*sigh*
~some days goes ur way~u're on a roll u can't explain~and then it all goes down the drain~ur cat's hit by a car~the ATM eats ur card~u're wondering what changed from yesterday~my best friend & me one night~were drinkin' @ Pete's on Crescent Height~just like that we end up in a fight~like a yo-yo up & down~u're headin' north, u end up south~save me from, from going mental~save me from spinning out~some days r better~some days r never~some days, whatever~some days r better than lovers~some days u just can't figure out~some days r better than others~some days u just can't get out~someday... ~
`-* wearing= Duckie pink aero shirt
`-* feet= socks - boring white
`-* hair= curly, up
`-* jewelry= watch, shell necklace
`-* makeup= barely any... all gone
`-* eating= Chips Ahoy Minis
`-* drinking= Capri Sun
`-* smelling= haha... what a joke, i still can't breathe outta my nose
`-* thinking= *gr* what a freakin' day
`-* craving= sleep/ relaxation
`-* hearing= fish tank and about ready to go insane
`-* wishing= i never went to 9th period
`-* talking to= no one [and that's a good thing]
`-* after this= hmwk, tv, vent to mom, go to gym with shelby
Today was stressful, I was just saying last night how stressed i've felt and how i just can't take anymore or anything... there is no one specific thing stressing me, i'm just moody and constantly stressed between school & friends mainly -- i've wanted to explode... well today i got my chance and i did.
we had no PSSA testing all day so it was a normal day, nothing really went on all day... until 9th period... i was already pissed because i heard i had to make up all my gym classes ive missed since last friday because of "m" [guess and you'll probably know... im not getting into this] and i was pissed because i never knew that before... so, i go and asked Bobb about when i could Swim to make it up... and shes like well the only time you have is next Tuesday when you can make it up, and i'm like well i have to make up 5 classes, and she's like well there is nothing i can do about it... and i flipped i'm like you can't do that, bc i cant control what is going on with my body i cant just magicly say it to stop and i *gr* tweaked out on her about how i didn't know and if i knew then i wouldve made them up before and if i only made up my one class on tuesday part of my grade would be down to an 80 when it should be a 100 bc of stupid reasons... to make a long bitch section short... i tweaked and started crying, yes... you did not read wrong... i cried, and i don't cry... and most of you that know me even alittle know that. the last time i cried in public was over a year ago and that was one on one to some one and just a complete different situation, either way... it wasnt that i was sad or anything it was that i was so pissed and frustrated and irriated and angry, i just started and everyon was like holy shit, bc they know how i am bc some of my closest friends are in my gym class... either way... Lacey wasn't swimming so i just sat and calmed down and talked to her for most of the period about how stupid everything was and how i couldnt believe something so gay would come out of all this... so then after the period was over Bobb called my into her office and was like alright, well there is only one other option [yes, you tell me this Now Bitch after i go fucking crying half a freaking gym class... gr i HATE her] she's like i can give you an incomplete and you can make it up and then you get ur grade later, i'm like alright... whatever i'll do that... bc that is better than getting that grade from her, ya know... so anyways That was my day or at least afternoon
then... i got home and started thinking.. this incomplete better not affect my national honor society thing [i know i will not make honor roll - but as long as i have a 92 i can be in the honor society and idc about the honor roll thing bc i know why im not on it and its not the fact my grades are bad its the fact i have a gay ass swimming teacher]... *argh* i'm still so stressed and the most all this stuff goes on and i get more and more frustrated by the things around me i realize that the last thing i need to be getting stressed over is freaking guys bc i have alittle lately and it's so stupid bc i have enough going on in my life than to sit around thinking about them...
now i'm goin to do hmwk and stuff until 6 when shelby gets out of work and we are going to the gym to renew our memberships *yay* :]
`-* wearing= Duckie pink aero shirt
`-* feet= socks - boring white
`-* hair= curly, up
`-* jewelry= watch, shell necklace
`-* makeup= barely any... all gone
`-* eating= Chips Ahoy Minis
`-* drinking= Capri Sun
`-* smelling= haha... what a joke, i still can't breathe outta my nose
`-* thinking= *gr* what a freakin' day
`-* craving= sleep/ relaxation
`-* hearing= fish tank and about ready to go insane
`-* wishing= i never went to 9th period
`-* talking to= no one [and that's a good thing]
`-* after this= hmwk, tv, vent to mom, go to gym with shelby
Today was stressful, I was just saying last night how stressed i've felt and how i just can't take anymore or anything... there is no one specific thing stressing me, i'm just moody and constantly stressed between school & friends mainly -- i've wanted to explode... well today i got my chance and i did.
we had no PSSA testing all day so it was a normal day, nothing really went on all day... until 9th period... i was already pissed because i heard i had to make up all my gym classes ive missed since last friday because of "m" [guess and you'll probably know... im not getting into this] and i was pissed because i never knew that before... so, i go and asked Bobb about when i could Swim to make it up... and shes like well the only time you have is next Tuesday when you can make it up, and i'm like well i have to make up 5 classes, and she's like well there is nothing i can do about it... and i flipped i'm like you can't do that, bc i cant control what is going on with my body i cant just magicly say it to stop and i *gr* tweaked out on her about how i didn't know and if i knew then i wouldve made them up before and if i only made up my one class on tuesday part of my grade would be down to an 80 when it should be a 100 bc of stupid reasons... to make a long bitch section short... i tweaked and started crying, yes... you did not read wrong... i cried, and i don't cry... and most of you that know me even alittle know that. the last time i cried in public was over a year ago and that was one on one to some one and just a complete different situation, either way... it wasnt that i was sad or anything it was that i was so pissed and frustrated and irriated and angry, i just started and everyon was like holy shit, bc they know how i am bc some of my closest friends are in my gym class... either way... Lacey wasn't swimming so i just sat and calmed down and talked to her for most of the period about how stupid everything was and how i couldnt believe something so gay would come out of all this... so then after the period was over Bobb called my into her office and was like alright, well there is only one other option [yes, you tell me this Now Bitch after i go fucking crying half a freaking gym class... gr i HATE her] she's like i can give you an incomplete and you can make it up and then you get ur grade later, i'm like alright... whatever i'll do that... bc that is better than getting that grade from her, ya know... so anyways That was my day or at least afternoon
then... i got home and started thinking.. this incomplete better not affect my national honor society thing [i know i will not make honor roll - but as long as i have a 92 i can be in the honor society and idc about the honor roll thing bc i know why im not on it and its not the fact my grades are bad its the fact i have a gay ass swimming teacher]... *argh* i'm still so stressed and the most all this stuff goes on and i get more and more frustrated by the things around me i realize that the last thing i need to be getting stressed over is freaking guys bc i have alittle lately and it's so stupid bc i have enough going on in my life than to sit around thinking about them...
now i'm goin to do hmwk and stuff until 6 when shelby gets out of work and we are going to the gym to renew our memberships *yay* :]