It's Just a Panic Attack...
...but it hates being dissected. Try to assess, heart racing, palms, small of back sweaty, mouth dry, eyes hot and burning...
Struggle for mastery of breath
Succeed for one minute...two...three...ok...ok...
bam
all progress lost
Start over and over and over
What makes it like this?
Is it all bad? It is the same nervous energy that makes a lot of what I do possible, mastery of it is the shortcut to the good speaking voice,,,the hyper-sensitive, over-wrought emotions lead to poetry, power, connection with spirit...
Out of control, it creates stagnation, fear, phobia, hallucination...
In control, it allows ecstasy, epiphany, super human amounts of chop wood, carry water...
I love it when all the choices are mine.
Otherwise, it is war.
Today, the battleground is weary of being overrun with soldiers. It wants not for combative blood. It wants a calm blue sky, to detox in peace...it wants to digest its foul smelling, nasty tasting powerful herbs in warmth and stillness.
Shivering, the battleground grumps off to do the bare minimum of its daily requirements. Its permission was never asked.
Struggle for mastery of breath
Succeed for one minute...two...three...ok...ok...
bam
all progress lost
Start over and over and over
What makes it like this?
Is it all bad? It is the same nervous energy that makes a lot of what I do possible, mastery of it is the shortcut to the good speaking voice,,,the hyper-sensitive, over-wrought emotions lead to poetry, power, connection with spirit...
Out of control, it creates stagnation, fear, phobia, hallucination...
In control, it allows ecstasy, epiphany, super human amounts of chop wood, carry water...
I love it when all the choices are mine.
Otherwise, it is war.
Today, the battleground is weary of being overrun with soldiers. It wants not for combative blood. It wants a calm blue sky, to detox in peace...it wants to digest its foul smelling, nasty tasting powerful herbs in warmth and stillness.
Shivering, the battleground grumps off to do the bare minimum of its daily requirements. Its permission was never asked.