Kaaaa-BAM!!!
So it's hitting me. Gradually, but it's hitting me. I knew it would happen, because I've been through this before. It can be brief or sometimes drawn out. It's not always sad. And even when it's sad, it's not ALL sad. Every one is happy to leave SOME thing behind. So twice this week it occured to me that I am LEAVING St. Paul, not just GOING TO Madison. It's been brief moments. Nothing to really even write about, but I will.
The first moment I was going to my morning team meeting. I parked my car and walked up the little hill to my building and I thought to myself, "Ah, this is one my last team meetings. I hope Janise is here today." Then a few minutes later Janise asked me about how I was doing with the move and I told her, "I am just starting to get sad." And Janise made this sympathetic face (I LOVE JANISE!!). And I responded, "Oh, don't worry it just started like 10 minutes ago and frankly I am kind of over it already." And I was. Work is a blessing in that at times it keeps your mind busy when you really don't need or want it to be still.
The second moment happened just now. I was cleaning my apartment and finished the kitchen. And I was trying to decide which room to clean next. I said out loud to myself, "Oh, I should do my bedroom next it has been driving me nuts. BUT it only has to drive me nuts for two more weeks and if I want to have people over I should... " That's when it occurred to me TWO WEEKS!!! TWO WEEKS!!! OMG. Chop. Chop. Post to livejournal THEN get busy. Procrastination has always been my favorite form of art!