and it's 2am feeling like you lost a friend.
So here I am wondering how life is without you.
Even though I'm pretty sure I don't want you around.
And for once I feel happy with my life, with where I am going. With what I am doing. My choices, they are just that - mine. And that's a beautiful thing. But it's also really scary. To sit here and be independent to feel and do just as I please. With no strings holding me back. Sometimes I freak out. but I guess it's better this way, eventually I will be more proud then worried.
All you have to do is open a photo album and look at the pictures to see what it was like before. But that was then and this is now, and I can't be part of your life, for obvious reasons. I hope you find it in your life. Whatever it is, but I also hope you learn from me walking out of yours. I hope it's a wake up call showing you how to treat people.
My life changed, and it freaked the hell out of me. Now I'm second guessing everything. It's time I realize that I need to enrich myself. I did this to make happiness come true. I purged people out. I tried to over come things that hurt me. Actions that were done to me. I tried to make it all go away. And now I feel strange, strange but free.
spending the afternoon wondering when someone is going to get back to you is sick and utterly fucked up. But I guess that's why I'm not being around so many people right now. I'm tired of living life on repeat, watching it all happen over and over.