do you dream about music
weltschmerz (VELT-shmerts) noun
World weariness; pessimism, apathy, or sadness felt at the difference
between physical reality and the ideal state.
[From German Weltschmerz, from Welt (world) + Schmerz (pain).]
It's been so beautiful lately. I don't know why I haven't felt like writing. Even now, I'm doing this because I feel I have to, because if people don't hear from me they'll forget about me or stop caring or something. Not really, but I am doing this by rote. Because I really have nothing to say.
That's a lie. I do. I don't want to say it. I won't say it. I have to keep thinking about it, even though it hurts and I don't want to, but I have to. I have to.
Sunjay's phone was turned off all day yesterday. I called him twice and he hasn't called me back. I don't think I'm seriously worried about his health and safety, but I'm worried about him. He's been under a lot of stress lately. He won't talk about it. I can't do anything, and that hurts.
I want school to be over next week. I want to start summer and lie around and read and get a job and tan and wear tank tops. I want to be skinny and work out more and not feel like I need to change myself. I want to know why things are bothering me and what I can do about them and where the heck I'm supposed to go. I don't like doubt; I don't like being forced to examine things which I'd rather let alone.
God is conscience. He is even the atheism of the atheist. -Mohandas K. Gandhi
This is an intriguing thought. I wonder.
World weariness; pessimism, apathy, or sadness felt at the difference
between physical reality and the ideal state.
[From German Weltschmerz, from Welt (world) + Schmerz (pain).]
It's been so beautiful lately. I don't know why I haven't felt like writing. Even now, I'm doing this because I feel I have to, because if people don't hear from me they'll forget about me or stop caring or something. Not really, but I am doing this by rote. Because I really have nothing to say.
That's a lie. I do. I don't want to say it. I won't say it. I have to keep thinking about it, even though it hurts and I don't want to, but I have to. I have to.
Sunjay's phone was turned off all day yesterday. I called him twice and he hasn't called me back. I don't think I'm seriously worried about his health and safety, but I'm worried about him. He's been under a lot of stress lately. He won't talk about it. I can't do anything, and that hurts.
I want school to be over next week. I want to start summer and lie around and read and get a job and tan and wear tank tops. I want to be skinny and work out more and not feel like I need to change myself. I want to know why things are bothering me and what I can do about them and where the heck I'm supposed to go. I don't like doubt; I don't like being forced to examine things which I'd rather let alone.
God is conscience. He is even the atheism of the atheist. -Mohandas K. Gandhi
This is an intriguing thought. I wonder.