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Well how bout that, Sigmas? :)
Anyway...I had a really interesting night. I was going to drive down the shore to visit my brother, but when I called him, he told me not to bother since he was busy. So since I was already on the parkway, I called Kris. I met him at the bowling alley, hung out with him and his friends Boz and Will, and drank a little too much to drive home, but I did it anyway. I was a great time, but that wasn't the interesting part.
Kris and I were standing in the parking lot talking, and I decided to ask him why he wasn't interested in me (not that it matters, being that I have Jon. I was just curious). Now, I normally don't have that kind of nerve. The beer helped. But anyway, his answer was that, along with the age difference and the fact that I'm simply not his type physically, he told me that there is a difference in the maturity level. This probably wouldn't bother me so much except for the fact that Gibbs told me the same thing. So now I'm wondering, am I really that immature? I never thought I was. He told me that I act 19. Well, I am 19. So is that a bad thing? I asked him that question hoping to get answers. All I got are more questions. I always felt that I grew up way too fast. Am I making up for it now by acting my age? Do I look for guys who are MORE mature than their age, making me seem more childish in comparison? And moreover...why do I even care? The unexamined life is not worth living, or so they say. But what if the questions have no answers and you just make yourself crazy? I guess I have a lot to dwell on tonight.
Kris is the most amazing guy. He told me so much about myself tonight that I'm a bit stunned. And despite the fact that he told me I'm immature, he also said a lot of things that made me feel really good about myself. The more I think about it, the more I realize that I am blessed with some of the most amazing friends in the world.
Friends that buy me beer and a bowling ball. How much cooler could you get? :)
Well how bout that, Sigmas? :)
Anyway...I had a really interesting night. I was going to drive down the shore to visit my brother, but when I called him, he told me not to bother since he was busy. So since I was already on the parkway, I called Kris. I met him at the bowling alley, hung out with him and his friends Boz and Will, and drank a little too much to drive home, but I did it anyway. I was a great time, but that wasn't the interesting part.
Kris and I were standing in the parking lot talking, and I decided to ask him why he wasn't interested in me (not that it matters, being that I have Jon. I was just curious). Now, I normally don't have that kind of nerve. The beer helped. But anyway, his answer was that, along with the age difference and the fact that I'm simply not his type physically, he told me that there is a difference in the maturity level. This probably wouldn't bother me so much except for the fact that Gibbs told me the same thing. So now I'm wondering, am I really that immature? I never thought I was. He told me that I act 19. Well, I am 19. So is that a bad thing? I asked him that question hoping to get answers. All I got are more questions. I always felt that I grew up way too fast. Am I making up for it now by acting my age? Do I look for guys who are MORE mature than their age, making me seem more childish in comparison? And moreover...why do I even care? The unexamined life is not worth living, or so they say. But what if the questions have no answers and you just make yourself crazy? I guess I have a lot to dwell on tonight.
Kris is the most amazing guy. He told me so much about myself tonight that I'm a bit stunned. And despite the fact that he told me I'm immature, he also said a lot of things that made me feel really good about myself. The more I think about it, the more I realize that I am blessed with some of the most amazing friends in the world.
Friends that buy me beer and a bowling ball. How much cooler could you get? :)