LIVE FROM HOME!
It feels great to be back online whenever I feel like it - I am definately going to look into a cable internet thing - haven't "dialed up" in years, lol. Oh well though - I'll deal with getting "booted" and whatever else for the convenience of having it at home.
I'm looking for another side job - or a higher paying regular one. Now that summer is here I will more than appreciate being home by noon and still covering my bills - thats for sure.
Joe came over last night - I liked having him here - the routine of it anyways. Him coming in with that smile - accompanied by authority - it makes me feel safe in a threatening kind of way, hows that for irony? Adam didn't like it - when I told him thats what I was doing last night. I refuse to compromise myself - meaning doing what I want, when I want, without any regard for anyone else - I know that sounds cold and stubborn - but I don't owe anyone anything except for myself. Besides that we aren't even together - we have been spending alot of time together but I'm not at a point that I am ready to move on - and not completely sure that I WANT to. I have been through so much and at moments forget how different I am as a person until I'll tossed into situations I've been in before and see how dramatically different that I feel, despite the way I tend to act out of habit.
I guess what I am saying is that no matter how wonderful things seem up front - that more often than not is what I am seeing - a front. Not to take away from anyone or to discredit them - I just figure its high time I learn from mistakes instead of repeat them.
I went to Ky's yesterday during her lunch break - followed her around and talked her ear off for an hour. It was quite theraputic. I also wrote my boss a letter - since I'm so horrible at confrontations and opening up I thought that at least this way I wouldn't look back on a discussion and wish I had mentioned something I hadn't. She responded in a way I didn't even hope for - and I am so confident now in my decision to bring up those issues. Sometimes situations need maintenance - thank God I didn't let too much time pass by. Unsure of what I will do once fall gets here - but it would be foolish to go back to the law firm before then because of Billy being home from school.
His arm doesn't even appear to be broken [ except for the purple cast, lol ]. He is back to doing everything he could do before - he would have preferred to not even take it easy for a week but I held to it [ and it was raining and he didn't have another choice, heh].
The chiro appts are doing well for us - started to notice some changes 2 weeks ago in both our moods and over all well being. Now I am on a traction unit to assit in correcting my neck. That is not alot of fun - but hopefully I can fix all that damage.
Billy had a great day at school today so I can only hope and dare I say expect a great afternoon.
I'm looking for another side job - or a higher paying regular one. Now that summer is here I will more than appreciate being home by noon and still covering my bills - thats for sure.
Joe came over last night - I liked having him here - the routine of it anyways. Him coming in with that smile - accompanied by authority - it makes me feel safe in a threatening kind of way, hows that for irony? Adam didn't like it - when I told him thats what I was doing last night. I refuse to compromise myself - meaning doing what I want, when I want, without any regard for anyone else - I know that sounds cold and stubborn - but I don't owe anyone anything except for myself. Besides that we aren't even together - we have been spending alot of time together but I'm not at a point that I am ready to move on - and not completely sure that I WANT to. I have been through so much and at moments forget how different I am as a person until I'll tossed into situations I've been in before and see how dramatically different that I feel, despite the way I tend to act out of habit.
I guess what I am saying is that no matter how wonderful things seem up front - that more often than not is what I am seeing - a front. Not to take away from anyone or to discredit them - I just figure its high time I learn from mistakes instead of repeat them.
I went to Ky's yesterday during her lunch break - followed her around and talked her ear off for an hour. It was quite theraputic. I also wrote my boss a letter - since I'm so horrible at confrontations and opening up I thought that at least this way I wouldn't look back on a discussion and wish I had mentioned something I hadn't. She responded in a way I didn't even hope for - and I am so confident now in my decision to bring up those issues. Sometimes situations need maintenance - thank God I didn't let too much time pass by. Unsure of what I will do once fall gets here - but it would be foolish to go back to the law firm before then because of Billy being home from school.
His arm doesn't even appear to be broken [ except for the purple cast, lol ]. He is back to doing everything he could do before - he would have preferred to not even take it easy for a week but I held to it [ and it was raining and he didn't have another choice, heh].
The chiro appts are doing well for us - started to notice some changes 2 weeks ago in both our moods and over all well being. Now I am on a traction unit to assit in correcting my neck. That is not alot of fun - but hopefully I can fix all that damage.
Billy had a great day at school today so I can only hope and dare I say expect a great afternoon.