update, kinda.
o.k. so now I'm not as angry as I was in the last journal entry. I was told by someone the other day, that if you keep running into a brick wall, find another way. Well, well, well, it took me only 20 yrs. to figure that out. I am on my way down another path and this time I will not let a brick wall keep hold me back. Fuck it, I'll blow the wall to pieces and I will get through. I am determined to get my life back to where it should be. My heart has healed, but my head still aches a little from all the stupid bullshit I have to put up with. But, I survived. I'm still here, I'm not going away. I've come to the realization that 99% of people suck, so why should I let any of them get to me. I'm actually shocked how well, I have handled everything. I don't need some balding, over bearing asshole in my life. I'm actually very thankful that I got out of that situation before it got any uglier. Yes, I hate him, and I always will. You cannot break my son's heart and get away with it. I will rip your fucking throat out. Anyhow, I will be 27 on the 4th. Woopity doo! I don't plan on going out. I'm just gonna stay home with the people that matter and have a few drinky drinks, and watch some illegal fireworks. Plus I'm going to the boobie bar on Friday for a little belated b-day present. I think that will be fun. Boobies are fun!!! I'm out!