other things
well, since I am up and updating… why not continue?
life is good.
ever since i had my epiphany that was witnessed by all via lj [that was truly amazing for me] i have been sublimely happy.
to realizeacceptKNOW that i don't need That boy made all the difference in the world.
i feel… liberated. I could for real cry tears of joy right now.
and life is sooooo good.
everything is going so well.
I love my school.
my dorm.
friends.
classes are questionable, but hell! I am alive so I should stop complaining! lol
it is all so weird.
and for the first time in so long a time I cannot remember the last time this was true… I only like one person.
in the whole entire world.
and you know, even when I may have in the past I only liked one person. that meant locally.
There was always someone in Florida or England that had my heart in their palm.
fucking pseudo-brits and jonathans and russians and… haha, i love how that all overlapped and I can still sigh over every one.
especially since my bro will always be my bro.
it is unfortunate that the name i've loved has been associated with such a varied crowd, and part of the appeal was the name…
what's in a name? a rose by any other name would smell as sweet… {close enough}
that may be true for flowers, but as you all know, I fucking hate flowers. and with people, names do make a difference. or at least they surely did with me. and nothing was higher than a jonathan. Oh, how I love the past tense. ;-)
Life is sweet on the morrow.
The sun shines brightly upon me.
i feel about as happy as can be, <---yea, for kweller
i lack the words to express how happy, how content and simultaneously ecstatic, I am.
my theme song is the happiest thing in the world for me at this moment, jets to brazil's sweet avenue. I could cry just thinkignbaout it.
It seems now everytime I go in teh stairwell I start singing it by accident.
I sitll hum that damned milkshake song. fucking kelis. it's be different if that were actually a good one.
anyway,
so next week is rush. that'll be intense, but at least I will get to dress up one night, and gosh do I love to dress up. ;-)
I will try to get someone to take a picture of me so I post it for you kids.
I am really more excited to dress up than to join a sorority so we'll see what happens.
|sigh| i love being here. I do i do i do!!
And I only like ONE person. ME!! And I reeeealllly really like him too.
|sigh|
bon soir, monde. la vita è bella.
OH! PS. [pre closing] I dropped Italian.
And I am damn happy about that too.
And I don't like Jonathan Mark Beesen anymore!! I DO NOT I DO NOT I DO NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D
|sigh|
hahahahah
i like a fantastic boy.
who is not pseudo-british. and does not attend a pseudo-british uni in a pseudo-british sounding town
who is good enough to be admitted to northwestern :-x :-D
who is neither jewish or black
who is not nearly as seemingly compatible with me as many of those who have come before and failed
who has won me…
who did so without really trying.
*SMiLE*
.game.over.
and this going to bed with a smile on my face… happily awaiting life on the morrow. ;-)
<333
*Love is…
accepting someone for all that they are [not].
so, yes. i do still love that little lund, ie kaycie aka mz. k-ice or kace.
life is good.
ever since i had my epiphany that was witnessed by all via lj [that was truly amazing for me] i have been sublimely happy.
to realizeacceptKNOW that i don't need That boy made all the difference in the world.
i feel… liberated. I could for real cry tears of joy right now.
and life is sooooo good.
everything is going so well.
I love my school.
my dorm.
friends.
classes are questionable, but hell! I am alive so I should stop complaining! lol
it is all so weird.
and for the first time in so long a time I cannot remember the last time this was true… I only like one person.
in the whole entire world.
and you know, even when I may have in the past I only liked one person. that meant locally.
There was always someone in Florida or England that had my heart in their palm.
fucking pseudo-brits and jonathans and russians and… haha, i love how that all overlapped and I can still sigh over every one.
especially since my bro will always be my bro.
it is unfortunate that the name i've loved has been associated with such a varied crowd, and part of the appeal was the name…
what's in a name? a rose by any other name would smell as sweet… {close enough}
that may be true for flowers, but as you all know, I fucking hate flowers. and with people, names do make a difference. or at least they surely did with me. and nothing was higher than a jonathan. Oh, how I love the past tense. ;-)
Life is sweet on the morrow.
The sun shines brightly upon me.
i feel about as happy as can be, <---yea, for kweller
i lack the words to express how happy, how content and simultaneously ecstatic, I am.
my theme song is the happiest thing in the world for me at this moment, jets to brazil's sweet avenue. I could cry just thinkignbaout it.
It seems now everytime I go in teh stairwell I start singing it by accident.
I sitll hum that damned milkshake song. fucking kelis. it's be different if that were actually a good one.
anyway,
so next week is rush. that'll be intense, but at least I will get to dress up one night, and gosh do I love to dress up. ;-)
I will try to get someone to take a picture of me so I post it for you kids.
I am really more excited to dress up than to join a sorority so we'll see what happens.
|sigh| i love being here. I do i do i do!!
And I only like ONE person. ME!! And I reeeealllly really like him too.
|sigh|
bon soir, monde. la vita è bella.
OH! PS. [pre closing] I dropped Italian.
And I am damn happy about that too.
And I don't like Jonathan Mark Beesen anymore!! I DO NOT I DO NOT I DO NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D
|sigh|
hahahahah
i like a fantastic boy.
who is not pseudo-british. and does not attend a pseudo-british uni in a pseudo-british sounding town
who is good enough to be admitted to northwestern :-x :-D
who is neither jewish or black
who is not nearly as seemingly compatible with me as many of those who have come before and failed
who has won me…
who did so without really trying.
*SMiLE*
.game.over.
and this going to bed with a smile on my face… happily awaiting life on the morrow. ;-)
<333
*Love is…
accepting someone for all that they are [not].
so, yes. i do still love that little lund, ie kaycie aka mz. k-ice or kace.