my twisted love life
i know i havent been on here for awhile- ive been reading just havent been posting. i took a weekend course this weekend- friday nite 6-10, sat 8-5 (left early will explain), sunday 8-5. plus my weekly thursday nite class.
ok, lets start with dave- he's out. are we surprised? no- of course not- noone lasts more than 2 months in my book. one day he just stopped calling- no explanation-nothing. so i let time pass then i got annoyed- well a week later he called and got my machine- so i called him back and left a message- well another week passed and i was annoyed so i sent him an im along the lines of "you know that character education class i teach first period to my class? well the pillar we are working on is respect- we are trying to instill the golden rule in our children- treat your friends the way you wish to be treated. i just figured as your friend, i deserved the simple respect of having a phonecall returned" well, wouldnt you know- he called last nite- finally- and he wasnt too happy with my message because "he didnt understand what he did wrong" so that was an interesting hour conversation. i can be such a bitch sometimes but i really did try to be nice- but i still think if he had a problem he should have had the balls to tell me especially since i was a friend and not taken the easy way out- well :PPPPPPPPP to him- at one point i also said something like i forgive you but forgiving and forgetting are 2 different things. stupid boys....
ok, moving on- that was wednesday nite- well wednesday afternoon- i drove rob my coworker home for about the third time in a few weeks. for those of you who dont know rob is the other special ed teacher- real nice guy but he has issues- major ones. anyway, lately he has been visiting me in class for no reason . he just comes in and sits down. (oh, we have smooched in the past) his dad passed away this summer and he's been leaning on me a lot so ive been friendly. well, wed afternoon he asks about my love life (which isnt uncommon) and i briefly explain how dave hasnt called in like 2 weeks. and he says "how come your relationships dont last long? did you ever think that maybe it's you?" i was so pissed. does he not think that this has crossed my mind? he needs to say this out loud? so i was floored- good thing i was parked! anyway, he quickly apologized and said that totally came out wrong i just meant that maybe guys are intimidated by you because of the no sex thing. again, i was floored- this really wasnt a conversation i wanted to be having- but of course i had it anyway- his rationale- if a guy likes me and realizes they arent going to get any (this made me laugh a bit) then he isnt going to want to stick around. and if he does decide to stick around and i decide to give in then being the first guy is a big deal and it means seriousness and committment so they arent going to want to stick around. so i was like what do you suggest? should i not tell them or should i just sleep around? so i was a bit annoyed again. his suggestion? date him one week, i'll give in, and he'll teach me. thats when i cracked up, told him he was on crack, and kicked him out. stupid boys....
ok, so this past weekend i left class a bit early to go to a wedding with my friend jay (my longtime friend from school- the guy im going to marry when im 30- supposedly- looks at calendar and gasps!)anyway, long story short (this is a real long entry as it is), his mom, stepdad, and he picked me up. his biological dad was at the wedding as well, and i met him for the first time (the wedding was from his dad's side) anyway, first thing his dad says to me is "wow- i turned around and saw this beautiful girl i didnt recognize and thought who's the lucky bastard with her and i realized it was my son! then jay introduced me as his friend and he said what are you stupid? she's just your friend? well, youre not my son!" his dad is a big ball buster. he was funny. we got along and he really liked me. mind you his mom, stepdad, and brother are obsessed with me as well. they keep telling him we should date- problem- jay has had a girlfriend since the age of 13 and just got out of an 8 year relationship about 6 months ago- officially. we had such a great time at the wedding and we got a chance to talk a bit and he admitted he liked me, was curious about us, is not opposed to dating me, gets jealous when i go out with other people although he has no right to be, but that he's had a girlfriend since the age of 13 and wants to be single for awhile. he doesnt want to hurt me or have me be the rebound. he knows its not fair to ask me to wait for him but to be patient. he apparently had these feelings since last october. the problem was he was still dating gina at the time (i have never met her and according to his dad i wasnt missing much) and then he was happy because apparently we resolved so much- im still kind of wondering what we resolved but i think i get it now. he likes me but just needs time to figure out who he is first. and im still going to live my life the way i have been and if its meant to be its meant to be. right? sounds easy enough- but its hard. i almost wish i didnt know because then i would still be wondering. but now i know that the option is maybe there and i feel that i will hold on to that little bit of hope and let great things pass me by. im definately seeing him again at his halloween party and im staying over because he lives about 50 minutes away. oh and at the end of the nite his dad tells me- take care of my son. i really like you. why are things so complicated? stupid boys.......
notice the theme?
ok, lets start with dave- he's out. are we surprised? no- of course not- noone lasts more than 2 months in my book. one day he just stopped calling- no explanation-nothing. so i let time pass then i got annoyed- well a week later he called and got my machine- so i called him back and left a message- well another week passed and i was annoyed so i sent him an im along the lines of "you know that character education class i teach first period to my class? well the pillar we are working on is respect- we are trying to instill the golden rule in our children- treat your friends the way you wish to be treated. i just figured as your friend, i deserved the simple respect of having a phonecall returned" well, wouldnt you know- he called last nite- finally- and he wasnt too happy with my message because "he didnt understand what he did wrong" so that was an interesting hour conversation. i can be such a bitch sometimes but i really did try to be nice- but i still think if he had a problem he should have had the balls to tell me especially since i was a friend and not taken the easy way out- well :PPPPPPPPP to him- at one point i also said something like i forgive you but forgiving and forgetting are 2 different things. stupid boys....
ok, moving on- that was wednesday nite- well wednesday afternoon- i drove rob my coworker home for about the third time in a few weeks. for those of you who dont know rob is the other special ed teacher- real nice guy but he has issues- major ones. anyway, lately he has been visiting me in class for no reason . he just comes in and sits down. (oh, we have smooched in the past) his dad passed away this summer and he's been leaning on me a lot so ive been friendly. well, wed afternoon he asks about my love life (which isnt uncommon) and i briefly explain how dave hasnt called in like 2 weeks. and he says "how come your relationships dont last long? did you ever think that maybe it's you?" i was so pissed. does he not think that this has crossed my mind? he needs to say this out loud? so i was floored- good thing i was parked! anyway, he quickly apologized and said that totally came out wrong i just meant that maybe guys are intimidated by you because of the no sex thing. again, i was floored- this really wasnt a conversation i wanted to be having- but of course i had it anyway- his rationale- if a guy likes me and realizes they arent going to get any (this made me laugh a bit) then he isnt going to want to stick around. and if he does decide to stick around and i decide to give in then being the first guy is a big deal and it means seriousness and committment so they arent going to want to stick around. so i was like what do you suggest? should i not tell them or should i just sleep around? so i was a bit annoyed again. his suggestion? date him one week, i'll give in, and he'll teach me. thats when i cracked up, told him he was on crack, and kicked him out. stupid boys....
ok, so this past weekend i left class a bit early to go to a wedding with my friend jay (my longtime friend from school- the guy im going to marry when im 30- supposedly- looks at calendar and gasps!)anyway, long story short (this is a real long entry as it is), his mom, stepdad, and he picked me up. his biological dad was at the wedding as well, and i met him for the first time (the wedding was from his dad's side) anyway, first thing his dad says to me is "wow- i turned around and saw this beautiful girl i didnt recognize and thought who's the lucky bastard with her and i realized it was my son! then jay introduced me as his friend and he said what are you stupid? she's just your friend? well, youre not my son!" his dad is a big ball buster. he was funny. we got along and he really liked me. mind you his mom, stepdad, and brother are obsessed with me as well. they keep telling him we should date- problem- jay has had a girlfriend since the age of 13 and just got out of an 8 year relationship about 6 months ago- officially. we had such a great time at the wedding and we got a chance to talk a bit and he admitted he liked me, was curious about us, is not opposed to dating me, gets jealous when i go out with other people although he has no right to be, but that he's had a girlfriend since the age of 13 and wants to be single for awhile. he doesnt want to hurt me or have me be the rebound. he knows its not fair to ask me to wait for him but to be patient. he apparently had these feelings since last october. the problem was he was still dating gina at the time (i have never met her and according to his dad i wasnt missing much) and then he was happy because apparently we resolved so much- im still kind of wondering what we resolved but i think i get it now. he likes me but just needs time to figure out who he is first. and im still going to live my life the way i have been and if its meant to be its meant to be. right? sounds easy enough- but its hard. i almost wish i didnt know because then i would still be wondering. but now i know that the option is maybe there and i feel that i will hold on to that little bit of hope and let great things pass me by. im definately seeing him again at his halloween party and im staying over because he lives about 50 minutes away. oh and at the end of the nite his dad tells me- take care of my son. i really like you. why are things so complicated? stupid boys.......
notice the theme?