i'm in a car underwater

[bellagreeneyes0]

i like never post in here anymore & i apologize a lot believe me! hah. i need to start posting atlest once a week. even if its just to vent and stuff. well i'm listening to dashboard confessional, even though this song is like wayyy too popular lol. ryan and shawn woke me up again last night. i mean ryan has never been a good brother but it seems kind of sad now. i mean hell yeah i gave up on having a decent relationship with him but blah i dunno. its kind of sad all of his decisions he's made. and its really gross the things he believes are right and the things he believes are wrong. like we both have the same parents and i learned not to do what they did but he learned what to do from them.. but the bad things. i find that kind of fucked up. and him more than anyone shouldn't be a jackass bc of that stuff. w/e tho i guess he had melissa preg but she got an abortion like a long time a go and he was pissed off cuz she got one and stuff and he was flipping out last night while i was trying to sleep. well heres just a fucking hint : sleep with girls, cum in them, get them pregnant ;;
girl realizes she can't handle it and has an abortion. BOTTOM line. dont fucking blame the girl. you're the jackass that treated her like shit and GOT her pregnant. wow people piss me off. seriously. now i understand why me and mel don't talk any more. shes so sweet. i think it really sucks that girls have to fall in love with jackasses. bc these jackasses want sex. gross. i hate keith seriously. and everything before "i hate keith" wasnt about him it was about ryan and melissa. so yeah whatever. but i must say goonight cuz i gotta go xoxo