Keeping Courageous & Carrying On - Part 13

[bellax_xmuerte]

Title: Keeping Courageous & Carrying On - Part 13
Rating (overall): NC-17
Pairings: Pre Blaine/Kurt. Blaine centric.
Spoilers: Aired episodes.
Warnings: Abuse, Violence, Alcoholism, PTSD.
Word Count: 3,519
Notes: Inspired by this angst meme prompt. Remember that time I told you all it was going to get better from now on? Well, I lied, I lied a

Comments

[smooshysushi]

Oh my god. Poor Blaine. I feel more sorry for him every time an new chapter comes out! :( I hate that he feels that he can't fit in properly and that he keeps wondering whether the Hudmels still like him. Gosh, the healing process is going to be a long time :(

[bellax_xmuerte]

I know, my poor bb, I just want to hold him and hug him forever. I know, he worries too much that they’re going to hate him. Kid can’t see he’s flawless. But yeah, healing might take a while, most likely he’ll never fully recover but he’ll learn to cope. And he’ll have the Hudmels. And Kurt. He has a lot going for him, a lot of good things in his favour.

Thank you, so much, for everything, as always. Also, sorry for making you use two sad faces in one comment! Heavy stuff. <3

[ext_468791]

oh my gosh...like i have freaking tears in my eyes... that flashback scene was so heartbreaking.... you're writing just gets more and more amazing

[bellax_xmuerte]

Oh, I'm sorry about the teary eyes. :( I'm glad you felt the flashback. Thank you, reading that actually means the world to me. Thanks for everythng! <3

[katiek723]

God damn, that was angsty. I'm really glad you decided to go this route though, because it's definitely realistic. Blaine's lived over half his life being physically and emotionally abused, and basically his entire life since he's been old enough to understand it. You don't walk away from something like that easily.

And I'm still so shocked that you're pulling this all out of nowhere, because that was such as accurate portrayal of PTSD - with the sudden outburst of anger, triggered by the bang of the chair, how it started with the smells and tastes before the full blown flashback kicked it. Earily accurate.

This is definitely my favourite story I'm reading atm (and I read a lot). Do you have a plan for how long it's going to be, or are you just going to keep going (I hope the latter)?

Thank-you for all the time you're putting into this amazing story. Can't wait for more.

[bellax_xmuerte]

I know, right? I’m thinking about calling myself the ‘The Angst Queen’, seriously, I’m starting to question my ability to write happiness now. :P Yeah, I knew after the last few chapters I had to make a choice. I could wrap it all up quickly and Blaine & Kurt could be happy or I could try and show the real after effects etc. I chose the latter and well, here we are! Exactly, and he has so many unresolved things going down right now, I didn’t want to cheat him of the honesty (especially because I’ve been banging on about how much he needs the truth in his life

[anonymous]

Oh my god.. the flashback scene was terrifying, but so, so well done. I felt like I was right there.. in Blaine's mind, I guess, going through that. I'm really, really loving this.
*anxiously awaits next part*

[bellax_xmuerte]

I'm so glad you felt the flashback because, in my head, it was absolutely horrifying. Thank you. That's all I'll ever want, for people who read this to care about him, to be there with him.

Thank you, so much. <3

[ilaria84]

This was so touching and so well written
You really gave me chills here...

[bellax_xmuerte]

Thank you, so much, I'm really glad you liked it. <3