damned if i do, damned if i don't
i've never thought school was hard.
i believe i'm a naturally intelligent person: i like to learn, experiment, connect what i've learned--and maybe that is what makes school easy for me. i mean, i may not always get As, but for the most part, i can pass a class with a little elbow grease and effort if that's what it comes down to.
i mean, how hard is it really to sit there, make a few flashcards, and review them? or writing a paper and going to some people and ask them to look it over?
i'm changing my mind on that, today. it's not that i think classes are hard, per se. i think the politics of education are what the real difficulty is for myself.
i work exceptionally hard to do well, but it doesn't really matter if no one's willing to give you a lending hand. part of politics is being able to convince people and sell yourself into a position--and despite the fact that i know i have the potential, it doesn't mean dick unless i can get someone else to see it.
i still don't know if i think school is hard, but i like to think if you keep trying and work hard at something, you'll be able to get it eventually. or maybe i'm just being hopeful.