Hmmm
I'm tired. I just got home from work. But I need to rant.
You have to understand, I do not talk to anyone about anything that is going on. I had Jonathan, but we've barely spoken lately. We're both so busy.
At my job, i'm on my feet for eight hours minimum. Tonight it was 9.5. My feet are killing me. I thought I had gotten used to it.
I have a court date on monday for my criminally offensive speeding ticket. I'm going to the housing office to secure a dorm afterwards. Eleanor is gonna be working so she'll help me out with all the paper work.
I got my car back. I'm very grateful. I missed it.
I had a guy come in yesterday... it was so cute. He came in around 1130 and I rang him up at my register. It was like 5 transformer cars lol. So he gave some excuse, like immediately, about how his buddy has a collection or something. So then that was that, he left. Another customer, whatever. He kinda looked at me for a long period of time though as he left. Then after my lunch sometime, i'd say about 3, he came back in to buy another one. Now, he picked my register. We had 4 open and my line was longer than the others. But yeah, he came up and he was like "i'm back" and I actually remembered him (I rarely remember customers. Strangely enough too many of them look alike). So to get into the system to ring someone up we have to enter the customer's phone number. Now i'm not a very good associate and I make up numbers sometimes, or we enter "9999999999". So i did that and he goes "so you're not going to ask for my number again?" and i told him "we already have it in the system from earlier" and he goes "oh. well... i came back hoping I could get yours".
Now, I had no idea what he was talking about. I thought he was talking about my register.. and I was like okay...
then I understood, after he looked all hurt and rejected.
It was cute. But I think he thinks i'm a lot older than I am.
So, even though i've like completely sworn off relationships, I watch the couples coming into my store and now they appear happy and all that crap. Even though half of those men are lying bastards. But I want that in some sense. I'd take a friend with benefits at this point. I don't want commitment. Theres only one person i'd make an exception to that rule for and thats not going to happen. ever. So forget that.
but its been a long time since i've... interacted with the opposite sex... lol... and i think its starting to get to me.
I haven't weighed myself in over a week. I've been eating like crap. I'm on the road for work at 645 most mornings. so i forget to pack a lunch and i end up eating my only meal off the dollar menu. I've been having a lot of financial issues which aren't my fault at all, so it sucks.
I hope I make enough money to get my laptop. I work so much but for some reason it doesn't come out on my paychecks like that. Idk. If my next paycheck isn't a lot then I know theres a system error. This week, including tomorrow, is a full time 40 hour week. So hopefully I'll be pulling in that money now. My first check was only 21 hours, and i made 148 after taxes. It sucks, feeling like you're making crap lol. so anyway.. almost $300 for a 40 hour week? not bad? It'll be 330 before taxes. I've got about 700 already in a special savings for the computer... so i can make at least $900 more, which is exactly how much I need... idk if i'm going back to work after xmas. Apparently management hasn't decided yet how long they're keeping seasonal people. So if they end it after xmas i'm outta there. Either way if they offer me a permanent position I can't take it.
I still haven't spoken to my dad. Its been six months. He still hasn't said happy birthday. Nor has he given anything for my birthday. He was arguing with my mom about how he wants to spoil my brother and get him a wii for hannukah.
Yeah. Apparently I don't exist anymore.
My mom made a comment how i'm saving up for a laptop and he said he'll contribute to it. I doubt it, and unfortunately i still hope he does.
I've got my extremely long ass take home final to do. I wonder when i'll have time. Its due tuesday morning
ok night time for me.
You have to understand, I do not talk to anyone about anything that is going on. I had Jonathan, but we've barely spoken lately. We're both so busy.
At my job, i'm on my feet for eight hours minimum. Tonight it was 9.5. My feet are killing me. I thought I had gotten used to it.
I have a court date on monday for my criminally offensive speeding ticket. I'm going to the housing office to secure a dorm afterwards. Eleanor is gonna be working so she'll help me out with all the paper work.
I got my car back. I'm very grateful. I missed it.
I had a guy come in yesterday... it was so cute. He came in around 1130 and I rang him up at my register. It was like 5 transformer cars lol. So he gave some excuse, like immediately, about how his buddy has a collection or something. So then that was that, he left. Another customer, whatever. He kinda looked at me for a long period of time though as he left. Then after my lunch sometime, i'd say about 3, he came back in to buy another one. Now, he picked my register. We had 4 open and my line was longer than the others. But yeah, he came up and he was like "i'm back" and I actually remembered him (I rarely remember customers. Strangely enough too many of them look alike). So to get into the system to ring someone up we have to enter the customer's phone number. Now i'm not a very good associate and I make up numbers sometimes, or we enter "9999999999". So i did that and he goes "so you're not going to ask for my number again?" and i told him "we already have it in the system from earlier" and he goes "oh. well... i came back hoping I could get yours".
Now, I had no idea what he was talking about. I thought he was talking about my register.. and I was like okay...
then I understood, after he looked all hurt and rejected.
It was cute. But I think he thinks i'm a lot older than I am.
So, even though i've like completely sworn off relationships, I watch the couples coming into my store and now they appear happy and all that crap. Even though half of those men are lying bastards. But I want that in some sense. I'd take a friend with benefits at this point. I don't want commitment. Theres only one person i'd make an exception to that rule for and thats not going to happen. ever. So forget that.
but its been a long time since i've... interacted with the opposite sex... lol... and i think its starting to get to me.
I haven't weighed myself in over a week. I've been eating like crap. I'm on the road for work at 645 most mornings. so i forget to pack a lunch and i end up eating my only meal off the dollar menu. I've been having a lot of financial issues which aren't my fault at all, so it sucks.
I hope I make enough money to get my laptop. I work so much but for some reason it doesn't come out on my paychecks like that. Idk. If my next paycheck isn't a lot then I know theres a system error. This week, including tomorrow, is a full time 40 hour week. So hopefully I'll be pulling in that money now. My first check was only 21 hours, and i made 148 after taxes. It sucks, feeling like you're making crap lol. so anyway.. almost $300 for a 40 hour week? not bad? It'll be 330 before taxes. I've got about 700 already in a special savings for the computer... so i can make at least $900 more, which is exactly how much I need... idk if i'm going back to work after xmas. Apparently management hasn't decided yet how long they're keeping seasonal people. So if they end it after xmas i'm outta there. Either way if they offer me a permanent position I can't take it.
I still haven't spoken to my dad. Its been six months. He still hasn't said happy birthday. Nor has he given anything for my birthday. He was arguing with my mom about how he wants to spoil my brother and get him a wii for hannukah.
Yeah. Apparently I don't exist anymore.
My mom made a comment how i'm saving up for a laptop and he said he'll contribute to it. I doubt it, and unfortunately i still hope he does.
I've got my extremely long ass take home final to do. I wonder when i'll have time. Its due tuesday morning
ok night time for me.