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And then there were none...
I bought 5 shirts yesterday. Yes, I am a shop-a-holic.
I have forgotten to take my vitamins for about the past week, thus explains my mood rocketing uncontrollabley downwards. I dont know why its so hard for me to remember to take the damn things, but it is.
And the interesting part is- that the vitamins give me the ability to fake/choose my mood. Without the vitamins, whatever I feel, shows.
Basically, if I werent sad and depressed to begin with, not taking the vitamins wouldnt make me depressed. Before, (the first time I needed the vitamins and didnt know it) when I wasnt taking them, I wasnt sad/depressed. I was just so tired all the time, and if I ran anywhere/went upstairs/moved fast I got dizzy, and I never wanted to go anywhere or do anything, but I wasnt sad or depressed. I have to be that way anyways, for me to be like that without my vitamins... okay, I know this doesnt interest you- but it kinda does me. I think its weird.
I have this bad feeling that Lauren isnt going to read tonight and she's not going to be able to go to the beach with me. Which I will dislike greatly- because if she doesnt go with me, I sure as hell am not going, and I wouldnt get to be with her. Then my mother and my grandmother would have free reign to discuss how horrible I am, and then the yelling would begin... no, my ass is definitely staying here if she doesnt go with me.
And now, I have nothing to do and no where to go... so I am going for a drive.
10 days till I leave...
xoxo~!
I bought 5 shirts yesterday. Yes, I am a shop-a-holic.
I have forgotten to take my vitamins for about the past week, thus explains my mood rocketing uncontrollabley downwards. I dont know why its so hard for me to remember to take the damn things, but it is.
And the interesting part is- that the vitamins give me the ability to fake/choose my mood. Without the vitamins, whatever I feel, shows.
Basically, if I werent sad and depressed to begin with, not taking the vitamins wouldnt make me depressed. Before, (the first time I needed the vitamins and didnt know it) when I wasnt taking them, I wasnt sad/depressed. I was just so tired all the time, and if I ran anywhere/went upstairs/moved fast I got dizzy, and I never wanted to go anywhere or do anything, but I wasnt sad or depressed. I have to be that way anyways, for me to be like that without my vitamins... okay, I know this doesnt interest you- but it kinda does me. I think its weird.
I have this bad feeling that Lauren isnt going to read tonight and she's not going to be able to go to the beach with me. Which I will dislike greatly- because if she doesnt go with me, I sure as hell am not going, and I wouldnt get to be with her. Then my mother and my grandmother would have free reign to discuss how horrible I am, and then the yelling would begin... no, my ass is definitely staying here if she doesnt go with me.
And now, I have nothing to do and no where to go... so I am going for a drive.
10 days till I leave...
xoxo~!