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ahhhh.... today just hurt. i was in the park drawing with india ink and an ink pen. cass calls this dog over, and he jumps up on the bench and knocked my ink over, all over my dress, my skirt, my legs hands.... all of my assignments and my entire giant pad of paper. my dress and skirt are rewened... oh well i guess
the guy who's dogs it was gave me 20 bucks. thats cool i guess
i went home, and realized i forgot my keys. i waited outside my door for a while... and then decided to leave a bag of stuff there because i pretty much know everyone on the 4th floor and i didn't think that anyone would want any of the stuff in there. but... someone stole it
and im the idiot for leaving it there. i know. i know that
but...... i had my random box of treasures in there that i have been collecting for a really long time
things no one else in the hole world could ever want
things that could only be special to me
and are so special to me
and i am sooo sad. i cannot beleive that i left that. it was only an hour. i left it and now someone is probably sitting there ging through it and making fun of it because it's so silly. i am dying right now. those were my favorite things. my favorite sea shells, my favorite rocks, really special things that tana made for me when he was little. crystals my mom gave me that i kept for so long. so many memories. and i left them. i lfet them outside and someone took them. i am so sad. i am sooooo sad. why would anyone take my treasure? i just can't deal. and now i just cry all the time. no matter where i am. and it's so embarassing, but this is portland, and no one even stops. it doesn't matter. nobody cares about you. i just want to hang out with my mom. but she's no good at consoling, and she always makes me feel so stupid for being sad, and i always feel worse.