Daddy issues
I think a lot of my mental fucked up-ness comes from my dad.
He's always been super emotionally abusive, he's constantly on a power trip and he has rage issues like I've never seen.
Ever since I can remember (my mum tells me from the time I was a baby) he would get mad at me if I cried. Like he would yell and scream at me to stop crying and to stop being so sensitive. I was a little fucking kid what do you want, an iron armor? fuck outta here.
He's also really liberal on the name calling - when we get into fights he often calls me a "fucking little bitch" and my mum a "fucking bitch" when she defends me or my brother.
He's got this huge hate on for my brother like it's unreal, because my big bro isn't his (my mum had him long before they even met). I remember one specific occasion when my bro lived with us when my brother made eggs and toast for dinner and my dad screamed at him for using three eggs because he "doesn't need that many" (kid was like 24 years old and a good 200+ pounds built like a brick shithouse) and my dad "wanted three for the morning". Immediately after my bro sat at the table and was proceeded to be screamed at because my dad was "going to sit there". This guy flies off the fucking handle at everything.
WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE REASON I THOUGHT TO POST THIS.
So he's sending out a letter or some shit and asked me to go get stamps from my gramma cause she has like 49385345 rolls of them because she gets 'em free. So I did and I told my mum to put two on just incase because the letter looked kind of thick from where I was sitting and I wanted to make sure it got there and they didn't send it back because of weight. Cue my dad immediately like flipping out and rushing over and grabbing the stamps out of her hand and going YOU WILL NOT, THATS A WASTE OF STAMPS THERES NO NEED ITS NOT THICK AT ALL ITS ONE PIECE OF PAPER AND TWO RECEIPTS. I was like whoa okay why are you getting mad? and he yells at me and goes (with this like disgusting look of rage in his eyes) "I'M NOT GETTING FUCKING MAD YOU'RE OVER REACTING". Me and my mum just looked at each other and I got up and walked away. Usually when I do that, he follows me and says things like "Oh now you're gonna cry stop being so fucking sensitive it's like we can't even have a conversation without you bursting into tears". I'm sorry, maybe I don't like getting screamed at for stupid pointless shit all my life. And he wonders why I lock myself in my room when he's home???
Idk. Being told I'm always overreacting (When I'm not) and to stop crying (when I'm legitimately upset) and the other day hes like "Yeah if you have a psych degree how come you haven't healed yourself yet?". Oh I'm sorry I didn't realize a bachelor of arts in psychology made me magically able to GET RID OF THREE EXTREMELY DEEP ROOTED MENTAL ILLNESSES considering you can't "cure" borderline and people with 38 times my experience have tried and failed.
Get the fuck out of here for real.
He's always been super emotionally abusive, he's constantly on a power trip and he has rage issues like I've never seen.
Ever since I can remember (my mum tells me from the time I was a baby) he would get mad at me if I cried. Like he would yell and scream at me to stop crying and to stop being so sensitive. I was a little fucking kid what do you want, an iron armor? fuck outta here.
He's also really liberal on the name calling - when we get into fights he often calls me a "fucking little bitch" and my mum a "fucking bitch" when she defends me or my brother.
He's got this huge hate on for my brother like it's unreal, because my big bro isn't his (my mum had him long before they even met). I remember one specific occasion when my bro lived with us when my brother made eggs and toast for dinner and my dad screamed at him for using three eggs because he "doesn't need that many" (kid was like 24 years old and a good 200+ pounds built like a brick shithouse) and my dad "wanted three for the morning". Immediately after my bro sat at the table and was proceeded to be screamed at because my dad was "going to sit there". This guy flies off the fucking handle at everything.
WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE REASON I THOUGHT TO POST THIS.
So he's sending out a letter or some shit and asked me to go get stamps from my gramma cause she has like 49385345 rolls of them because she gets 'em free. So I did and I told my mum to put two on just incase because the letter looked kind of thick from where I was sitting and I wanted to make sure it got there and they didn't send it back because of weight. Cue my dad immediately like flipping out and rushing over and grabbing the stamps out of her hand and going YOU WILL NOT, THATS A WASTE OF STAMPS THERES NO NEED ITS NOT THICK AT ALL ITS ONE PIECE OF PAPER AND TWO RECEIPTS. I was like whoa okay why are you getting mad? and he yells at me and goes (with this like disgusting look of rage in his eyes) "I'M NOT GETTING FUCKING MAD YOU'RE OVER REACTING". Me and my mum just looked at each other and I got up and walked away. Usually when I do that, he follows me and says things like "Oh now you're gonna cry stop being so fucking sensitive it's like we can't even have a conversation without you bursting into tears". I'm sorry, maybe I don't like getting screamed at for stupid pointless shit all my life. And he wonders why I lock myself in my room when he's home???
Idk. Being told I'm always overreacting (When I'm not) and to stop crying (when I'm legitimately upset) and the other day hes like "Yeah if you have a psych degree how come you haven't healed yourself yet?". Oh I'm sorry I didn't realize a bachelor of arts in psychology made me magically able to GET RID OF THREE EXTREMELY DEEP ROOTED MENTAL ILLNESSES considering you can't "cure" borderline and people with 38 times my experience have tried and failed.
Get the fuck out of here for real.