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i wrote this update last night
December 12, 2005
I just came home to Eunice with my mom and Linda Rondstat. I decided to stay in Lafayette during the holidays. I had to move all my stuff to a new dorm. Seph and Kelley left town and both went home so i was soo bored yesterday and today and had no car. I haven’t had the fucking car in weeks. It’s ridiculous. No one would come to pick me up because they had no transportation. My mom promised she’d call me and come to Lafayette to get me but she never did so i fell asleep at 4 p.m. and slept until 7 a.m. this morning when i was awoken by construction outside my room.
My mom is in Breaux Bridge all last week and this week recording with Linda and the Red Stick Ramblers. She doesn’t have time to help me with anything. Every time i called her about something really important, her phone was off. I feel like, when i need her most, she’s not there. She’s missed out on a lot of important events in my life because of her work. I never cared, really, but now, for some reason, it’s starting to get to me. She’s supported me in a lot, too, but i just feel like if she wasn’t so involved with her work, she could be there more often when i need her to be, like when i get really sick, or need help moving, or need a ride to some school dance, which was the situation in high school.
Anyway, I had to get my brother’s girlfriend, tanya, to bring me Wilson’s car to get my stuff out of my old dorm. She got all pissed off at me and said something, like, “Your family goes out of their way to help you all the time and they get no thanks from you.” My response was, “You’ve lived here maybe two months and all of the sudden you think you’re a part of the family. You don’t see what goes on when you’re in another country with my brother. You don’t see how i act and you don’t know what i do to show them that i car. For you to call me an unappreciative, spoiled brat is...” She cut me off saying she didn’t call me that and i said that she made her point clear. She thinks she’s perfect because my whole family is in love with her. She’s cute and natural and acts happy and interested in everything all the time. “Oh, your rabbit has diarrhea?! What color is it? How long has he had it?” She’s got the answer for every problem and she’s always willing to help out my parents whenever they need it. She does everything from cooking bizarre, tasty food to nursing to rock climbing in the mountains of Canada. That’s where she’s from. She does all the things that fascinate my mom and all the things that impress my dad. She’s just the most perfect little thing ever. *rolls eyes*
I came home tonight and i was a bit irritated because i was sick of being bored and staring at the wall in Lafayette. Everyone was being sarcastic and saying, “Well, aren’t you just so cheerful tonight!” At dinner, they wouldn’t shutup about how amazing Tanya’s (the girlfriend) cooking was and how much of a help she had been in the yard today. “Yes, i just think that physical labor is so rewarding and, in this weather, it’s almost a sin to call it labor!”, she’ll say and my family will agree. My mom keeps saying i should get a job over the holidays in lafayette and i keep pointing out that it’s kind of hard to go job hunting without a car.
There are a lot of things i would actually like to do with my mom, since it IS Christmas and everything. I’d like to go Xmas shopping with her, alter my clothes like we’ve been planning to do for weeks, unpack my things from my dorm. She says, “We will!” but we won’t. We never do. I’m going to New Orleans on the 26 and she’ll be working until the 24 so there will be no time to do anything i’d planned. The couple of weeks i’m free and excited to work on our projects, she’s working the entire time.
I miss Seph. If he were here, none of this would be bothering me. It wouldn’t even be on my mind. He says he may come into Lafayette on the 17th because there’s a ska show in town. I can’t wait to see him again...=pouts= I got really sick Saturday night when we left the Caboose because i drank way too much, way too fast. I threw up at his apartment, for the first time. He took care of me and made me drink lots of water and then let me pass out. We woke up at, like, 6:30 a.m. on sunday and watched the sun rise through his window.
December 12, 2005
I just came home to Eunice with my mom and Linda Rondstat. I decided to stay in Lafayette during the holidays. I had to move all my stuff to a new dorm. Seph and Kelley left town and both went home so i was soo bored yesterday and today and had no car. I haven’t had the fucking car in weeks. It’s ridiculous. No one would come to pick me up because they had no transportation. My mom promised she’d call me and come to Lafayette to get me but she never did so i fell asleep at 4 p.m. and slept until 7 a.m. this morning when i was awoken by construction outside my room.
My mom is in Breaux Bridge all last week and this week recording with Linda and the Red Stick Ramblers. She doesn’t have time to help me with anything. Every time i called her about something really important, her phone was off. I feel like, when i need her most, she’s not there. She’s missed out on a lot of important events in my life because of her work. I never cared, really, but now, for some reason, it’s starting to get to me. She’s supported me in a lot, too, but i just feel like if she wasn’t so involved with her work, she could be there more often when i need her to be, like when i get really sick, or need help moving, or need a ride to some school dance, which was the situation in high school.
Anyway, I had to get my brother’s girlfriend, tanya, to bring me Wilson’s car to get my stuff out of my old dorm. She got all pissed off at me and said something, like, “Your family goes out of their way to help you all the time and they get no thanks from you.” My response was, “You’ve lived here maybe two months and all of the sudden you think you’re a part of the family. You don’t see what goes on when you’re in another country with my brother. You don’t see how i act and you don’t know what i do to show them that i car. For you to call me an unappreciative, spoiled brat is...” She cut me off saying she didn’t call me that and i said that she made her point clear. She thinks she’s perfect because my whole family is in love with her. She’s cute and natural and acts happy and interested in everything all the time. “Oh, your rabbit has diarrhea?! What color is it? How long has he had it?” She’s got the answer for every problem and she’s always willing to help out my parents whenever they need it. She does everything from cooking bizarre, tasty food to nursing to rock climbing in the mountains of Canada. That’s where she’s from. She does all the things that fascinate my mom and all the things that impress my dad. She’s just the most perfect little thing ever. *rolls eyes*
I came home tonight and i was a bit irritated because i was sick of being bored and staring at the wall in Lafayette. Everyone was being sarcastic and saying, “Well, aren’t you just so cheerful tonight!” At dinner, they wouldn’t shutup about how amazing Tanya’s (the girlfriend) cooking was and how much of a help she had been in the yard today. “Yes, i just think that physical labor is so rewarding and, in this weather, it’s almost a sin to call it labor!”, she’ll say and my family will agree. My mom keeps saying i should get a job over the holidays in lafayette and i keep pointing out that it’s kind of hard to go job hunting without a car.
There are a lot of things i would actually like to do with my mom, since it IS Christmas and everything. I’d like to go Xmas shopping with her, alter my clothes like we’ve been planning to do for weeks, unpack my things from my dorm. She says, “We will!” but we won’t. We never do. I’m going to New Orleans on the 26 and she’ll be working until the 24 so there will be no time to do anything i’d planned. The couple of weeks i’m free and excited to work on our projects, she’s working the entire time.
I miss Seph. If he were here, none of this would be bothering me. It wouldn’t even be on my mind. He says he may come into Lafayette on the 17th because there’s a ska show in town. I can’t wait to see him again...=pouts= I got really sick Saturday night when we left the Caboose because i drank way too much, way too fast. I threw up at his apartment, for the first time. He took care of me and made me drink lots of water and then let me pass out. We woke up at, like, 6:30 a.m. on sunday and watched the sun rise through his window.