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I think im just scared to get close to someone again... because i dont want to hurt anyone else. I've had a tendancy to do that latley. I just dont want to make a habit of it. I've built so many walls and I wish i could just let them all down and like let everything go and just enjoy everything to its full amount. But theres so many things stopping me from that. I've actually always had this problem and the one time I let all my gaurds down and I just lived freely was in late April... so I dont know if I will be doing that any time soon.
I have a fetish with stars..... and i think i think to much. Becuase i can sit outside just watching stars for like 2 hours straight and not even notice. I think about the wierdest things to.... like crazy things... for example how does everyone look so different, like whites and asians and blacks and arabics... all of us have different skin tones and such and they pass it on to there children.... yet we are all descendants of the same two people... Adam and Eve, so how on earth are there different ethnicities and so forth when in reality we are all related.
So i have decided not to get homeschooled... i think i would hate to miss out on senior year activities... for example PROM, chyea.
Havent talked to any of my friends in a while. I've been working so much... and yet i am stil broke. Ahh i need a new job so badly.. so if anyone has any JOb idea's please let me know.
I have a fetish with stars..... and i think i think to much. Becuase i can sit outside just watching stars for like 2 hours straight and not even notice. I think about the wierdest things to.... like crazy things... for example how does everyone look so different, like whites and asians and blacks and arabics... all of us have different skin tones and such and they pass it on to there children.... yet we are all descendants of the same two people... Adam and Eve, so how on earth are there different ethnicities and so forth when in reality we are all related.
So i have decided not to get homeschooled... i think i would hate to miss out on senior year activities... for example PROM, chyea.
Havent talked to any of my friends in a while. I've been working so much... and yet i am stil broke. Ahh i need a new job so badly.. so if anyone has any JOb idea's please let me know.