Guess whos back!!!!
Firstly I apologise for my complete lack of posting, not greatly missed I know but I have been very busy with my new house and didn’t have internet access for ages and in that time, lost my love for LJ. However, I decided it is about time to let you know what has been going on with me.
Firstly, I am the proud joint owner of a 3-bedroom semi detached house in Swindon town centre. I moved in at the end of August and am absolutely loving it. I am within walking distance to my work, shops, and pubs so lets just say my bank balance has taken a bit of a hit but it is totally worth it. My bank balance has also taken a complete hit because my sister and I decided to get our bathroom redone and that is much more expensive and hassle than I anticipated. But it was finally finished yesterday and looks lush so can’t complain.
I met someone and completely fell for them and it turns out that they don’t feel the same way about me. We started off as good friends and I ended up falling for them but I made a move a couple of weeks ago and got blown off, that sucks like nothing before. In one way I am glad I know because now I can move on and perhaps be open to other opportunities that before I wouldn’t have done because I was too hung up on Martyn. And we are still really good friends and can talk about anything which is also very special and I don’t want to lose that. I am just gutted though because I did fancy the pants off him and was convinced he felt the same way. Even all my friends were telling me to go for it which never helps. I get the feeling that he is just after friendship as he doesn’t have many friends and that he isn’t completely over his ex girlfriend. Now that is a mess I do NOT want to get involved in. I did think about trying one more time as the first time I came onto him I was a little drunk (not that drunk that I didn’t know what I was doing, just drunk enough to give myself uber-confidence.) Don’t think I will though as I will appear desperate, especially if he says no again, and I don’t want it to get to the stage that he can’t see me because I keep throwing myself at him every time that we meet. I guess I have to understand that you can’t force these things, if he doesn’t like me, he doesn’t like me. At least I stayed true to myself and I tried and now know, otherwise I would be waffling on right now about how much I like him, how much we have in common etc etc. You just never know what is around the corner and life is all about timing, if its meant to be, its meant to be. But for now I will draw a line under it and not put my life on hold for me, he certainly isn’t doing it for me. I feel a bit stupid actually because I thought he liked me my life became quite consumed by him and looking back, he didn’t feel the same way but I just convinced myself that he did. But lets look on the bright side, we are still close friends who are planning a trip to Japan together and I didn’t make a COMPLETE fool of myself (just a little one!)
I am planning another trip other than Japan though I going by myself to Sheffield :-)
Haven’t given much thought to Christmas at all, probably should as I always find I have more people to buy for than I first think of. Plus my money situation isn’t brilliant due to new bathroom and other things but never mind, no point me earning my pennies if I don’t get to spend them on myself every now and then.
I am still working for Swindon Borough Council but in the finance department which is sooooooooooooo much more enjoyable than my old job. I work Monday to Fridays on flexi time and as I said earlier, it takes me less than 5 minutes on foot to get to walk. Plus the Internet connection is brilliant and everybody is very relaxed, who could ask for anything more??
Am sure that there are other less interesting things going on in my life but I do not want to overload with information at one go, plus if I can’t think of them straight away then they are probably not worth knowing.
Firstly, I am the proud joint owner of a 3-bedroom semi detached house in Swindon town centre. I moved in at the end of August and am absolutely loving it. I am within walking distance to my work, shops, and pubs so lets just say my bank balance has taken a bit of a hit but it is totally worth it. My bank balance has also taken a complete hit because my sister and I decided to get our bathroom redone and that is much more expensive and hassle than I anticipated. But it was finally finished yesterday and looks lush so can’t complain.
I met someone and completely fell for them and it turns out that they don’t feel the same way about me. We started off as good friends and I ended up falling for them but I made a move a couple of weeks ago and got blown off, that sucks like nothing before. In one way I am glad I know because now I can move on and perhaps be open to other opportunities that before I wouldn’t have done because I was too hung up on Martyn. And we are still really good friends and can talk about anything which is also very special and I don’t want to lose that. I am just gutted though because I did fancy the pants off him and was convinced he felt the same way. Even all my friends were telling me to go for it which never helps. I get the feeling that he is just after friendship as he doesn’t have many friends and that he isn’t completely over his ex girlfriend. Now that is a mess I do NOT want to get involved in. I did think about trying one more time as the first time I came onto him I was a little drunk (not that drunk that I didn’t know what I was doing, just drunk enough to give myself uber-confidence.) Don’t think I will though as I will appear desperate, especially if he says no again, and I don’t want it to get to the stage that he can’t see me because I keep throwing myself at him every time that we meet. I guess I have to understand that you can’t force these things, if he doesn’t like me, he doesn’t like me. At least I stayed true to myself and I tried and now know, otherwise I would be waffling on right now about how much I like him, how much we have in common etc etc. You just never know what is around the corner and life is all about timing, if its meant to be, its meant to be. But for now I will draw a line under it and not put my life on hold for me, he certainly isn’t doing it for me. I feel a bit stupid actually because I thought he liked me my life became quite consumed by him and looking back, he didn’t feel the same way but I just convinced myself that he did. But lets look on the bright side, we are still close friends who are planning a trip to Japan together and I didn’t make a COMPLETE fool of myself (just a little one!)
I am planning another trip other than Japan though I going by myself to Sheffield :-)
Haven’t given much thought to Christmas at all, probably should as I always find I have more people to buy for than I first think of. Plus my money situation isn’t brilliant due to new bathroom and other things but never mind, no point me earning my pennies if I don’t get to spend them on myself every now and then.
I am still working for Swindon Borough Council but in the finance department which is sooooooooooooo much more enjoyable than my old job. I work Monday to Fridays on flexi time and as I said earlier, it takes me less than 5 minutes on foot to get to walk. Plus the Internet connection is brilliant and everybody is very relaxed, who could ask for anything more??
Am sure that there are other less interesting things going on in my life but I do not want to overload with information at one go, plus if I can’t think of them straight away then they are probably not worth knowing.