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I feel so old and tired but also so afraid and vunerable. I'm getting ready for my brain to be completely restarted in college, along with my heart. Very strange, this whole severing of ties. I did the wrong thing and tied myself to two people for the past two, almost three years. Caitlin it's been more like... 5 or 6 years.
This summer I'm also going away to Idaho for five weeks to work out in the woods, building trails and such. I've been judging it as a kind of buddhist/confidence-building retreat. But it sucks that I miss more than half of my last summer with my two best friends.
It's been making me anxious.
But I have a whole life in front of me, so I need to focous on the positives. I just needed to get that little rant out of my system.
This summer I'm also going away to Idaho for five weeks to work out in the woods, building trails and such. I've been judging it as a kind of buddhist/confidence-building retreat. But it sucks that I miss more than half of my last summer with my two best friends.
It's been making me anxious.
But I have a whole life in front of me, so I need to focous on the positives. I just needed to get that little rant out of my system.