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Originally posted by belleza_poeta at post
I feel like doing a little writing therapy....I haven't mentioned this in my journal yet, one of the reason's I was gone so long was because at first it was depression, I've suffered from this for years,and after 20 years my doctor finally diagnosed what he believes is the cause of my depression, which ended up being bi-polar disorder, my medication was worked out and I was starting to feel a lot better when my sister, Janet died in a house fire on April 5th, she was a year older than me, and I Love her with all that is in me.
I'm feeling so many emotions with such intensity at one time, that I don't know how to react or what do and I just want this horrible ache in my heart to ease.
Janet was such a wonderful person, warm, caring and generous. Words cannot describe how much she meant to me, I find myself reaching for the phone to call her, only to have reality smack me in the face, I can't even erase her number off my cell phone, it feels too final. She was the true artist in the family and the one who inspired me in my poetry. Janet, I will always love you.
I'm feeling sorry for myself tonight, so forgive me, just wanted to share a part of me, actually a very big part of me, I know this because when she died she did take a part of me with her... I also believe she left a little of herself with me, and for that I am grateful.
Dee
I feel like doing a little writing therapy....I haven't mentioned this in my journal yet, one of the reason's I was gone so long was because at first it was depression, I've suffered from this for years,and after 20 years my doctor finally diagnosed what he believes is the cause of my depression, which ended up being bi-polar disorder, my medication was worked out and I was starting to feel a lot better when my sister, Janet died in a house fire on April 5th, she was a year older than me, and I Love her with all that is in me.
I'm feeling so many emotions with such intensity at one time, that I don't know how to react or what do and I just want this horrible ache in my heart to ease.
Janet was such a wonderful person, warm, caring and generous. Words cannot describe how much she meant to me, I find myself reaching for the phone to call her, only to have reality smack me in the face, I can't even erase her number off my cell phone, it feels too final. She was the true artist in the family and the one who inspired me in my poetry. Janet, I will always love you.
I'm feeling sorry for myself tonight, so forgive me, just wanted to share a part of me, actually a very big part of me, I know this because when she died she did take a part of me with her... I also believe she left a little of herself with me, and for that I am grateful.
Dee