I'm back

[bellemorte1900]

Well, I am back home. I wish I had gone up to Palm Springs for a better reason, but unfortunately it had to be for a funeral. I really had to work not to lose it. They had an open casket wake. It just didnt look like him. It resembled him, but it wasn't him. It was the first funeral for me for someone I knew. I kept wanting him to jump out of a closet or something and say, ha guys, I fooled you. No such luck. I can't wrap my mind around it. I still feel like I am going to cry. He was one of the nicest guys I have ever known. He picked me up from the airport when I flew out here to live here. We didn't hang out as much as I would have liked because his wife was a bitch and gave him problems when he wanted to hang out with friends. Now she has forever to think about that. I'm hungry but I don't want to eat. He was such a bright life and now he's gone and I wish I had given him a call when I was in Palm Springs just afew weeks ago. I could kick myself, but I didn't want to get him in trouble.
I have decided I don't like funerals. lol....Especially for friends, so everyone, don't die on me, because I'll be pissed...