. I still want him to be my trainer, but I'm just so confused by the whole thing. Then there's E who works at the same gym, but as the manager. I definitely know that he's noticed me, but it was on Wednesday that we were actually chatting. I thought that there was some interest, but I can't read men at all, so it all depends on what happens this Tuesday.
I'm currently in a whirlwind of emotions regarding C. He's currently away in Miami, and he won't be back until Monday or Tuesday. I go between missing him to thinking that I shouldn't waste my time wishing for something that won't happen. I still want him to be my trainer, but I'm just so confused by the whole thing. Then there's E who works at the same gym, but as the manager. I definitely know that he's noticed me, but it was on Wednesday that we were actually chatting. I thought that there was some interest, but I can't read men at all, so it all depends on what happens this Tuesday.