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so i had all this profound stuff to say. all this stuff i realized while on the train back to new york and walking home from the train station. i don't know i feel like everything is going to be ok. my wardrobe fits me better and it's not a challange to even step foot in my closet. i've lost 6 pounds since going back to school or since the summer. amazing how much of a difference that is. we've set the goal at 126. don't know if that will happen but at the moment i don't care if it does or doesn't.
so here's why i'm updating. i'm seriously just laughing my ass off right now because the world is actually such a fucked up place that it's hilarious. so i've decided frank can go fuck himself. the end. i didn't tell him i was leaving for the weekend even after he said "i was thinking..ya know...i have a lot of work to do this weekend and maybe..ya know..we could study together?" LITERALLY just like that. i said uh huh. he said see you tomorrow i said prob not and he asked why and i made up some bullshit about how we never see eachother on fridays. i'm tired of a friendship that revolves around homework and nothing else. i would rather do homework in my room alone or in the library even though the library sucks. but here's the other thing. because in my mind i broke up with frank i am in the process of trying to replace him with several people. one of them was doug who i was slightly attracted too. i thought he was cute and i was comfortable around him but i also like his friend better (which isn't really saying much). but i got this cryptic message this morning from him saying we should talk because he didn't want to get into anymore trouble. well.....i found out he is starting to get into something. here's a picture of him:
so we had this weird awkward convo on the phone about how he had been getting some "serious vibes from me" and how he felt bad that he couldn't"reciprocate them". so then i laughed it off and apologized saying that sometimes i came off like that and explained to him about frank and how i just wanted to hang out with chill people. and then we cleared up the misunderstanding. he thought that when i put his picture in my album titled "and so it begins" it was the caption on his actual picture. i can't believe he thought i was that psychotic. clearly you have to have a well defined idea of what you and another person are before you can update with some shit like that. so apparently he's about to "get into something" so i did some snooping because he didn't tell me who and i didn't ask and saw that this one girl had updated her profile as in a relationship the same day he did. soo i looked at the pictures of her and sure enough there are pictures with him. it's hilarious because a) she's ugly and b) which is actually more important she's rude as fuck. in class with frank she rolls her eyes at him and passes notes with her friend about him, making fun of him. just because i don't particularly respect him or like him doesn't mean that i won't mind if people talk shit about him. especially in class!! it's fucking distracting and they're doing it right behind his back so when he's talking and i'm looking at him and they're doing that shit it's hard not to notice. well anyway here's a picture of her and then of them together:
so there you go. ew and a bag of chips. i'm not particularly heart broken and i'm not going into that bullshit i used to do about whining why doesn't he like me why am i not good enough? because regardless of whether it's true or not i feel more attractive than her and smarter to boot. so it's onto the next person. i think though after this happens enough times this semester i will eventually give up but honestly i don't exactly know what i'm looking for but i know i don't want it to be too intensely sexual. sex with a virgin? yes please, i'll take an order of 3 minutes with a HUGE plate of awkwardness on the side.
HILARIOUS
so here's why i'm updating. i'm seriously just laughing my ass off right now because the world is actually such a fucked up place that it's hilarious. so i've decided frank can go fuck himself. the end. i didn't tell him i was leaving for the weekend even after he said "i was thinking..ya know...i have a lot of work to do this weekend and maybe..ya know..we could study together?" LITERALLY just like that. i said uh huh. he said see you tomorrow i said prob not and he asked why and i made up some bullshit about how we never see eachother on fridays. i'm tired of a friendship that revolves around homework and nothing else. i would rather do homework in my room alone or in the library even though the library sucks. but here's the other thing. because in my mind i broke up with frank i am in the process of trying to replace him with several people. one of them was doug who i was slightly attracted too. i thought he was cute and i was comfortable around him but i also like his friend better (which isn't really saying much). but i got this cryptic message this morning from him saying we should talk because he didn't want to get into anymore trouble. well.....i found out he is starting to get into something. here's a picture of him:
so we had this weird awkward convo on the phone about how he had been getting some "serious vibes from me" and how he felt bad that he couldn't"reciprocate them". so then i laughed it off and apologized saying that sometimes i came off like that and explained to him about frank and how i just wanted to hang out with chill people. and then we cleared up the misunderstanding. he thought that when i put his picture in my album titled "and so it begins" it was the caption on his actual picture. i can't believe he thought i was that psychotic. clearly you have to have a well defined idea of what you and another person are before you can update with some shit like that. so apparently he's about to "get into something" so i did some snooping because he didn't tell me who and i didn't ask and saw that this one girl had updated her profile as in a relationship the same day he did. soo i looked at the pictures of her and sure enough there are pictures with him. it's hilarious because a) she's ugly and b) which is actually more important she's rude as fuck. in class with frank she rolls her eyes at him and passes notes with her friend about him, making fun of him. just because i don't particularly respect him or like him doesn't mean that i won't mind if people talk shit about him. especially in class!! it's fucking distracting and they're doing it right behind his back so when he's talking and i'm looking at him and they're doing that shit it's hard not to notice. well anyway here's a picture of her and then of them together:
so there you go. ew and a bag of chips. i'm not particularly heart broken and i'm not going into that bullshit i used to do about whining why doesn't he like me why am i not good enough? because regardless of whether it's true or not i feel more attractive than her and smarter to boot. so it's onto the next person. i think though after this happens enough times this semester i will eventually give up but honestly i don't exactly know what i'm looking for but i know i don't want it to be too intensely sexual. sex with a virgin? yes please, i'll take an order of 3 minutes with a HUGE plate of awkwardness on the side.
HILARIOUS