*sigh*
Well, just sitting here, reading some old LJ archives...Bored mostly, but by reading them I have just made myself depressed. I can't believe some of the stupid shit I have done in the last year. *sigh* If I could go back in time, there are some many thing I would change. So many things I wish I COULD change. Back earlier in the year what I thought was going on, I thought was the right thing....now I don't exactly know. I really really don't know. As of right now I don't even know what to think of myself. *sigh* I don't know what to do...I'm sure no one will have any idea of what I am talking about here. And that is probally for the best. I just wish it hadn't happend. And I know I can't change it. Its utterly amazing how much a person can change in so little time, maybe I did it out of pure spite, I really don't know. I don't know what the hell came over me...I really really don't know.