Gift for anyothergirl415 (Spn_J2_Xmas exchange)
Title: Campfire Confessions
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 4241
Warnings: None except for some cursing and slash.
Disclaimer: Entirely fictional.
Summary: Jared asks Jensen to go camping, something Jensen is only to happy to do. What happens when a campfire confessions changes everything?
Written for the lovely anyothergirl415 for spn_j2_xmas This was based from a picture supplied by anyothergirl415on her sign up however my LJ isn't letting me post it right now. I will get this sorted as soon as I can.
Standing at the edge of the pavement, Jensen bounced on his toes in excitement as he watched out for the familiar headlights of Jared’s car. Fingering the straps of the bag he had slung over his shoulder, a small grin curved his lips as he thought about what was to come. Last week Jared had come to him asking if he fancied camping, an opportunity that Jensen all too gladly took him up on for two reasons. One, he really loved camping, something about getting into the middle of nowhere with a fire keeping him warm, the second reason? That was one that he couldn’t admit to anyone, one that he had only recently accepted. He had jumped at the chance because it was Jared. For the past year he had found himself looking at Jared in a completely different way, seeing him as the stunning man he actually was. He had been there for the tears when Jared had broken up with both Genevieve and Sandy, a deep-seated feeling making him wanting to declare they were bitches, that they didn’t deserve him if they were going to break his heart. It was after the break up with Genevieve that he had started to question his feelings for Jared, he himself had just come out of a relationship and the pair of them leaned heavily on one another when he started having the urge to kiss Jared. Yep Jensen Ackles was crazy for his very straight co-star, not that Jensen thought he was gay. He had tried putting it to the test, he had kissed a man at a club recently, feeling nothing he had come to the conclusion he was Padalecki sexual. For that reason, he couldn’t say no to Jared, even if he knew it would never go anywhere. Jensen loved spending time with the other man, his day suddenly brightened by Jared’s personality. He had considered on telling Jared before but had decided against it, he didn’t want to ruin the most amazing friendship he had ever experienced.
Shaking his head at inner machinations, Jensen dragged the strap up a little more to give him a better grip on his bag. Checking his watch he prayed that Jared had remembered to bring the tent. His friend was so absent minded that he was more than likely to have forgotten something. Jensen had tried to take charge but Jared put his hands up saying it was his idea so he would happily organise it. He watched as a car turned the corner, his body illuminated in a flood of light as the car pulled to the side. Jared grinning at him from the driver’s seat. Pulling the back door open, Jensen threw his bag on the seat before opening the front door and slipping in next to Jared. “You ready for some fun Jen? I remembered the tent, sleeping bags and everything, even made sure to bring some booze with me,” Jared said throwing the car into first and moving off.
Cocking an eyebrow Jensen smiled “I’m impressed that you actually remembered Padalecki.”
“Oh fuck you Ackles. I told you I could actually remember things from time to time,” Jared said as he reached over, one hand clamping down onto Jensen’s shoulder. His squeeze hard before lingering a little normal than longer. Jensen looked down at the large fingers curved over his shoulder before levelling his gaze at this friend. Jared blushed, his hand pulling back as though on fire as he realised how long he had left it on Jensen’s shoulder. Coughing slightly, he said quietly “It will take us about an hour to get there, I’ll stick the radio on,” leaning forward, he put the stereo on before focusing on the road leaving Jensen staring at him in concern.
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A sharp pain in Jensen’s side caused him to jump up in his seat, his eyes flying open, vision blurry as he glanced around him. His gaze finally locking on the smirking face of Jared “Dude you fell asleep, I kept calling your name but you were dead to the world.” Pushing his door open, he stepped out peering in at Jensen one last time “Come on, we’re here/”
Rubbing his eyes with the back of his hands, Jensen only prayed that he hadn’t said anything incriminating whilst asleep, he had been known to do that from time to time. Unbuckling his belt he slowly pushed himself from the car before joining Jared at the boot. Both men pulling all the bags and the tent out. Shouldering his bag, Jensen grabbed a few more passed to him before saying “So where we heading to?”
“Just down here, it’s only a few minutes,” Jared said as he closed the boot and setting off between a set of trees. Jensen breathed out determined to have fun and not let his feelings for Jared get in the way of things. Setting off behind his friend, a mutual ribbing between the pair finally making any apprehension Jensen had, disappear. He had no idea how long they walked for when Jared finally stopped, setting his bags and tent on the ground. Jensen watched as the taller man gazed around, a soft smile lighting up his face before he began to pull the tent from its protective sleeve along with the pegs and ties. Dropping the stuff at his feet, Jensen rushed over to help him both of them working together to get it set up when Jared casually said, “So what happened with you and Danneel? You guys seemed so tight and then suddenly things were over?”
Chuckling, Jensen hammered in a peg shaking his head “We just knew it wasn’t going to work Jay. Things just kinda fizzled out I guess. One day, we were fantastic together. The next I woke up realising that she wasn’t what I wanted in life”
“So what do you want in life?” Jared asked curiously. Jensen looked up in surprise at the curious tone, Jared’s face covered with his shaggy hair as he pressed another peg into the ground hiding his expression from Jensen.
“I want something that I know I will never have but I couldn’t keep on living a lie,” Jensen said softly. His eyes locking with Jared’s whose head shot up at his words. Jensen shivered the spark of something unknown flashing in the hazel orbs boring into him, a spark he couldn’t put a name on but wanted to see more of. “I’ve been meaning to ask, what happened with you and Gen?”
Jared’s face flushed with colour at the question. Staring at Jensen for a moment in stony silence, he shook his head “I don’t want to talk about it Jen. Listen you throw the sleeping bags and other shit in the tent. I’m gonna go get wood for a fire”
He started to move away when Jensen reached out grasping Jared’s wrist, his whole body concerned “Dude what happened? You never hide this sort of stuff from me; you know that you can talk to me ok?”
Jared smiled softly pulling his wrist away from Jensen’s, “I know, I just can’t, not with you” he turned on his heel walking towards the tree’s they came through leaving Jensen staring after him, his body throbbing with confusion.
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A few hours later, things hadn’t gone back to normal. Jared had returned withdrawn and sad as he put together their fire. Jensen had made them food, something that would normally draw a smile from the taller man. Yet when he handed him the plate, he was met with a sorry looking Jared.
Now the two of them were lying next to one another in front of the fire when Jared pulled two beers from the cooler. Jared threw one to Jensen, the other man catching it easily. Silently opening them, they both stared into the fire; the crackling of the wood soothing them both when Jared looked at Jensen. “Thanks for coming with me Jen” he rested a hand on Jensen’s thigh squeezing it tightly.
Jensen’s thigh jumped under the contact, his eyes flying up to Jared before he nodded “It’s cool, I love camping you know that.”
“I know.” he replied, his eyes locked on to the glow of the fire. Jensen’s breath ripped away from him as he longingly stared at the beauty that was Jared, each beautiful outline illuminated from the flames. Jared’s eyes moved from the fire slowly resting on Jensen’s face when he said, “Gen broke up with me because she thought we were having an affair.”
“What? Are you fucking kidding me? She thought we were having an affair…where the hell did she get that idea?” Jensen said his voice laced with disbelief.
“It was because we were always together; everything that I do is always with you Jensen. She started to feed into the whole press thing that maybe there was more than just friendship between us” Jared replied.
Pushing to his feet, Jensen shook his head “That’s crazy… you know nothing has ever happened like that” even though he would have been perfectly happy if it had. “She’s off her head for even believing it.” he declared.
Pressing down on the ground Jared pushed himself to his feet, his body towering over Jensen’s as he turned his eyes back to his best friend. There was an emotion that Jensen couldn’t read, something burning deep inside of Jared when his friend spoke “She asked if I was in love with you…” Jensen watched as a myriad of emotions ran across Jared’s face before a look of determination locked itself in. “I told her the truth; I told I had loved you from the very first day I had met you. I was just too chicken shit to do anything about it.” Jared’s hands curved round his body as though protecting himself from what he had just declared.
Jensen jumped back startled at Jared’s words, his mind running a million miles an hour. His mind cleared as he became aware of Jared’s large body pressing up against his. Giving a chance to feel every hard contour of his friend’s body pressed into his, Jensen’s eyes flickering shut as he felt the hardness of Jared’s cock pressing into his thigh. Staring into the bright flames of their campfire Jensen whispered, “Why are you doing this?”
Jared’s hands rested on Jensen’s hips, the fingers digging into the skin. “I’m doing this because I have wanted to for so long Jen…so long. At night I find myself thinking of you, lying in my bed trying to go to sleep, your face is the last thing I see. When I was making love to Gen, it wasn’t her under me... it was you. Every time I have jerked off, it has been your name on my lips. God Jensen, you really never knew did you? I thought that Gen and Sandy would have taken it all away, you had Danneel and I had no one, it seemed like the best thing to do. Then you broke up with Danneel and things changed. I saw the way you looked at me, that spark of interest that I only hoped was the same as mine.” Jared lifted a hand placing it under Jensen’s chin, forcing him to look from the fire up into the blazing hazel eyes of Jared. “It’s always been you Jensen,” he said softly, his eyes searching Jensen’s face trying to see how he was going to react.
Jensen froze, his whole being shell shocked at what Jared had told him. Staring at him, he saw the way Jared felt about him, it was written all over his face…love. A smile crossed his face as he closed the distance between them slowly, so achingly slowly to give Jared a chance to back away if he wanted when suddenly his lips connected with the warm soft heat of Jared’s. Both men melting into the kiss, a slow lazy pace as they got used to the feel of one another.
Jared groaned as his tongue explored Jensen’s mouth, its path running over the soft palate before seeking Jensen’s tongue, both dancing around one another. Jared pulled Jensen closer, both men’s bodies pressed as closely as they could when the pace changed, more desperate, a deeper desire to explore more. Hands began to fumble with shirts as they deepened their kiss, muffled laughter as their arms caught in sleeves before wrapping around one another again. Pulling back, Jensen stared at Jared before saying “I want you Jay, so much, I always have. I want you in…you in” he stumbled over the words, a sudden attack of nerves. Swallowing deeply he pressed on “I want you inside me Jay”
A large grin crossed Jared’s face as he nodded eagerly “Of course Jen, god I want to so bad. You wanna go in the tent or something?”
Looking back at the fire, Jensen shook his head before turning back to his soon to be lover. “I want you right here, next to the fire,” he said before flying forward. Connecting to Jared with a ferocity that startled them both sending them backwards on to the hard ground, a puff of dust flying up as they connected with the dirt. Jensen slowly mapped out each and every contour of Jared’s chest, as he slowly made his way down to the dark buttons holding the secrets to his every fantasy for the past six years. Grinning up at Jared, he watched as the taller man’s eyes darkened, his mouth hanging open slightly as Jensen slowly pushed the buttons through the holes. His fingers rolling around the denim and slowly pulling the denim from Jared’s skin. Swaths of tanned skin being exposed when Jensen caught sight of what he had been wanting, Jared’s incredibly large cock. One, which at the moment was jutting straight towards Jensen’s mouth. All hard smooth muscle, the tip weeping with pre come. Licking his lips, he locked eyes with Jared again as he moved forward, his mouth encompassing Jared’s cock. Watching from under his lashes, he saw Jared’s head hit the ground with a loud groan, a few twigs from a tree above them hitting Jared’s hair. Grinning around the cock in his mouth, he gave a good long suck as he watched the other man become completely undone.
Hands wrapped in Jensen’s hair dragging him from Jared’s cock, his eyes locking with the lust blown ones of his lover “What?” he asked quietly.
Not speaking, Jared pulled Jensen towards him smashing their lips together. Caught off guard, Jared quickly switched positions. Jensen’s head connecting with the ground, a loud oomph sounding from between his lips. Staring up Jensen chuckled, there was twigs dangling from Jared’s hair, smatters of dirt covering his large body. Leaning up, he pulled a twig, showing it to the man towering above him. Both men laughing at the sight they made, both knowing they were only going to get dirtier. Jensen’s breath caught as Jared’s fingers played with the buttons on his jeans, slowly pulling them and his boxers from his body. A tremor ripped through his body at the cool air hitting his most sensitive areas.
Smirking down at Jensen, Jared quickly covered his body with his own. Both gasping as the heat from their cocks hit one another. Jensen's mouth fell open letting out a moan that was unbridled sex causing Jared to shudder, grinding his hips into the ones below him. "Jay…please" he heard being whispered.
Looking into the lust filled green orbs; he smiled “What Jen? What do you want?"
Jensen grasped at his ass growling "You. All I have ever wanted is you…please."
"Soon Jensen…soon" With deliberately slow movements, Jared shifted his attention to his lovers delicate neck. Leaning down to gently kiss the skin, before running his tongue along the prominent vein, sucking at it, and moaning at the taste. God he could spend forever doing this. Jensen moaned his appreciation at the feeling, as Jared leisurely made his way down. His tongue leaving a searing path of heat as he trailed along his collarbone, before licking and nipping downwards to Jensen's chest, eyes continually glancing up at Jensen to absorb and take pleasure in the sensually provocative expression across his face.
Delicately, Jared tasted, and licked around one hard nipple, taking it into his mouth, and sucking at it with an eagerness that took both men's breath away. With a satisfied smirk, Jared descended lower working his tongue across the rippling abdominals, causing Jensen's stomach to tremor at the feeling. In that moment he decided nothing was going to come between them…never. He was going to spend every moment he could making this man happy and working to get these reactions out of him as much as possible.
Jared brushed his lips along Jensen's skin until he reached his throbbing cock, his tongue emerging to lick a trail all the way to the tip, Jensen's body erupting into a spasm of shivers as he let out a low, guttural moan, hips bucking. Jared smirked around the cock in his mouth; he was loving every moment of making Jensen come undone. This was the first time he had ever done anything like this…but damn, he sure, as shit was going to continue doing it with Jensen, something had awakened in him. Something about having Jensen’s cock in his mouth, making the other man moan and thrust, his whole body on fire as Jared tended to him.
Ever so slightly, Jared let up the pressure to let his tongue run up the veiny underside until he reached the head. The salty taste of pre-cum hit Jared’s tongue ripping a loud moan from him, the vibrations causing Jensen to scream "FUCK" his hips raising off the dirt, his cock hitting the back of Jared's throat. Pushing his hands on Jensen’s hips, Jared pinned the other man to the ground as he continued to tease him with his tongue, every so often grazing his teeth lightly on the soft skin. From the corner of his eye, he saw Jensen digging his fingers into the dirt, his hips bucking wildly as Jared kept him pinned down. Hollowing his cheeks, Jared sucked and slurped his way up and down Jensen's hard cock, a gratuitous groan every now and again, only heightening the pleasure, until Jensen groaned "Fuck Jay, so close."
Jared kept creating the much-needed friction that kept Jensen on the knives edge, as his head bobbed in time with his thrusts, which were growing more erratic as the moments passed. But just when Jensen was teetering at the edge of that knife about to fall into a haze of sexual high inducing pleasure, Jared stopped.
Pulling his mouth off Jensen, Jared leaned back up locking eyes with his lover. Both breathing heavily, Jared whispered, “This is my first time Jen. I want the first time either of us come to be when I’m inside of you.”
Nodding softly Jensen smiled up at him “I want that too Jay, just be careful.”
“I’ll look after you, don’t worry Jensen,” Jared said softly leaning over to catch his lips in a searing kiss.
Jensen moaned quietly, head raising to keep the addictive contact as long as possible as Jared gradually pulled away, and proffered two of his fingers, placing the tips to Jensen's full soft lips. Opening his mouth, he let Jared push his fingers through them resting on his tongue. He sucked them thoroughly, coating them in his saliva the best he could, finding satisfaction in the whining groan Jared gave out at the sight. "God Jen, seeing you do that. Shit the things it does to me." Jensen smirked round the fingers before nipping the tip of one with his teeth. "Jerk," Jared teased, as he pushed his fingers in a little further to let Jensen’s saliva coat them a little a more.
Once his fingers were slicked as much as they could be Jared retracted them, and shifted back down Jensen's body, nipping lightly at his chest and abs as he did so. Ever so sensually, Jared glided the tips of his fingers around the ring of Jensen's entrance, his talented mouth moving back to swirl his tongue around the tip of the other man's hard cock, the pre-cum leaking a little more, exploding over his taste buds like chocolate.
With slow, precise movements, Jared eased both his fingers into Jensen's hole, scissoring them in order to gradually stretch the muscle in a way to cause Jensen as little pain as possible. As he did so, he moved his other hand to stroke Jensen's cock in order to distract him from the obtrusive fingers. Jensen barely even noticed the intrusion however, as he let out a slutty moan thrusting involuntarily into Jared's hand, the movement causing the other man's fingers to slide out before sliding back in.
"Jared please, I want you inside of me now," Jensen moaned looking at his lover's hazel eyes taken aback by the raw emotion showing in them. Jared nodded rubbing his cock a few times to coat it in pre cum before lying over Jensen, lining up to his entrance. Ever so slowly, far to slowly for Jensen's liking, Jared eased himself forward the head of his throbbing member breaching the tight ring of muscle, and eliciting a gasp of expected pain from Jensen, as his hand flew to his mouth to bite down on his knuckles. Jared eyed him carefully, forcing the gut-wrenching lust back to be completely sure Jensen wasn't harmed, he knew he was bigger than most men and the last thing he wanted to do was cause Jensen harm. Once he was sure the other man was okay, he inhaled deeply, abs clenching, his fingers digging into the soft skin of Jensen's thighs. He bit his cheek, before rolling his hips forward, pleased with the groan of pleasure that erupted from Jensen. The man’s other hand darting down to frantically stroke himself, as Jared gently pulled himself out, and then thrust his hips forward slowly.
He buried himself completely inside Jensen's body, gasping a hot breath as his tight walls clenched along the length of his member, massaging it and causing Jared’s eyes to roll back in his head, nearly Cumming right then. "Fuck Jensen, you‘re so tight…never felt anything like this before. God it's enough to make me cum right now" he whispered in his lover’s ear as he set a slow movement which had them both groaning with pleasure. Jared quickly found the spot, which had his lover writhing below him in ecstasy. Increasing the speed a little, he hit Jensen's prostate in quick succession whilst grabbing the other man's forgotten cock in his hand. Jensen began to thrust into his hand as he let go, succumbing to the sexual high that he had been declined earlier. “We should have done this before now,” Jared groaned as he thrust in to Jensen, a small puff of dust hitting them both at the force.
"I know…god you feel amazing Jay. You‘re filling me up, can feel every bit of you." Jensen replied in a strangled tone as his body arched off the ground "Fuck…oh god Jay…I'm" his words became a jumble of incoherent mumblings as thick white cum spurted from his cock, coating his abs and chest with pearls of his creamy essence. His eyes screwed shut as he continued to ride the rollercoaster of bliss as Jared continued thrusting frantically. The sight of Jensen losing control was his own undoing as he followed suit seconds later, he felt his warm cum lining the inside of Jensen.
Resting on his arms above Jensen, Jared looked down at him. His face blown with lust, a red sheen covering his cheeks, green eyes bright with desire, his lips swollen from Jared’s kisses. They smiled at one another when Jared whispered “Thank you Jen…thank you.”
“What for?” Jensen replied. He reached a hand up to gently cup Jared’s cheek. A rush of surprise ran through him as he saw the tears glistening in his lover’s eyes. “What’s wrong?” he asked in concern.
“Nothing Jensen. I’m just so happy,” Jared said softly. “Thank you for being you Jen and for sharing this with me…so long I have wanted this” he trailed off. He rolled to the side pulling Jensen into his arms, both basking in the heat emanating off the campfire. Long fingers ran through Jensen’s hair as he spoke “I’m so sorry I never said anything before Jen. I was just so scared man, I thought you were straight and when I realised my feelings…well I figured you would run a mile”
Jensen drew circles on Jared’s muscular chest, a smile curving his lips. “It’s ok Jay. When I realised how I felt, I freaked thinking that you were straight. I was so scared to tell you but you know what we have all the time in the world to make up for that.” he leaned up to kiss Jared before whispering “Should we maybe move into the tent now, I have dirt in places I don’t even wanna think about.”
“Soon” Jared murmured as he opened his lips under Jensen’s, their hands roaming across one another’s bodies, any thought of the warm tent forgotten as they began to make up for lost time again.
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 4241
Warnings: None except for some cursing and slash.
Disclaimer: Entirely fictional.
Summary: Jared asks Jensen to go camping, something Jensen is only to happy to do. What happens when a campfire confessions changes everything?
Written for the lovely anyothergirl415 for spn_j2_xmas This was based from a picture supplied by anyothergirl415on her sign up however my LJ isn't letting me post it right now. I will get this sorted as soon as I can.
Standing at the edge of the pavement, Jensen bounced on his toes in excitement as he watched out for the familiar headlights of Jared’s car. Fingering the straps of the bag he had slung over his shoulder, a small grin curved his lips as he thought about what was to come. Last week Jared had come to him asking if he fancied camping, an opportunity that Jensen all too gladly took him up on for two reasons. One, he really loved camping, something about getting into the middle of nowhere with a fire keeping him warm, the second reason? That was one that he couldn’t admit to anyone, one that he had only recently accepted. He had jumped at the chance because it was Jared. For the past year he had found himself looking at Jared in a completely different way, seeing him as the stunning man he actually was. He had been there for the tears when Jared had broken up with both Genevieve and Sandy, a deep-seated feeling making him wanting to declare they were bitches, that they didn’t deserve him if they were going to break his heart. It was after the break up with Genevieve that he had started to question his feelings for Jared, he himself had just come out of a relationship and the pair of them leaned heavily on one another when he started having the urge to kiss Jared. Yep Jensen Ackles was crazy for his very straight co-star, not that Jensen thought he was gay. He had tried putting it to the test, he had kissed a man at a club recently, feeling nothing he had come to the conclusion he was Padalecki sexual. For that reason, he couldn’t say no to Jared, even if he knew it would never go anywhere. Jensen loved spending time with the other man, his day suddenly brightened by Jared’s personality. He had considered on telling Jared before but had decided against it, he didn’t want to ruin the most amazing friendship he had ever experienced.
Shaking his head at inner machinations, Jensen dragged the strap up a little more to give him a better grip on his bag. Checking his watch he prayed that Jared had remembered to bring the tent. His friend was so absent minded that he was more than likely to have forgotten something. Jensen had tried to take charge but Jared put his hands up saying it was his idea so he would happily organise it. He watched as a car turned the corner, his body illuminated in a flood of light as the car pulled to the side. Jared grinning at him from the driver’s seat. Pulling the back door open, Jensen threw his bag on the seat before opening the front door and slipping in next to Jared. “You ready for some fun Jen? I remembered the tent, sleeping bags and everything, even made sure to bring some booze with me,” Jared said throwing the car into first and moving off.
Cocking an eyebrow Jensen smiled “I’m impressed that you actually remembered Padalecki.”
“Oh fuck you Ackles. I told you I could actually remember things from time to time,” Jared said as he reached over, one hand clamping down onto Jensen’s shoulder. His squeeze hard before lingering a little normal than longer. Jensen looked down at the large fingers curved over his shoulder before levelling his gaze at this friend. Jared blushed, his hand pulling back as though on fire as he realised how long he had left it on Jensen’s shoulder. Coughing slightly, he said quietly “It will take us about an hour to get there, I’ll stick the radio on,” leaning forward, he put the stereo on before focusing on the road leaving Jensen staring at him in concern.
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A sharp pain in Jensen’s side caused him to jump up in his seat, his eyes flying open, vision blurry as he glanced around him. His gaze finally locking on the smirking face of Jared “Dude you fell asleep, I kept calling your name but you were dead to the world.” Pushing his door open, he stepped out peering in at Jensen one last time “Come on, we’re here/”
Rubbing his eyes with the back of his hands, Jensen only prayed that he hadn’t said anything incriminating whilst asleep, he had been known to do that from time to time. Unbuckling his belt he slowly pushed himself from the car before joining Jared at the boot. Both men pulling all the bags and the tent out. Shouldering his bag, Jensen grabbed a few more passed to him before saying “So where we heading to?”
“Just down here, it’s only a few minutes,” Jared said as he closed the boot and setting off between a set of trees. Jensen breathed out determined to have fun and not let his feelings for Jared get in the way of things. Setting off behind his friend, a mutual ribbing between the pair finally making any apprehension Jensen had, disappear. He had no idea how long they walked for when Jared finally stopped, setting his bags and tent on the ground. Jensen watched as the taller man gazed around, a soft smile lighting up his face before he began to pull the tent from its protective sleeve along with the pegs and ties. Dropping the stuff at his feet, Jensen rushed over to help him both of them working together to get it set up when Jared casually said, “So what happened with you and Danneel? You guys seemed so tight and then suddenly things were over?”
Chuckling, Jensen hammered in a peg shaking his head “We just knew it wasn’t going to work Jay. Things just kinda fizzled out I guess. One day, we were fantastic together. The next I woke up realising that she wasn’t what I wanted in life”
“So what do you want in life?” Jared asked curiously. Jensen looked up in surprise at the curious tone, Jared’s face covered with his shaggy hair as he pressed another peg into the ground hiding his expression from Jensen.
“I want something that I know I will never have but I couldn’t keep on living a lie,” Jensen said softly. His eyes locking with Jared’s whose head shot up at his words. Jensen shivered the spark of something unknown flashing in the hazel orbs boring into him, a spark he couldn’t put a name on but wanted to see more of. “I’ve been meaning to ask, what happened with you and Gen?”
Jared’s face flushed with colour at the question. Staring at Jensen for a moment in stony silence, he shook his head “I don’t want to talk about it Jen. Listen you throw the sleeping bags and other shit in the tent. I’m gonna go get wood for a fire”
He started to move away when Jensen reached out grasping Jared’s wrist, his whole body concerned “Dude what happened? You never hide this sort of stuff from me; you know that you can talk to me ok?”
Jared smiled softly pulling his wrist away from Jensen’s, “I know, I just can’t, not with you” he turned on his heel walking towards the tree’s they came through leaving Jensen staring after him, his body throbbing with confusion.
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A few hours later, things hadn’t gone back to normal. Jared had returned withdrawn and sad as he put together their fire. Jensen had made them food, something that would normally draw a smile from the taller man. Yet when he handed him the plate, he was met with a sorry looking Jared.
Now the two of them were lying next to one another in front of the fire when Jared pulled two beers from the cooler. Jared threw one to Jensen, the other man catching it easily. Silently opening them, they both stared into the fire; the crackling of the wood soothing them both when Jared looked at Jensen. “Thanks for coming with me Jen” he rested a hand on Jensen’s thigh squeezing it tightly.
Jensen’s thigh jumped under the contact, his eyes flying up to Jared before he nodded “It’s cool, I love camping you know that.”
“I know.” he replied, his eyes locked on to the glow of the fire. Jensen’s breath ripped away from him as he longingly stared at the beauty that was Jared, each beautiful outline illuminated from the flames. Jared’s eyes moved from the fire slowly resting on Jensen’s face when he said, “Gen broke up with me because she thought we were having an affair.”
“What? Are you fucking kidding me? She thought we were having an affair…where the hell did she get that idea?” Jensen said his voice laced with disbelief.
“It was because we were always together; everything that I do is always with you Jensen. She started to feed into the whole press thing that maybe there was more than just friendship between us” Jared replied.
Pushing to his feet, Jensen shook his head “That’s crazy… you know nothing has ever happened like that” even though he would have been perfectly happy if it had. “She’s off her head for even believing it.” he declared.
Pressing down on the ground Jared pushed himself to his feet, his body towering over Jensen’s as he turned his eyes back to his best friend. There was an emotion that Jensen couldn’t read, something burning deep inside of Jared when his friend spoke “She asked if I was in love with you…” Jensen watched as a myriad of emotions ran across Jared’s face before a look of determination locked itself in. “I told her the truth; I told I had loved you from the very first day I had met you. I was just too chicken shit to do anything about it.” Jared’s hands curved round his body as though protecting himself from what he had just declared.
Jensen jumped back startled at Jared’s words, his mind running a million miles an hour. His mind cleared as he became aware of Jared’s large body pressing up against his. Giving a chance to feel every hard contour of his friend’s body pressed into his, Jensen’s eyes flickering shut as he felt the hardness of Jared’s cock pressing into his thigh. Staring into the bright flames of their campfire Jensen whispered, “Why are you doing this?”
Jared’s hands rested on Jensen’s hips, the fingers digging into the skin. “I’m doing this because I have wanted to for so long Jen…so long. At night I find myself thinking of you, lying in my bed trying to go to sleep, your face is the last thing I see. When I was making love to Gen, it wasn’t her under me... it was you. Every time I have jerked off, it has been your name on my lips. God Jensen, you really never knew did you? I thought that Gen and Sandy would have taken it all away, you had Danneel and I had no one, it seemed like the best thing to do. Then you broke up with Danneel and things changed. I saw the way you looked at me, that spark of interest that I only hoped was the same as mine.” Jared lifted a hand placing it under Jensen’s chin, forcing him to look from the fire up into the blazing hazel eyes of Jared. “It’s always been you Jensen,” he said softly, his eyes searching Jensen’s face trying to see how he was going to react.
Jensen froze, his whole being shell shocked at what Jared had told him. Staring at him, he saw the way Jared felt about him, it was written all over his face…love. A smile crossed his face as he closed the distance between them slowly, so achingly slowly to give Jared a chance to back away if he wanted when suddenly his lips connected with the warm soft heat of Jared’s. Both men melting into the kiss, a slow lazy pace as they got used to the feel of one another.
Jared groaned as his tongue explored Jensen’s mouth, its path running over the soft palate before seeking Jensen’s tongue, both dancing around one another. Jared pulled Jensen closer, both men’s bodies pressed as closely as they could when the pace changed, more desperate, a deeper desire to explore more. Hands began to fumble with shirts as they deepened their kiss, muffled laughter as their arms caught in sleeves before wrapping around one another again. Pulling back, Jensen stared at Jared before saying “I want you Jay, so much, I always have. I want you in…you in” he stumbled over the words, a sudden attack of nerves. Swallowing deeply he pressed on “I want you inside me Jay”
A large grin crossed Jared’s face as he nodded eagerly “Of course Jen, god I want to so bad. You wanna go in the tent or something?”
Looking back at the fire, Jensen shook his head before turning back to his soon to be lover. “I want you right here, next to the fire,” he said before flying forward. Connecting to Jared with a ferocity that startled them both sending them backwards on to the hard ground, a puff of dust flying up as they connected with the dirt. Jensen slowly mapped out each and every contour of Jared’s chest, as he slowly made his way down to the dark buttons holding the secrets to his every fantasy for the past six years. Grinning up at Jared, he watched as the taller man’s eyes darkened, his mouth hanging open slightly as Jensen slowly pushed the buttons through the holes. His fingers rolling around the denim and slowly pulling the denim from Jared’s skin. Swaths of tanned skin being exposed when Jensen caught sight of what he had been wanting, Jared’s incredibly large cock. One, which at the moment was jutting straight towards Jensen’s mouth. All hard smooth muscle, the tip weeping with pre come. Licking his lips, he locked eyes with Jared again as he moved forward, his mouth encompassing Jared’s cock. Watching from under his lashes, he saw Jared’s head hit the ground with a loud groan, a few twigs from a tree above them hitting Jared’s hair. Grinning around the cock in his mouth, he gave a good long suck as he watched the other man become completely undone.
Hands wrapped in Jensen’s hair dragging him from Jared’s cock, his eyes locking with the lust blown ones of his lover “What?” he asked quietly.
Not speaking, Jared pulled Jensen towards him smashing their lips together. Caught off guard, Jared quickly switched positions. Jensen’s head connecting with the ground, a loud oomph sounding from between his lips. Staring up Jensen chuckled, there was twigs dangling from Jared’s hair, smatters of dirt covering his large body. Leaning up, he pulled a twig, showing it to the man towering above him. Both men laughing at the sight they made, both knowing they were only going to get dirtier. Jensen’s breath caught as Jared’s fingers played with the buttons on his jeans, slowly pulling them and his boxers from his body. A tremor ripped through his body at the cool air hitting his most sensitive areas.
Smirking down at Jensen, Jared quickly covered his body with his own. Both gasping as the heat from their cocks hit one another. Jensen's mouth fell open letting out a moan that was unbridled sex causing Jared to shudder, grinding his hips into the ones below him. "Jay…please" he heard being whispered.
Looking into the lust filled green orbs; he smiled “What Jen? What do you want?"
Jensen grasped at his ass growling "You. All I have ever wanted is you…please."
"Soon Jensen…soon" With deliberately slow movements, Jared shifted his attention to his lovers delicate neck. Leaning down to gently kiss the skin, before running his tongue along the prominent vein, sucking at it, and moaning at the taste. God he could spend forever doing this. Jensen moaned his appreciation at the feeling, as Jared leisurely made his way down. His tongue leaving a searing path of heat as he trailed along his collarbone, before licking and nipping downwards to Jensen's chest, eyes continually glancing up at Jensen to absorb and take pleasure in the sensually provocative expression across his face.
Delicately, Jared tasted, and licked around one hard nipple, taking it into his mouth, and sucking at it with an eagerness that took both men's breath away. With a satisfied smirk, Jared descended lower working his tongue across the rippling abdominals, causing Jensen's stomach to tremor at the feeling. In that moment he decided nothing was going to come between them…never. He was going to spend every moment he could making this man happy and working to get these reactions out of him as much as possible.
Jared brushed his lips along Jensen's skin until he reached his throbbing cock, his tongue emerging to lick a trail all the way to the tip, Jensen's body erupting into a spasm of shivers as he let out a low, guttural moan, hips bucking. Jared smirked around the cock in his mouth; he was loving every moment of making Jensen come undone. This was the first time he had ever done anything like this…but damn, he sure, as shit was going to continue doing it with Jensen, something had awakened in him. Something about having Jensen’s cock in his mouth, making the other man moan and thrust, his whole body on fire as Jared tended to him.
Ever so slightly, Jared let up the pressure to let his tongue run up the veiny underside until he reached the head. The salty taste of pre-cum hit Jared’s tongue ripping a loud moan from him, the vibrations causing Jensen to scream "FUCK" his hips raising off the dirt, his cock hitting the back of Jared's throat. Pushing his hands on Jensen’s hips, Jared pinned the other man to the ground as he continued to tease him with his tongue, every so often grazing his teeth lightly on the soft skin. From the corner of his eye, he saw Jensen digging his fingers into the dirt, his hips bucking wildly as Jared kept him pinned down. Hollowing his cheeks, Jared sucked and slurped his way up and down Jensen's hard cock, a gratuitous groan every now and again, only heightening the pleasure, until Jensen groaned "Fuck Jay, so close."
Jared kept creating the much-needed friction that kept Jensen on the knives edge, as his head bobbed in time with his thrusts, which were growing more erratic as the moments passed. But just when Jensen was teetering at the edge of that knife about to fall into a haze of sexual high inducing pleasure, Jared stopped.
Pulling his mouth off Jensen, Jared leaned back up locking eyes with his lover. Both breathing heavily, Jared whispered, “This is my first time Jen. I want the first time either of us come to be when I’m inside of you.”
Nodding softly Jensen smiled up at him “I want that too Jay, just be careful.”
“I’ll look after you, don’t worry Jensen,” Jared said softly leaning over to catch his lips in a searing kiss.
Jensen moaned quietly, head raising to keep the addictive contact as long as possible as Jared gradually pulled away, and proffered two of his fingers, placing the tips to Jensen's full soft lips. Opening his mouth, he let Jared push his fingers through them resting on his tongue. He sucked them thoroughly, coating them in his saliva the best he could, finding satisfaction in the whining groan Jared gave out at the sight. "God Jen, seeing you do that. Shit the things it does to me." Jensen smirked round the fingers before nipping the tip of one with his teeth. "Jerk," Jared teased, as he pushed his fingers in a little further to let Jensen’s saliva coat them a little a more.
Once his fingers were slicked as much as they could be Jared retracted them, and shifted back down Jensen's body, nipping lightly at his chest and abs as he did so. Ever so sensually, Jared glided the tips of his fingers around the ring of Jensen's entrance, his talented mouth moving back to swirl his tongue around the tip of the other man's hard cock, the pre-cum leaking a little more, exploding over his taste buds like chocolate.
With slow, precise movements, Jared eased both his fingers into Jensen's hole, scissoring them in order to gradually stretch the muscle in a way to cause Jensen as little pain as possible. As he did so, he moved his other hand to stroke Jensen's cock in order to distract him from the obtrusive fingers. Jensen barely even noticed the intrusion however, as he let out a slutty moan thrusting involuntarily into Jared's hand, the movement causing the other man's fingers to slide out before sliding back in.
"Jared please, I want you inside of me now," Jensen moaned looking at his lover's hazel eyes taken aback by the raw emotion showing in them. Jared nodded rubbing his cock a few times to coat it in pre cum before lying over Jensen, lining up to his entrance. Ever so slowly, far to slowly for Jensen's liking, Jared eased himself forward the head of his throbbing member breaching the tight ring of muscle, and eliciting a gasp of expected pain from Jensen, as his hand flew to his mouth to bite down on his knuckles. Jared eyed him carefully, forcing the gut-wrenching lust back to be completely sure Jensen wasn't harmed, he knew he was bigger than most men and the last thing he wanted to do was cause Jensen harm. Once he was sure the other man was okay, he inhaled deeply, abs clenching, his fingers digging into the soft skin of Jensen's thighs. He bit his cheek, before rolling his hips forward, pleased with the groan of pleasure that erupted from Jensen. The man’s other hand darting down to frantically stroke himself, as Jared gently pulled himself out, and then thrust his hips forward slowly.
He buried himself completely inside Jensen's body, gasping a hot breath as his tight walls clenched along the length of his member, massaging it and causing Jared’s eyes to roll back in his head, nearly Cumming right then. "Fuck Jensen, you‘re so tight…never felt anything like this before. God it's enough to make me cum right now" he whispered in his lover’s ear as he set a slow movement which had them both groaning with pleasure. Jared quickly found the spot, which had his lover writhing below him in ecstasy. Increasing the speed a little, he hit Jensen's prostate in quick succession whilst grabbing the other man's forgotten cock in his hand. Jensen began to thrust into his hand as he let go, succumbing to the sexual high that he had been declined earlier. “We should have done this before now,” Jared groaned as he thrust in to Jensen, a small puff of dust hitting them both at the force.
"I know…god you feel amazing Jay. You‘re filling me up, can feel every bit of you." Jensen replied in a strangled tone as his body arched off the ground "Fuck…oh god Jay…I'm" his words became a jumble of incoherent mumblings as thick white cum spurted from his cock, coating his abs and chest with pearls of his creamy essence. His eyes screwed shut as he continued to ride the rollercoaster of bliss as Jared continued thrusting frantically. The sight of Jensen losing control was his own undoing as he followed suit seconds later, he felt his warm cum lining the inside of Jensen.
Resting on his arms above Jensen, Jared looked down at him. His face blown with lust, a red sheen covering his cheeks, green eyes bright with desire, his lips swollen from Jared’s kisses. They smiled at one another when Jared whispered “Thank you Jen…thank you.”
“What for?” Jensen replied. He reached a hand up to gently cup Jared’s cheek. A rush of surprise ran through him as he saw the tears glistening in his lover’s eyes. “What’s wrong?” he asked in concern.
“Nothing Jensen. I’m just so happy,” Jared said softly. “Thank you for being you Jen and for sharing this with me…so long I have wanted this” he trailed off. He rolled to the side pulling Jensen into his arms, both basking in the heat emanating off the campfire. Long fingers ran through Jensen’s hair as he spoke “I’m so sorry I never said anything before Jen. I was just so scared man, I thought you were straight and when I realised my feelings…well I figured you would run a mile”
Jensen drew circles on Jared’s muscular chest, a smile curving his lips. “It’s ok Jay. When I realised how I felt, I freaked thinking that you were straight. I was so scared to tell you but you know what we have all the time in the world to make up for that.” he leaned up to kiss Jared before whispering “Should we maybe move into the tent now, I have dirt in places I don’t even wanna think about.”
“Soon” Jared murmured as he opened his lips under Jensen’s, their hands roaming across one another’s bodies, any thought of the warm tent forgotten as they began to make up for lost time again.