Fic: Just a little crush (5/9)
Rachel stood next to the piano mashing the keys to gain everyone’s attention.
“As Mr Schue appears to be ridiculously late I think, as Glee co-captain, that we should use our time effectively to further explore our assignment. I think we should play a game which fits in with finding out more about each other and our secrets... Truth or dare!”
Everyone groaned but eventually were coerced into sitting on the floor in a circle, mostly in the hope that Rachel would shut up.
“Out of Puck, Mike and Sam who would you kiss, marry and push off a cliff?” Mercedes asked Kurt.
“Well I’d definitely push Puck off a cliff.”
“Hey!”
Kurt gave him a stern look “You used to throw me in the dumpsters, really what do you expect?”
Puck looked thoughtful “Yeah fair enough.”
“And the rest?” Mercedes prompted.
“Umm well” he looked uncomfortable “I guess I’d kiss Mike and marry Sam” Kurt mumbled, cheeks flushing as he avoided eye contact.
Sam did a little victory dance in his head and couldn’t hide his smile. Marry was way better than kiss right? “YES I win!”
Kurt rolled his eyes before daring Finn to drink his slushie all in one then stand on his head for five minutes but he only lasted for three before falling over complaining about feeling sick. Rachel handed him the waste paper basket and he sat back down in the circle. Finn dared Tina to run down the halls singing I’m a little teapot but was disappointed when she returned and told him that no one other than the Glee club had actually witnessed it.
Tina then dared Puck to admit to how many people he’d actually slept with and who was his best. Sam couldn’t believe she would ask that sort of thing and was slightly impressed that she had gotten around the fact that he would only do dares. The number was pretty large but not as high as Sam would have suspected however Quinn obviously thought it was too high from the look of disgust she gave Puck. Her expression softened becoming affectionate and hopeful when he mumbled her name.
When it came to Sam’s turn he answered dare immediately not just because it was expected of the guys but because there was no way he was doing a truth while Puck was looking at him like that.
Puck smirked “Kiss Kurt.”
“No way” Sam almost growled trying to ignore Kurt’s hurt expression. “There’s no way I’m forcing that on him.”
A few of the others gave him odd looks and he had to remind himself that the Karofsky kiss was something Kurt didn’t want anyone else knowing anything about.
“I don’t think he’d mind.” Puck nudged Kurt “You wouldn’t, would you Kurt?” he grinned as Kurt flushed.
Finn glared at him “Puck drop it.”
Puck started egging him on but Sam cut him off “I said no. Pick something else.”
Santana whispered something in his ear then sat back with a satisfied grin. Puck rolled his eyes “Lame. Fine whatever. Kiss the person you have a crush on.”
Oh shit! Sam started to panic who the hell should he kiss? He doubted he could get away with saying that he didn’t like anyone but if he kissed someone other than Kurt he would ruin any chance he might have, on the other hand if he kissed Kurt... Luckily for him Mr Schue walked in distracting everyone and making them return to their seats.
Sam had never been so glad to see the dude.
Kurt didn’t return to his seat next to Sam, instead choosing to sit between Mercedes and Tina. Sam hated himself for hurting Kurt and not doing something he had really wanted to do. He was annoyed at Rachel for suggesting the game and with Puck for his dare and with Santana for exploiting his secret. Sam glared at her, surprised when she winced and mouthed sorry as if she thought that she had been trying to help him with her evil dare.
Brittany skipped to the front before Mr Schue had a chance to call her up, nodded to the band and smiled at Santana.
Could it be the little things you do to me
Feelings that I'm feeling are so new to me
I'm going through so many changes
Nothing ever felt as strange as
How my heart goes crazy when you look at me
Sam couldn’t help but feel slightly jealous as he realised that Santana’s feelings for Brittany were obviously reciprocated. He glanced over to Artie who had a fond smile on his face and every now and again was mouthing lyrics to Britt as if he had been helping her practice. Artie really was an awesome guy helping his girlfriend, or well ex-girlfriend now Sam supposed, to pursue another girl.
When I'm with you it's paradise
No place on earth could feel so nice
Through the crystal waterfall I hear you call
Just take my hand it's paradise
You kiss me once I'll kiss you twice
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Ooohhh yea
Now I know the sweetest dreams can all come true
Cuz I found heaven here on earth when I found you
It’s nothing I can ever make up
Oh I hope I never wake up
Just to find this isn't true reality
Britt’s dancing was as awesome as ever if a little more erotic than usual which made Mr Schue clear his throat a couple of times and look around nervously. The only times Brittany wasn’t focused on Santana was when she appeared to be uncertain of the words and would look to Artie for help.
When I'm with you it's paradise
No place on earth could feel so nice
Through the crystal waterfall I hear you call
Just take my hand its paradise
You kiss me once I'll kiss you twice
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Ooohhh
The world around us dissapears without a trace
Telling me that I have found the perfect place
Let us stay this way forever deep in love
and may I never spend another day w/out you close to me
Sam had to twist his body and lean forward to be able to see some of Santana’s face. By the look of it she was entranced by Brittany’s performance, smiling with tear filled eyes. The romantic in Sam couldn’t help smiling, pleased that at least someone would get their happy ending.
Ohhh Paradise
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ohhhhhhh
Just take my hand it's paradise
You kiss me once I'll kiss you twice
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Just take my hand it's paradise
You kiss me once I'll kiss you twice
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Just like Kurt’s eyes and everything else. Sam sighed trying to manoeuvre himself so he could see Kurt’s face but the other boy was sitting at an angle so most of his back was facing Sam’s direction. He groaned knowing he’d screwed up but not knowing how to fix it.
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Oh yea
Oh (it's paradise)
Ohhh
As Brittany finished Santana got up pulling her into a tight hug before leaning back and kissing her softly on the lips, not caring about the audience. After some whistles by the boys and awww’s from the girls Mr Schue asked if anyone wanted to guess Britt’s secret.
“I’m gay?” Kurt asked.
Britt looked confused “I know you are Kurt. That’s not a secret.” Santana laughed and whispered into her ear. “Oh right! No that’s not it.”
Sam racked his brain trying to remember the other secrets and who he had originally thought they belonged to. There was the one he had thought must be Puck’s but obviously that wasn’t the case. “Was it the one about Santana being the best notch on a bedpost?”
Britt nodded “Yep.” She smiled dreamily “She’s really is awesome in be....”
“Right!” Mr Schue interrupted. “Well done. Who’s next?” he asked almost desperately.
Tina put her hand in the air then went to speak to the band leaving everyone else to talk amongst themselves. Noticing Mercedes and Quinn deep in conversation and Tina’s now empty seat next to Kurt, Sam jumped up hovering next to the chair.
“Hey Kurt do you mind if I sit here?” he asked hopefully.
Kurt just shrugged and avoided eye contact instead choosing to stare at his perfect nails. Sam sat down sideways on the chair facing him “I’m really sorry I hurt your feelings. I didn’t mean it the way it sounded.”
“Whatever” Kurt mumbled.
“Seriously Kurt I would have done it...”
“Then why didn’t you?” Kurt asked looking up for the first time.
“I’ve already stolen one kiss, I didn’t want to do it again.” Sam wanted to kiss Kurt but he also wanted it to have meaning, not just because of an accident or a dare. He wanted it to be real.
“I wouldn’t have minded” Kurt admitted, making Sam lose track of what he was saying and gape at him. “Forget it.” Kurt looked down again.
“I can’t” Sam sighed. “I saw your face after you pushed me away. I don’t want you to be afraid of me.”
Kurt’s head snapped back up, his eyes were wide with surprise “I could never be afraid of you.” They stared at each other until Kurt offered him a shy smile and bumped their shoulders. “I think you’re going to like Tina’s solo. I heard her practicing before school.”
Sam grinned relieved that he and Kurt seemed to be cool again. “Sweet.”
We are what we're supposed to be
Illusions of your fantasy
All dots and lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do
Sam recognised the song as soon as the band played the first few bars, he let out a small whoop of joy and Kurt laughed at him.
We are the colour symphony
We do the things you wanna see
Frame by frame, to the extreme
Our friends are so unreasonable
They do the unpredictable
All dots lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do
It's all an orchestra of strings
Doin' unbelievable things
Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun
We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper
Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian
Welcome to the toon town party
Here comes Superman, from never-neverland
Welcome to the toon town party
Tina was singing the song pretty well and seemed to be really enjoying herself especially when Mike jumped up and started doing unbelievably cool ‘super hero’ dance moves. Sam couldn’t believe that there was another comic nerd in Glee and he hadn’t known, he was definitely going to have to become better friends with her.
We learned to run at speed of light
And to fall down from any height
It's true, but just remember that
What we do is what you just can't do
And all the worlds of craziness
A bunch of stars that's chasing us
Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun
We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper
Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian
Welcome to the toon town party
Here comes Superman, from never-neverland
Welcome to the toon town party
Sam had vaguely noticed Kurt staring at him for a while but had been enjoying the song too much to really pay much attention. He took a quick glance at Kurt who almost instantly looked away but Sam had seen his unguarded expression and something like affection in his eyes. Kurt appeared to have forgiven him for the truth or dare non-kiss at least.
You think we're so mysterious
Don't take us all too serious
Be original, and remember that
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper
There's still more to come
And everyone will be
Welcomed at the
Toon - Toon
Town - Town
Party
Sam was the first to clap when Tina finished. In fact he gave her a standing ovation and a few more whoops much to Kurt’s amusement. “That was awesome!” Sam grinned at her.
She smiled shyly back “Thanks.”
“Tina’s secret is that she loves graphic novels” he informed Mr Schue wondering when he would get a chance to find out whether she preferred DS or Marvel and a million other things he needed to know like yesterday. She nodded laughing at Sam’s enthusiasm and promised to meet him in their free period to discuss all things comic related.
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Sam was busy rummaging through his locker, hunting for an astronomy book, when someone cleared their throat behind him. “Sam?”
“Oh hey Kurt” he smiled suddenly happier than he had been all day. If Kurt was seeking him out then he couldn’t still be upset about earlier could he?
Kurt smiled back but tugged at his sleeve nervously “Can I stay at your house tonight?”
“Sure I suppose it’ll be okay” he had no idea considering it was mid-week but his mom was pretty cool. “Why?” Sam added out of curiosity.
“Dad has a work thing out of town and Carole is going with him. Finn is planning on inviting Rachel over and I really don’t think I want to be there” Kurt grimaced.
Sam smirked “I bet. She’s kinda loud as is.”
“All I have to say to that is eww” he mock gagged then reached into the pig sty that was Sam’s locker pulling out the hiding textbook and handing it to Sam.
“So why me? The girls busy or something?” Was it too much to hope that he was Kurt’s first choice? Probably.
Kurt hesitated “No... most aren’t allowed mid-week sleepovers and well I wanted to hang out with you.” Sam was ecstatic. “To be honest I’ve been dying to clean out your closet.” Kurt teased tugging at Sam’s shirt.
“Uhuh. Admit it...it’s coz you think I’m totally awesome” Sam grinned leaning against the lockers.
“Well there is that.”
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Kurt followed Sam in his own car after school because he wasn’t going to leave his baby anywhere overnight nor was he going to get into Sam’s death wagon anytime soon if he could help it. Once ensconced in Sam’s kitchen snacking on peanut butter and jelly sandwiches he asked Kurt if he wanted to study or something.
“I thought it might be nice to just hang out and watch some movies.”
“Sounds awesome to me” he suddenly had a great idea “We never did finish watching Avatar!”
Kurt groaned but nodded and allowed himself to be dragged to the couch. Sam threw himself next to Kurt and yanked his sweater off which pulled his shirt up flashing his abs and chest to the room. As he tugged it from around his ears he heard Kurt mutter “Who am I kidding? This is totally a Finn situation.”
“What’s a Finn situation?” he asked pulling his shirt back into place, staring at Kurt who had his eyes tightly closed.
Kurt jumped at his voice. “Nothing” he replied in a tone which was very final so Sam let it go.
After the rest of Avatar, Kurt was subjected to The Wrath of Khan which probably made him really regret not bringing any of his own DVD’s. Sam made up for it though by putting on Kurt’s favourite episode of The Big Bang Theory which they laughed along to until the doorbell rang.
Sam jogged over to the door and pulled it open. “Dad what are you doing here?” his heart dropped.
"Where’s your mother?”
Sam began to shake slightly as he remembered flashes of fists pounding him and his mom’s screams. “She’s not here. You’re not supposed to be here” he glared tensing his muscles to stop his shaking.
His dad just smirked “As if you could do anything about it. I almost wish you could. Damn you are such a disappointment. Why couldn’t you be normal then you wouldn’t have ruined everything?” he ranted. Kurt was suddenly beside Sam looking pissed off at the tirade he’d just witnessed. “Who’s this?” his dad glared at Kurt.
“Mr Evans I think you should leave.” Sam couldn’t help but be impressed by Kurt’s bravery standing up to someone twice his size but he was also terrified his dad would lash out again. He pushed Kurt behind his back angling his body to protect him if necessary.
“Kurt don’t” he whispered.
“Kurt ehh?” his dad gave Sam an assessing look then turned his attention back to Kurt and narrowed his eyes.
Sam turned his head so he could whisper directly into Kurt’s ear “Go to the kitchen and stay there. Call my mom.” he pressed his cell phone into Kurt’s hand.
“Is he your boyfriend?” his dad asked with distain once he was gone.
“N-no”
“Have you fucked him yet? Or do you like it the other way around?” he looked disgusted yet somehow managed to leer at the same time. Sam glared refusing to rise to his bait. “Fucking homos” his dad spat out as he spun on his heel and walked down the path towards his car.
Sam heard a gasp and turned to see Kurt hovering near the kitchen. He reached out to him then dropped his hand leaning heavily against the now closed door not attempting to stop the tears that were threatening to fall. Kurt rushed to him, pressing close against Sam as he pulled him into a hug which was returned desperately. Sam burrowed his face into Kurt’s neck inhaling his sweet yet masculine smell, holding onto him as if his life depended on it. Kurt staggered backwards slightly under their combined weight and they slid to the floor still wrapped up in each other.
Sam’s mom found them in the same position when she burst through the door shouting their names five minutes later. She dropped her bags wrapping her arms around both of them, stroking their hair and making comforting mom noises. “Boys are you okay? He didn’t hurt either of you did he?” she asked as Sam pulled slightly away from them both, wiping away his tears.
Sam shook his head unable to speak for the moment so Kurt answered for him “No he just said some things, most of which I didn’t understand and I missed some of it because Sam sent me away to call you.”
“He did the right thing. I’m terrified to think what that bastard might have done to someone brave like you.” She reached out and petted his cheek, deliberately ignoring his confused expression. Following Sam’s lead they all stood up and wandered into the kitchen where he sat down at the table and gulped down a glass of water that Kurt passed to him. “I’m going to call Henry, this is the second time he’s violated the restraining order.” Sam watched her storm out of the room.
“Restraining order?” Kurt asked shocked.
“He hit me.” Sam stared at his feet “I told him something he didn’t like and he flipped out.”
“What did you say?” Sam made a few attempts before shaking his head. “Shh it’s okay you don’t have to tell me.” Kurt rubbed his back in soothing motions and Sam leant into his touch.
“I want to. Not today but soon” he promised.
Kurt nodded “Why did he come?”
“Probably to talk to my mom. He still loves her, just hates me.”
Kurt frowned, his other hand reaching over to stroke Sam’s hair out of his eyes “How could anyone hate you?”
“He made her choose. She chose me.” Sam gave one of the smaller reasons so he wouldn’t have to say the main one.
His mom walked back into the room setting the phone down on the bench. “Best damn decision of my life” she bit out. Stroking his cheek she looked into his eyes “I will always choose you.” Eyes pricking with tears again, he nodded looking away when she removed her hand. Kurt slipped his hand into Sam’s and gave it a reassuring squeeze. Sam’s mom sighed “Let’s have some dinner and watch a movie. Try and put this behind us?”
While she was preparing dinner Kurt led Sam to the upstairs bathroom. “Let’s clean you up since you don’t have a decent skin care regime to fall back on mmm?”
Gently pushing Sam down onto the toilet Kurt searched for and found a flannel in the cupboard under the sink. After soaking it in cold water and wringing it out he pressed it gently to Sam’s face, cooling and soothing it before wiping away his tears, his other hand tilting Sam’s chin up. Looking up into those blue/green eyes which were swimming with tears and emotion Sam felt overwhelmed with affection and something much deeper which he wasn’t prepared to name yet. Placing the flannel in the sink Kurt patted his face dry with a fluffy towel and took his hands helping him to stand up. He took a step closer to Kurt so that they were almost touching, their breaths intermingling, Kurt placed a tentative hand on Sam’s chest and looked up at him with wide eyes. Leaning into the contact Sam placed his hand over Kurt’s, slowly rubbing small circles with his thumb. Kurt also leant in and just when Sam thought that maybe he was going to kiss him there was an almighty crash of braking plates. Kurt quickly took a step back and Sam had to swallow his disappointment.
“We should go help your mom” Kurt mumbled leaving the room.
After dinner the three of them sat on the couch watching The Big Bang Theory with Sam in the middle, his mom close by on his right side and Kurt about a foot away on his left. Not sure why Kurt wasn’t as close as normal and yearning for contact with him Sam stretched his arm around Kurt’s shoulders letting it drop to his waist when he leant forward slightly in surprise. Sam then pulled gently until Kurt’s side was flush with his and snuggled into him, his other hand taking Kurt’s and playing with his fingers. Although stiff at first Kurt soon relaxed sinking deeper into Sam’s warmth and not too long after he was making snuffly sleep noises into Sam’s chest.
When it was time for bed Sam shook him gently and told Kurt he could use the bathroom first. Once Kurt had finished and Sam had taken his turn he wandered into his bedroom to find Kurt staring at his bed with his arms wrapped around himself.
“Everything okay dude?”
“I can sleep on the floor.”
“Don’t be ridiculous, there’s more than enough room.” Sam was puzzled, what was wrong with his bed? Maybe it was the Star Wars sheets.
“I don’t want you to be uncomfortable.”
“Why would I be uncomfortable the bed is huge?” Kurt bit his lip and Sam realised that maybe Kurt was worried about sharing a bed with him after what happened last time. “How about I wake you up if you hug me?”
Kurt looked confused then laughed “Not what I meant but okay.”
“What did you mean?”
“About earlier. I wasn’t thinking and I almost...” he paused “I don’t think of you in that way if it helps.” Well that hurt. Sam didn’t want Kurt to feel sorry for him so he smiled and pulled Kurt into a hug, Sam’s arms wrapping around the smaller boy’s waist and Kurt’s reaching around his neck, fingers tangling into his hair. They held on to each other for a moment.
“Woah Sorry. I didn’t mean to interrupt anything.” Kurt jumped out of his arms and Sam felt like cursing but he didn’t think his mom would appreciate it.
“You didn’t mom.”
She didn’t look convinced. “I’m going out early so you’ll have to get yourselves up and at it in the morning. Try to make it to school before lunch.”
“Okay mom.”
His mom leant in so only he could hear her “If you can’t be good, be safe” she whispered and left the room as Sam groaned covering his face with his hands.
“What did she say?” Kurt asked from his bed.
“You don’t want to know. Trust me.” Sam jumped into the bed making it bounce and Kurt giggle.
As he lay there attempting to sleep, he felt the overwhelming urge to tell Kurt the truth about how he felt. “Kurt? You Awake?”
“No. I’m asleep.”
“Very funny.”
“Thanks.”
“Seriously Kurt?”
“Mmmm?”
Sam opened his mouth to say it and changed his mind last second “You’re my best friend” he said realising that it was true.
“You’re mine” Kurt replied reaching out for Sam’s hand, linking their fingers.
“As Mr Schue appears to be ridiculously late I think, as Glee co-captain, that we should use our time effectively to further explore our assignment. I think we should play a game which fits in with finding out more about each other and our secrets... Truth or dare!”
Everyone groaned but eventually were coerced into sitting on the floor in a circle, mostly in the hope that Rachel would shut up.
“Out of Puck, Mike and Sam who would you kiss, marry and push off a cliff?” Mercedes asked Kurt.
“Well I’d definitely push Puck off a cliff.”
“Hey!”
Kurt gave him a stern look “You used to throw me in the dumpsters, really what do you expect?”
Puck looked thoughtful “Yeah fair enough.”
“And the rest?” Mercedes prompted.
“Umm well” he looked uncomfortable “I guess I’d kiss Mike and marry Sam” Kurt mumbled, cheeks flushing as he avoided eye contact.
Sam did a little victory dance in his head and couldn’t hide his smile. Marry was way better than kiss right? “YES I win!”
Kurt rolled his eyes before daring Finn to drink his slushie all in one then stand on his head for five minutes but he only lasted for three before falling over complaining about feeling sick. Rachel handed him the waste paper basket and he sat back down in the circle. Finn dared Tina to run down the halls singing I’m a little teapot but was disappointed when she returned and told him that no one other than the Glee club had actually witnessed it.
Tina then dared Puck to admit to how many people he’d actually slept with and who was his best. Sam couldn’t believe she would ask that sort of thing and was slightly impressed that she had gotten around the fact that he would only do dares. The number was pretty large but not as high as Sam would have suspected however Quinn obviously thought it was too high from the look of disgust she gave Puck. Her expression softened becoming affectionate and hopeful when he mumbled her name.
When it came to Sam’s turn he answered dare immediately not just because it was expected of the guys but because there was no way he was doing a truth while Puck was looking at him like that.
Puck smirked “Kiss Kurt.”
“No way” Sam almost growled trying to ignore Kurt’s hurt expression. “There’s no way I’m forcing that on him.”
A few of the others gave him odd looks and he had to remind himself that the Karofsky kiss was something Kurt didn’t want anyone else knowing anything about.
“I don’t think he’d mind.” Puck nudged Kurt “You wouldn’t, would you Kurt?” he grinned as Kurt flushed.
Finn glared at him “Puck drop it.”
Puck started egging him on but Sam cut him off “I said no. Pick something else.”
Santana whispered something in his ear then sat back with a satisfied grin. Puck rolled his eyes “Lame. Fine whatever. Kiss the person you have a crush on.”
Oh shit! Sam started to panic who the hell should he kiss? He doubted he could get away with saying that he didn’t like anyone but if he kissed someone other than Kurt he would ruin any chance he might have, on the other hand if he kissed Kurt... Luckily for him Mr Schue walked in distracting everyone and making them return to their seats.
Sam had never been so glad to see the dude.
Kurt didn’t return to his seat next to Sam, instead choosing to sit between Mercedes and Tina. Sam hated himself for hurting Kurt and not doing something he had really wanted to do. He was annoyed at Rachel for suggesting the game and with Puck for his dare and with Santana for exploiting his secret. Sam glared at her, surprised when she winced and mouthed sorry as if she thought that she had been trying to help him with her evil dare.
Brittany skipped to the front before Mr Schue had a chance to call her up, nodded to the band and smiled at Santana.
Could it be the little things you do to me
Feelings that I'm feeling are so new to me
I'm going through so many changes
Nothing ever felt as strange as
How my heart goes crazy when you look at me
Sam couldn’t help but feel slightly jealous as he realised that Santana’s feelings for Brittany were obviously reciprocated. He glanced over to Artie who had a fond smile on his face and every now and again was mouthing lyrics to Britt as if he had been helping her practice. Artie really was an awesome guy helping his girlfriend, or well ex-girlfriend now Sam supposed, to pursue another girl.
When I'm with you it's paradise
No place on earth could feel so nice
Through the crystal waterfall I hear you call
Just take my hand it's paradise
You kiss me once I'll kiss you twice
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Ooohhh yea
Now I know the sweetest dreams can all come true
Cuz I found heaven here on earth when I found you
It’s nothing I can ever make up
Oh I hope I never wake up
Just to find this isn't true reality
Britt’s dancing was as awesome as ever if a little more erotic than usual which made Mr Schue clear his throat a couple of times and look around nervously. The only times Brittany wasn’t focused on Santana was when she appeared to be uncertain of the words and would look to Artie for help.
When I'm with you it's paradise
No place on earth could feel so nice
Through the crystal waterfall I hear you call
Just take my hand its paradise
You kiss me once I'll kiss you twice
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Ooohhh
The world around us dissapears without a trace
Telling me that I have found the perfect place
Let us stay this way forever deep in love
and may I never spend another day w/out you close to me
Sam had to twist his body and lean forward to be able to see some of Santana’s face. By the look of it she was entranced by Brittany’s performance, smiling with tear filled eyes. The romantic in Sam couldn’t help smiling, pleased that at least someone would get their happy ending.
Ohhh Paradise
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ohhhhhhh
Just take my hand it's paradise
You kiss me once I'll kiss you twice
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Just take my hand it's paradise
You kiss me once I'll kiss you twice
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Just like Kurt’s eyes and everything else. Sam sighed trying to manoeuvre himself so he could see Kurt’s face but the other boy was sitting at an angle so most of his back was facing Sam’s direction. He groaned knowing he’d screwed up but not knowing how to fix it.
As I gaze into your eyes I realize it's paradise
Oh yea
Oh (it's paradise)
Ohhh
As Brittany finished Santana got up pulling her into a tight hug before leaning back and kissing her softly on the lips, not caring about the audience. After some whistles by the boys and awww’s from the girls Mr Schue asked if anyone wanted to guess Britt’s secret.
“I’m gay?” Kurt asked.
Britt looked confused “I know you are Kurt. That’s not a secret.” Santana laughed and whispered into her ear. “Oh right! No that’s not it.”
Sam racked his brain trying to remember the other secrets and who he had originally thought they belonged to. There was the one he had thought must be Puck’s but obviously that wasn’t the case. “Was it the one about Santana being the best notch on a bedpost?”
Britt nodded “Yep.” She smiled dreamily “She’s really is awesome in be....”
“Right!” Mr Schue interrupted. “Well done. Who’s next?” he asked almost desperately.
Tina put her hand in the air then went to speak to the band leaving everyone else to talk amongst themselves. Noticing Mercedes and Quinn deep in conversation and Tina’s now empty seat next to Kurt, Sam jumped up hovering next to the chair.
“Hey Kurt do you mind if I sit here?” he asked hopefully.
Kurt just shrugged and avoided eye contact instead choosing to stare at his perfect nails. Sam sat down sideways on the chair facing him “I’m really sorry I hurt your feelings. I didn’t mean it the way it sounded.”
“Whatever” Kurt mumbled.
“Seriously Kurt I would have done it...”
“Then why didn’t you?” Kurt asked looking up for the first time.
“I’ve already stolen one kiss, I didn’t want to do it again.” Sam wanted to kiss Kurt but he also wanted it to have meaning, not just because of an accident or a dare. He wanted it to be real.
“I wouldn’t have minded” Kurt admitted, making Sam lose track of what he was saying and gape at him. “Forget it.” Kurt looked down again.
“I can’t” Sam sighed. “I saw your face after you pushed me away. I don’t want you to be afraid of me.”
Kurt’s head snapped back up, his eyes were wide with surprise “I could never be afraid of you.” They stared at each other until Kurt offered him a shy smile and bumped their shoulders. “I think you’re going to like Tina’s solo. I heard her practicing before school.”
Sam grinned relieved that he and Kurt seemed to be cool again. “Sweet.”
We are what we're supposed to be
Illusions of your fantasy
All dots and lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do
Sam recognised the song as soon as the band played the first few bars, he let out a small whoop of joy and Kurt laughed at him.
We are the colour symphony
We do the things you wanna see
Frame by frame, to the extreme
Our friends are so unreasonable
They do the unpredictable
All dots lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do
It's all an orchestra of strings
Doin' unbelievable things
Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun
We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper
Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian
Welcome to the toon town party
Here comes Superman, from never-neverland
Welcome to the toon town party
Tina was singing the song pretty well and seemed to be really enjoying herself especially when Mike jumped up and started doing unbelievably cool ‘super hero’ dance moves. Sam couldn’t believe that there was another comic nerd in Glee and he hadn’t known, he was definitely going to have to become better friends with her.
We learned to run at speed of light
And to fall down from any height
It's true, but just remember that
What we do is what you just can't do
And all the worlds of craziness
A bunch of stars that's chasing us
Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun
We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper
Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian
Welcome to the toon town party
Here comes Superman, from never-neverland
Welcome to the toon town party
Sam had vaguely noticed Kurt staring at him for a while but had been enjoying the song too much to really pay much attention. He took a quick glance at Kurt who almost instantly looked away but Sam had seen his unguarded expression and something like affection in his eyes. Kurt appeared to have forgiven him for the truth or dare non-kiss at least.
You think we're so mysterious
Don't take us all too serious
Be original, and remember that
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper
There's still more to come
And everyone will be
Welcomed at the
Toon - Toon
Town - Town
Party
Sam was the first to clap when Tina finished. In fact he gave her a standing ovation and a few more whoops much to Kurt’s amusement. “That was awesome!” Sam grinned at her.
She smiled shyly back “Thanks.”
“Tina’s secret is that she loves graphic novels” he informed Mr Schue wondering when he would get a chance to find out whether she preferred DS or Marvel and a million other things he needed to know like yesterday. She nodded laughing at Sam’s enthusiasm and promised to meet him in their free period to discuss all things comic related.
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Sam was busy rummaging through his locker, hunting for an astronomy book, when someone cleared their throat behind him. “Sam?”
“Oh hey Kurt” he smiled suddenly happier than he had been all day. If Kurt was seeking him out then he couldn’t still be upset about earlier could he?
Kurt smiled back but tugged at his sleeve nervously “Can I stay at your house tonight?”
“Sure I suppose it’ll be okay” he had no idea considering it was mid-week but his mom was pretty cool. “Why?” Sam added out of curiosity.
“Dad has a work thing out of town and Carole is going with him. Finn is planning on inviting Rachel over and I really don’t think I want to be there” Kurt grimaced.
Sam smirked “I bet. She’s kinda loud as is.”
“All I have to say to that is eww” he mock gagged then reached into the pig sty that was Sam’s locker pulling out the hiding textbook and handing it to Sam.
“So why me? The girls busy or something?” Was it too much to hope that he was Kurt’s first choice? Probably.
Kurt hesitated “No... most aren’t allowed mid-week sleepovers and well I wanted to hang out with you.” Sam was ecstatic. “To be honest I’ve been dying to clean out your closet.” Kurt teased tugging at Sam’s shirt.
“Uhuh. Admit it...it’s coz you think I’m totally awesome” Sam grinned leaning against the lockers.
“Well there is that.”
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Kurt followed Sam in his own car after school because he wasn’t going to leave his baby anywhere overnight nor was he going to get into Sam’s death wagon anytime soon if he could help it. Once ensconced in Sam’s kitchen snacking on peanut butter and jelly sandwiches he asked Kurt if he wanted to study or something.
“I thought it might be nice to just hang out and watch some movies.”
“Sounds awesome to me” he suddenly had a great idea “We never did finish watching Avatar!”
Kurt groaned but nodded and allowed himself to be dragged to the couch. Sam threw himself next to Kurt and yanked his sweater off which pulled his shirt up flashing his abs and chest to the room. As he tugged it from around his ears he heard Kurt mutter “Who am I kidding? This is totally a Finn situation.”
“What’s a Finn situation?” he asked pulling his shirt back into place, staring at Kurt who had his eyes tightly closed.
Kurt jumped at his voice. “Nothing” he replied in a tone which was very final so Sam let it go.
After the rest of Avatar, Kurt was subjected to The Wrath of Khan which probably made him really regret not bringing any of his own DVD’s. Sam made up for it though by putting on Kurt’s favourite episode of The Big Bang Theory which they laughed along to until the doorbell rang.
Sam jogged over to the door and pulled it open. “Dad what are you doing here?” his heart dropped.
"Where’s your mother?”
Sam began to shake slightly as he remembered flashes of fists pounding him and his mom’s screams. “She’s not here. You’re not supposed to be here” he glared tensing his muscles to stop his shaking.
His dad just smirked “As if you could do anything about it. I almost wish you could. Damn you are such a disappointment. Why couldn’t you be normal then you wouldn’t have ruined everything?” he ranted. Kurt was suddenly beside Sam looking pissed off at the tirade he’d just witnessed. “Who’s this?” his dad glared at Kurt.
“Mr Evans I think you should leave.” Sam couldn’t help but be impressed by Kurt’s bravery standing up to someone twice his size but he was also terrified his dad would lash out again. He pushed Kurt behind his back angling his body to protect him if necessary.
“Kurt don’t” he whispered.
“Kurt ehh?” his dad gave Sam an assessing look then turned his attention back to Kurt and narrowed his eyes.
Sam turned his head so he could whisper directly into Kurt’s ear “Go to the kitchen and stay there. Call my mom.” he pressed his cell phone into Kurt’s hand.
“Is he your boyfriend?” his dad asked with distain once he was gone.
“N-no”
“Have you fucked him yet? Or do you like it the other way around?” he looked disgusted yet somehow managed to leer at the same time. Sam glared refusing to rise to his bait. “Fucking homos” his dad spat out as he spun on his heel and walked down the path towards his car.
Sam heard a gasp and turned to see Kurt hovering near the kitchen. He reached out to him then dropped his hand leaning heavily against the now closed door not attempting to stop the tears that were threatening to fall. Kurt rushed to him, pressing close against Sam as he pulled him into a hug which was returned desperately. Sam burrowed his face into Kurt’s neck inhaling his sweet yet masculine smell, holding onto him as if his life depended on it. Kurt staggered backwards slightly under their combined weight and they slid to the floor still wrapped up in each other.
Sam’s mom found them in the same position when she burst through the door shouting their names five minutes later. She dropped her bags wrapping her arms around both of them, stroking their hair and making comforting mom noises. “Boys are you okay? He didn’t hurt either of you did he?” she asked as Sam pulled slightly away from them both, wiping away his tears.
Sam shook his head unable to speak for the moment so Kurt answered for him “No he just said some things, most of which I didn’t understand and I missed some of it because Sam sent me away to call you.”
“He did the right thing. I’m terrified to think what that bastard might have done to someone brave like you.” She reached out and petted his cheek, deliberately ignoring his confused expression. Following Sam’s lead they all stood up and wandered into the kitchen where he sat down at the table and gulped down a glass of water that Kurt passed to him. “I’m going to call Henry, this is the second time he’s violated the restraining order.” Sam watched her storm out of the room.
“Restraining order?” Kurt asked shocked.
“He hit me.” Sam stared at his feet “I told him something he didn’t like and he flipped out.”
“What did you say?” Sam made a few attempts before shaking his head. “Shh it’s okay you don’t have to tell me.” Kurt rubbed his back in soothing motions and Sam leant into his touch.
“I want to. Not today but soon” he promised.
Kurt nodded “Why did he come?”
“Probably to talk to my mom. He still loves her, just hates me.”
Kurt frowned, his other hand reaching over to stroke Sam’s hair out of his eyes “How could anyone hate you?”
“He made her choose. She chose me.” Sam gave one of the smaller reasons so he wouldn’t have to say the main one.
His mom walked back into the room setting the phone down on the bench. “Best damn decision of my life” she bit out. Stroking his cheek she looked into his eyes “I will always choose you.” Eyes pricking with tears again, he nodded looking away when she removed her hand. Kurt slipped his hand into Sam’s and gave it a reassuring squeeze. Sam’s mom sighed “Let’s have some dinner and watch a movie. Try and put this behind us?”
While she was preparing dinner Kurt led Sam to the upstairs bathroom. “Let’s clean you up since you don’t have a decent skin care regime to fall back on mmm?”
Gently pushing Sam down onto the toilet Kurt searched for and found a flannel in the cupboard under the sink. After soaking it in cold water and wringing it out he pressed it gently to Sam’s face, cooling and soothing it before wiping away his tears, his other hand tilting Sam’s chin up. Looking up into those blue/green eyes which were swimming with tears and emotion Sam felt overwhelmed with affection and something much deeper which he wasn’t prepared to name yet. Placing the flannel in the sink Kurt patted his face dry with a fluffy towel and took his hands helping him to stand up. He took a step closer to Kurt so that they were almost touching, their breaths intermingling, Kurt placed a tentative hand on Sam’s chest and looked up at him with wide eyes. Leaning into the contact Sam placed his hand over Kurt’s, slowly rubbing small circles with his thumb. Kurt also leant in and just when Sam thought that maybe he was going to kiss him there was an almighty crash of braking plates. Kurt quickly took a step back and Sam had to swallow his disappointment.
“We should go help your mom” Kurt mumbled leaving the room.
After dinner the three of them sat on the couch watching The Big Bang Theory with Sam in the middle, his mom close by on his right side and Kurt about a foot away on his left. Not sure why Kurt wasn’t as close as normal and yearning for contact with him Sam stretched his arm around Kurt’s shoulders letting it drop to his waist when he leant forward slightly in surprise. Sam then pulled gently until Kurt’s side was flush with his and snuggled into him, his other hand taking Kurt’s and playing with his fingers. Although stiff at first Kurt soon relaxed sinking deeper into Sam’s warmth and not too long after he was making snuffly sleep noises into Sam’s chest.
When it was time for bed Sam shook him gently and told Kurt he could use the bathroom first. Once Kurt had finished and Sam had taken his turn he wandered into his bedroom to find Kurt staring at his bed with his arms wrapped around himself.
“Everything okay dude?”
“I can sleep on the floor.”
“Don’t be ridiculous, there’s more than enough room.” Sam was puzzled, what was wrong with his bed? Maybe it was the Star Wars sheets.
“I don’t want you to be uncomfortable.”
“Why would I be uncomfortable the bed is huge?” Kurt bit his lip and Sam realised that maybe Kurt was worried about sharing a bed with him after what happened last time. “How about I wake you up if you hug me?”
Kurt looked confused then laughed “Not what I meant but okay.”
“What did you mean?”
“About earlier. I wasn’t thinking and I almost...” he paused “I don’t think of you in that way if it helps.” Well that hurt. Sam didn’t want Kurt to feel sorry for him so he smiled and pulled Kurt into a hug, Sam’s arms wrapping around the smaller boy’s waist and Kurt’s reaching around his neck, fingers tangling into his hair. They held on to each other for a moment.
“Woah Sorry. I didn’t mean to interrupt anything.” Kurt jumped out of his arms and Sam felt like cursing but he didn’t think his mom would appreciate it.
“You didn’t mom.”
She didn’t look convinced. “I’m going out early so you’ll have to get yourselves up and at it in the morning. Try to make it to school before lunch.”
“Okay mom.”
His mom leant in so only he could hear her “If you can’t be good, be safe” she whispered and left the room as Sam groaned covering his face with his hands.
“What did she say?” Kurt asked from his bed.
“You don’t want to know. Trust me.” Sam jumped into the bed making it bounce and Kurt giggle.
As he lay there attempting to sleep, he felt the overwhelming urge to tell Kurt the truth about how he felt. “Kurt? You Awake?”
“No. I’m asleep.”
“Very funny.”
“Thanks.”
“Seriously Kurt?”
“Mmmm?”
Sam opened his mouth to say it and changed his mind last second “You’re my best friend” he said realising that it was true.
“You’re mine” Kurt replied reaching out for Sam’s hand, linking their fingers.