I couldn't handle it anymore
Bawling as Mitch tried to calm me down, I realized I can't handle the distance anymore. It sucks! I'll be seeing him 2 weeks from tomorrow, but to turn around and walk away from him.....can't do it. Even tho I'm planning on going back later in the summer, I don't want to leave. The reason why I couldn't go to him was because my mom was in Iraq, but now that she'll be home, there's no REAL reason why I can't leave, right? If I could find a job down there, which I know I could because I have warehouse, clerical, daycare, and retail backgrounds, im bound to find something fast, right? This is driving me insane. I feel like my heart is going to explode. I don't want to wait anymore. The emotional distress is tearing me apart. I'd love to go to Orlando in a few weeks, come home and return a week later so I can turn in a notice to my jobs here and get an extra weeks pay to take with me. It's crazy, it's drastic, it's NOw, but it feels right. I don't care what anyone thinks, besides Mitch because it's a descision we'll both have to make. My brother and best friend have said to just do it, go, now. I can't get this outta my head.