Give up
Random rant in my personal life.
I give up. It's hard to pretend that everything's fine. It's hard to pretend that I'm okay. It's hard to pretend that I'm cool, and I'm not bothered.
But the fact that little by little all the self restraint of saying the things I want to tell you got thinner and thinner as the day goes by. I don't want this. I don't want to let it all out. Because I know that when I did, everything will be ruined.
I want to cry but I don't know how.
I want to scream but I don't have the voice.
I want to run away but it still led me back to where I am.
I don't want this.
And this is my first true heartbreak that I've felt.
And pretending is the only way that I could escape it.
I give up. It's hard to pretend that everything's fine. It's hard to pretend that I'm okay. It's hard to pretend that I'm cool, and I'm not bothered.
But the fact that little by little all the self restraint of saying the things I want to tell you got thinner and thinner as the day goes by. I don't want this. I don't want to let it all out. Because I know that when I did, everything will be ruined.
I want to cry but I don't know how.
I want to scream but I don't have the voice.
I want to run away but it still led me back to where I am.
I don't want this.
And this is my first true heartbreak that I've felt.
And pretending is the only way that I could escape it.