bare with me
bitter lonely alone isolated alone manic crazy forever . i like you. pathetic. cant we be good friends
? i want you in my life. not him anymore. it feels good to want something/someone else. wouldnt be able to keep up with you. physicaly and drinkingly. im sorry your mom died. why does that make me want you more? im a horrible person. ugly outside and inside. who says that? i feel gross. but youre with her and youre happy and im happy for you. not leaving this house. no reason. my parents house. rut. no one has my back through thick and thin. i want unconditional love. im pathetic. this world is gonna eat me alive. i need to stop drinking. but theres nothing else to do. want a relationship but dont. dont want to be in one for the wrong reason. i miss that feeling. wanted. pillow talk. subtle kisses. no one else. one thing you were right about, yes, i do have a "fuck the world" attitude. and i like it that way. i miss my music. i want someone to talk music with. enjoy my concerts with. all these new friends like radio craptastic rock. wont even give it a try. broaden your horizons people. what do you really think of me? what kind of guy do you see me with? you seem controlling. id like to make the plans for once. alone.
? i want you in my life. not him anymore. it feels good to want something/someone else. wouldnt be able to keep up with you. physicaly and drinkingly. im sorry your mom died. why does that make me want you more? im a horrible person. ugly outside and inside. who says that? i feel gross. but youre with her and youre happy and im happy for you. not leaving this house. no reason. my parents house. rut. no one has my back through thick and thin. i want unconditional love. im pathetic. this world is gonna eat me alive. i need to stop drinking. but theres nothing else to do. want a relationship but dont. dont want to be in one for the wrong reason. i miss that feeling. wanted. pillow talk. subtle kisses. no one else. one thing you were right about, yes, i do have a "fuck the world" attitude. and i like it that way. i miss my music. i want someone to talk music with. enjoy my concerts with. all these new friends like radio craptastic rock. wont even give it a try. broaden your horizons people. what do you really think of me? what kind of guy do you see me with? you seem controlling. id like to make the plans for once. alone.