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It's official. I'm totally attracted to Chris. However, whenever I'm attracted to someone they're always unavailable in some way. The scoop that I got was that he's 11 years my senior and that he's been living with some woman for quite a period of time, but they haven't been having sex for a considerable amount of time. Then there's the issue of actual attraction. No guy I like is ever actually attracted to me, and to be honest I wouldn't expect him to, not when I'm sure he has more gorgeous clients than I. I somehow attract immature fuckwads and really creepy guys who are a little too into black women. Then there's the whole trainer-client dynamic. Let's say there's actually enough attraction on his end to want to fuck me. He's still going to be my trainer. How would that work in the gym? But seriously, there's just something about this guy that I just am so into. He's hot, he's such a nice guy and easy to talk to, and he just has this confidence about him that I find so appealing. I don't know who wouldn't be attracted to him. The only thing that would make me stand out would be my personality and charm. Which leads to my next problem...
Now, I know I'm a friendly person, I smile a lot, and I love meeting new people. The flirting thing, though, is something that's definitely not my strong suit. I'm very shy when it comes to guys I like. In addition, I'm so oblivious to signals from guys except for when they're outright interested. How do I deal with that? Then I also don't do rejection well. It's more like, I internalize it and won't put my hand into the fire again in subsequent guys I'm interested in.
Chris is the kind of guy who I'd want in my life, if not in a sexual manner, then as a good friend, and someone who's my motivator and drill sargeant.
Now, I know I'm a friendly person, I smile a lot, and I love meeting new people. The flirting thing, though, is something that's definitely not my strong suit. I'm very shy when it comes to guys I like. In addition, I'm so oblivious to signals from guys except for when they're outright interested. How do I deal with that? Then I also don't do rejection well. It's more like, I internalize it and won't put my hand into the fire again in subsequent guys I'm interested in.
Chris is the kind of guy who I'd want in my life, if not in a sexual manner, then as a good friend, and someone who's my motivator and drill sargeant.