Unbelievable!!
You know, it's funny. Washington has always felt like home to me, but I wasn't even off the plane yet and already I felt like I didn't belong here anymore.To me, home is where the heart is, Mitch has my heart, therefore wherever he goes, I call home.
I couldn't believe how nervous I was, but so excited. When he pulled up at the hotel, he got out and immediately we hugged and kissed. God, how amazing was that?!? It felt right, deep, it felt like it was just supposed to be that way. I was afraid he would see me and turn around, but he didn't. Instead, all he did was love and take care of me.
I knew that when I got there things were going to be amazing, but not this amazing. Being with him felt so right and good. I wanted to take care of him. He's my man, and although he's not helpless by any means, it was nice to bring a womans touch to the place. The apartment, once his home, has now become our home. It was inviting and cozy. He cats....our cats....adorable...loveable...I miss them!
I missed him when I layed next to him and watched him sleep and I had the time of my life when I was there. The phone relationship is no longer sufficient. After being with eachother, it just isn't satisfying anymore. Knowing what I'm missing out on. It was Wednesday. My family and I were at SeaWorld and it hit me. I can't do this.
I called Mitch at work and said baby, I can't do this. I can't wait til June. I won't make it. Then he suggested that I come back with him in May. It was a great idea. It's only 5 weeks away, why not right? We discussed it with my mother at dinner and she agreed to it. Yes, unfortunately my mom has some sort of say so because she depends on my income somewhat.
I can't wait to go back and be with him. In our home, with our cats. Cuddle and watch movies together in our bed. I miss that bed. Speaking of bed, god it's gonna suck to go to bed alone tonight. To wake up in the morning and not see him there. Do you know how long I've dreamt of waking up and seeing him there??? Then finally, it happens. Now it's gone again. Except, not forever. No, not even close.
The airport this morning sucked. It was fucked! Chokes me up now thinking about it. I knew I'd cry, but not that much. I thought I knew how much i love mitch and how deep my feelings were for him, but I didn't. I cried more today than I've ever cried over ANYTHING IN MY LIFE! He held me and kissed me softly. "Baby, don't cry, everything will be ok, we'll see eachother soon, we'll make it." His words were kind and comforting, but the look I saw in his eyes, I could tell he was holding back tears, too.
His eyes were sad, *tears* it just fuckin sucked! We got to security where we kissed one last time. He stood there and watched me until we couldn't see eachother anymore. It was sad. I was bawling....in front of everyone, but I didn't give a shit. While standing there, looking back at him from across the security checkpoint, I had considered dropping my bags and giving him one last hug and kiss. I wanted to so bad.
It's crazy how perfectly we fit. When we hold hands, when we kiss, our lips fit perfect, when he holds me, everything was just perfect. It couldn't of gone better. It was more than I thought possible. I've never loved someone as much as I love Mitch. I know he's the one for me. I didn't think it was possible for us to have a stronger connection than what we had, but it grew while I was there. Amazing.
His friends are so cool. I liked them a lot. Great people with good hearts. It was a very enjoyable time. Something in my life I'll never forget. He'll be here May 17th then he and I will jet back to Orlando together for infinity on May 22nd. My mom has to go to Texas on business, it could be as early as this week or beginning of next week. When she comes back, if I can pull the money out of my ass, I'll be going back to Orlando as early as the 18 of THIS month.
People, please pray for me. Pray that I get the chance to go sooner. I need him more than I can put into words. He's the air in my lungs, the beat of my heart, the reason behind my smile, the bounce in my step, the happiness in my soul, he's the light in my eyes. He's the love of my life and I need to be with him more than I ever thought it was humanly possible to need to be with someone. We were made for eachother. I'm so glad that he and I are on the same level of life and love.
Mitch, baby I love you so much. Thank you for everything you did for me, my family, and us this week. Thank you for making my life so beautiful. Thank you for the gifts, material and especially, non material. It was the most incredible time of my life and I can't wait to be back with you because I know our love won't die.
Tiamo y baccio
Bre
I couldn't believe how nervous I was, but so excited. When he pulled up at the hotel, he got out and immediately we hugged and kissed. God, how amazing was that?!? It felt right, deep, it felt like it was just supposed to be that way. I was afraid he would see me and turn around, but he didn't. Instead, all he did was love and take care of me.
I knew that when I got there things were going to be amazing, but not this amazing. Being with him felt so right and good. I wanted to take care of him. He's my man, and although he's not helpless by any means, it was nice to bring a womans touch to the place. The apartment, once his home, has now become our home. It was inviting and cozy. He cats....our cats....adorable...loveable...I miss them!
I missed him when I layed next to him and watched him sleep and I had the time of my life when I was there. The phone relationship is no longer sufficient. After being with eachother, it just isn't satisfying anymore. Knowing what I'm missing out on. It was Wednesday. My family and I were at SeaWorld and it hit me. I can't do this.
I called Mitch at work and said baby, I can't do this. I can't wait til June. I won't make it. Then he suggested that I come back with him in May. It was a great idea. It's only 5 weeks away, why not right? We discussed it with my mother at dinner and she agreed to it. Yes, unfortunately my mom has some sort of say so because she depends on my income somewhat.
I can't wait to go back and be with him. In our home, with our cats. Cuddle and watch movies together in our bed. I miss that bed. Speaking of bed, god it's gonna suck to go to bed alone tonight. To wake up in the morning and not see him there. Do you know how long I've dreamt of waking up and seeing him there??? Then finally, it happens. Now it's gone again. Except, not forever. No, not even close.
The airport this morning sucked. It was fucked! Chokes me up now thinking about it. I knew I'd cry, but not that much. I thought I knew how much i love mitch and how deep my feelings were for him, but I didn't. I cried more today than I've ever cried over ANYTHING IN MY LIFE! He held me and kissed me softly. "Baby, don't cry, everything will be ok, we'll see eachother soon, we'll make it." His words were kind and comforting, but the look I saw in his eyes, I could tell he was holding back tears, too.
His eyes were sad, *tears* it just fuckin sucked! We got to security where we kissed one last time. He stood there and watched me until we couldn't see eachother anymore. It was sad. I was bawling....in front of everyone, but I didn't give a shit. While standing there, looking back at him from across the security checkpoint, I had considered dropping my bags and giving him one last hug and kiss. I wanted to so bad.
It's crazy how perfectly we fit. When we hold hands, when we kiss, our lips fit perfect, when he holds me, everything was just perfect. It couldn't of gone better. It was more than I thought possible. I've never loved someone as much as I love Mitch. I know he's the one for me. I didn't think it was possible for us to have a stronger connection than what we had, but it grew while I was there. Amazing.
His friends are so cool. I liked them a lot. Great people with good hearts. It was a very enjoyable time. Something in my life I'll never forget. He'll be here May 17th then he and I will jet back to Orlando together for infinity on May 22nd. My mom has to go to Texas on business, it could be as early as this week or beginning of next week. When she comes back, if I can pull the money out of my ass, I'll be going back to Orlando as early as the 18 of THIS month.
People, please pray for me. Pray that I get the chance to go sooner. I need him more than I can put into words. He's the air in my lungs, the beat of my heart, the reason behind my smile, the bounce in my step, the happiness in my soul, he's the light in my eyes. He's the love of my life and I need to be with him more than I ever thought it was humanly possible to need to be with someone. We were made for eachother. I'm so glad that he and I are on the same level of life and love.
Mitch, baby I love you so much. Thank you for everything you did for me, my family, and us this week. Thank you for making my life so beautiful. Thank you for the gifts, material and especially, non material. It was the most incredible time of my life and I can't wait to be back with you because I know our love won't die.
Tiamo y baccio
Bre